What is the reason for your suicidal ideations?

[iwanttodie019]

and if that problem was solved,would you still be suicidal?

 

[ginko0]

Life. And if it were solved I'd no longer need suicide xd

 

[wham311]

Everybpiece of information I digest is traumatic bc I associate it with really fucked up stuff

My sexuality is dependent on things that are harmful to my well-being

No work ethic

No people skills

Severe skin damage due to steroid use

Body fell apart due to steroid use

No hobbies

No friends

No place of my own

Homeless soon


Essentially if I wasn't me, yes I wouldnt kill myself but everything about me is trash and trashed

 

[FoxSauce]

Stress. Life. Random. Loneliness

 

[frayed]

There's the poor mental health.
Probably not. But I can't be sure atp

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish to cease existing as I just want peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see existence as the most torturous abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I always find it so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this futile, torturous existence just waiting to die anyway.

For me existence is the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I only wish for peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this futile, deeply undesirable existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just to die in agony from old age. I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just always suffer so much as a result of existence, I suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist again, I wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered.

 

[frayed]

Everybpiece of information I digest is traumatic bc I associate it with really fucked up stuff

My sexuality is dependent on things that are harmful to my well-being

No work ethic

No people skills

Severe skin damage due to steroid use

Body fell apart due to steroid use

No hobbies

No friends

No place of my own

Homeless soon


Essentially if I wasn't me, yes I wouldnt kill myself but everything about me is trash and trashed

You must have Cushing's now if you used so much steroids

 

[iwanttodie019]

I wish to cease existing as I just want peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see existence as the most torturous abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I always find it so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this futile, torturous existence just waiting to die anyway.

For me existence is the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I only wish for peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this futile, deeply undesirable existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence just to die in agony from old age. I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just always suffer so much as a result of existence, I suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist again, I wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered.

What is the method you plan on using and which country are you from?

Stress. Life. Random. Loneliness

What method you plan on using and where are you from?

 

[wham311]

You must have Cushing's now if you used so much steroids

Lot of symptoms but I don't think I have it.

I see excessive cortisol causes it so I will most likely get it at some point if I don't have it already

You must have Cushing's now if you used so much steroids

Steroids cause this?

You must have Cushing's now if you used so much steroids

Steroids cause this?

 

[Andrew10]

various events and experiences that happened in my life and my perspective on how this world works, even if I had no problems, my perspective on this world doesn't change, it just all ends in boredom, sadness and evil constantly hovering. While you must make great efforts to have good things, the bad comes free.

In case you ask if I plan to use a method, I'll answer you: Years ago I was close to CTB with the Innert Gas method, but something unknown kicked me in at the last second causing me to survive remaining 3 days with a horrible headache unable to get out of bed, my brain got damaged and my vision too but forever. My only regret was self-sabotaging the method, I wish I had caught my bus. But I learned from this and I'm building up the courage to have another and last attempt, next time the bus will be mine .

 

[iwanttodie019]

ho

various events and experiences that happened in my life and my perspective on how this world works, even if I had no problems, my perspective on this world doesn't change, it just all ends in boredom, sadness and evil constantly hovering. While you must make great efforts to have good things, the bad comes free.

In case you ask if I plan to use a method, I'll answer you: Years ago I was close to CTB with the Innert Gas method, but something unknown kicked me in at the last second causing me to survive remaining 3 days with a horrible headache unable to get out of bed, my brain got damaged and my vision too but forever. My only regret was self-sabotaging the method, I wish I had caught my bus. But I learned from this and I'm building up the courage to have another and last attempt, next time the bus will be mine .

how old are you and where are you from?

 

[frayed]

Steroids cause this?

excessive steroid use can cause pseudo cushing's (the symptoms); actual cushing's being caused by a tumor in the pituitary or the adrenal gland

 

[wham311]

excessive steroid use can cause pseudo cushing's (the symptoms); actual cushing's being caused by a tumor in the pituitary or the adrenal gland

Sounds about right

 

[trailend]

Being trans and not being accepted + I will never be able to be seen as a "real" woman

Plus I've overstayed in the US after being brought here as a child and I don't have many ways out of this place. I have so little energy for anything and it's been this way since years, I don't think I'll ever have the motivation to actually achieve anything with the situation I was put in.

