What is the one, single emotion you feel above all else

[BPD_LE]

Shame

 

[snorli]

For me, it'd be disappointment. If my disappointment could be converted into matter and placed within a syringe needle, I'd have enough to kill a fully grown African Elephant.

I could kill a blue whale with my level of disappointment... hell, I could kill the entire multiverse

 

[Mizzmini45]

Disappointed

 

[mediocre]

Despair

 

[Farmmaa]

Hopelessness

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

Lost

 

[charlottewilts]

tie between boredom and loneliness

 

[Taki]

Loathing

 

[enjoy]

diminished.

 

[Mud.]

unlucky.

 

[Circles]

Emptiness. I've always felt hollow and never satisfied with anything in life no matter how hard I forced myself to do something to combat it. When there's no enjoyment or reason to exist whatsoever, nothingness manifest and consumes whatever's left of me.

 

[Roberto]

For me, it'd be disappointment. If my disappointment could be converted into matter and placed within a syringe needle, I'd have enough to kill a fully grown African Elephant.

Impotence, like if everything has a high difficulty : going to buy food, go to study, preparing things to eat, eating, watch a film, maintain my eyes open, my head upright, study, have self-sex. I wish I could avoid all of that, sleep and never wake up. I like when I finish breathing, when I empty my lungs of air and stay seconds without catching more air. Is like peace, to arrive to the bottom, a healing situation for my soul.

 

[SlackJim]

frustration

 

[Moonicide]

Tired

 

[Boochky]

Spite. They know I'm suicidal but no one writes or calls. If an appeal to their humanity won't work, maybe it will just have to come down to their guilt / regret. I can't be alone like this and know that they know I need them.

 

[Shero]

Emotional pain. Like someone trys to squeeze the last inch of breath out of your body. Generally on my chest, near heart region. Its my constant, my shadow that embraces me, that kicks me when im already down, corrupts me and slowly sucks the living essence out of me. I couldn't define this emotion, english isn't my native language, so i hope this metaphoric description applicates to a certain definition.

 

[cluel]

hopelessness and at the same time longing.

 

[RealLostSoul]

Sadness

 

[Enshadowed]

Despondent was the first word that came to mind for me.

 

[Final Escape]

Despair

 

[JustVisiting]

dead

 

[seekingoblivion]

Dread, despair, emptiness etc. They're all strong. Can't pick one.

 

[EndItQuickly]

Defeated

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Worthless

 

[BlueWidow]

Dread, not about ctb— about continuing to be alive.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I also feel dread. I want to die already

 

[HereToday]

Desperation

 

[Razor's Edge]

Rage

That I was even born, to begin with. Rage that all my life, growing up that is, I have been taught that you will go to hell if you commit suicide, which has only instilled fear and guilt for wanting to CTB. Then, I am also cursed with many mental issues that I am anxious to be rid of. I also have chronic pains that I can't wait to be rid of. Then, having SO much trouble planning the right way to CTB, with no chance of coming back. Agggh!!!

 

[TheSoulless]

Anxiety.

 

[exhausted]

Anxiety also.