If it was solved I probably wouldn't be suicidal but I would likely still be depressed, I guess I could still make it through life while not being amazing I'd have more paths and options and less stuff dragging me down.

 

[Andrew10]

ho

how old are you and where are you from?

I turned 21 ten days ago, Spain.

 

[LetMeOut67]

Born loser
Almost certainly on the spectrum
Cannot cope with people at all
Don't like the 21st century and how evil people are becoming

 

[PI3.14]

Failed at life, severe depression and anxiety. My body literally starts shaking and muscles across my body start twitching when I'm surrounded by people I don't know.

I'm also probably on the spectrum.

I'm socially awkward. I'm an introvert by nature and this makes things worse.

I was sexually harassed as a kid which is probably why I'm constantly anxious.

I guess for me to choose to live, none of the above should have happened in the first place.

Forgot to mention that I'm also a perfectionist. This was my attitude since I started middle school. Either get an A or kill yourself. You can see how it's an unhealthy attitude. Guess what happens when you're this much of a perfectionist and end up failing at life? Extreme suicidality ensues.

 

[Dqope]

Got quite a good life...
Earned quite a bit - realized money doesn't drive me
Studied a lot - realized that doesn't drive me and in the end it won't really matter
Traveled quite a bit - realized that doesn't make me happy
Never got into a relationship (even though I am not that bad looking)- because its all fake
So in the end there isn't much reason to stay here, no?

If I fixed it? There is no way to fix my mind and my thoughts on life....
So going out on my terms is the last thing I want for myself. There isn't any way to escape it so I have accepted it.

 

[Paizen]

Everybpiece of information I digest is traumatic bc I associate it with really fucked up stuff

My sexuality is dependent on things that are harmful to my well-being

No work ethic

No people skills

Severe skin damage due to steroid use

Body fell apart due to steroid use

No hobbies

No friends

No place of my own

Homeless soon


Essentially if I wasn't me, yes I wouldnt kill myself but everything about me is trash and trashed

The sex one hits home. I think a lot of people can relate.
I used to be very into SM but then when I finally got into my first real relationship, I realized how much it affected the sex, so I started to phase it out. You can definitely stop being into harmful fetishes. Too bad by the time I did the person already thought of me as some kind of evil pervert (:

 

[aiyuxhan]

Chronic illnesses with no cures and chronic pain 24/7. Went through failed botched surgery, and a medical injury that made things worse for me. My body is a prison and a torture chamber. My existence is just constant pain and suffering. I also have mental illnesses CPTSD, MDD, GAD.

I lost my job, my car, friendships, family don't really talk to me anymore, etc.

I can no longer do my passions and hobbies. Every single movement is painful. I'm mostly homebound.

If I didn't have to live with this hell, I wouldn't even think about suicide because I think other problems are easily dealt with compared to this (I've been homeless before, cheated on, betrayed, etc.). Once your health and mobility is gone. What is there left?

 

[karakoltriste]

My traumas are overwhelming, and the memories haunt me daily. chronic pain that doctors ignore and other strange symptoms. I'm disgusted by the world's cruelty and refuse to be a part of it. The constant grind just to survive, the endless violence and suffering – it's unbearable. I even hate myself. Why keep living in a system I despise and that's destroying me? I can't change it, and I'm not waiting for some revolution. Death seems preferable to conforming.

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

For me it's a feeling that I don't fit into the world. Now in my 40's I realize that's due to undiagnosed ASD. I feel like I have to do so much more to get by. I've been masking for most of my life. I don't know if I'll be able to have the energy to carry on like this.

 

[lv-nii]

Isolation due to social anxiety
My mental problems
Living in a country with no opportunities
Addictions
Loneliness
I'm literally rotting alive

 

[darkandtwisty]

For me, I've been let down and/or been forgotten by everyone who is important to me. My therapist said I feel invisible, which sounds about right.

I feel worthless and replaceable. I am a place holder in people's lives. Nothing more. Nothing less. I feel the most alone when I am around others.

 

[Alexandra0]

The thing is, my body is my cage. Only death can solve this problem