What is the last thing(s) you're going to do before you ctb?

[kettlevinbarq]

last meals, trips, movies, etc.?

 

[until death]

Cleaning my home before I die

 

[Alltheywanted]

The day of my planned suicide I want to read my favourite book "L'etranger" again, maybe eat some sushi and call people who always has been helpful and kind to me.

 

[bluegodism]

depending on the circumstances, i can go to the location where i'm going to get my SN and buy some things to disguise. if I can't do it the day I bought it, i'll have to do it as quickly as possible.

if I can do it the next morning, even better. i would say goodbye to some people and put on some music. still thinking about what song it will be.. hanoi rocks for sure

 

[Lulzacruel]

Eat food.

 

[Sleeper System]

Eat food.

You say that like you've been deprived of food your entire life lmao!

I would order out from all my favorite spots and pig out one last time.
Then play my ctb song and get into bed and just quietly go into the darkness. (assuming I use N or SN)

 

[nozomu]

I wish I could die in the arms of someone who loves me. But considering that would never happen, I'd at least like to talk to them one last time. I have a feeling that won't happen either. Every time I've been very close, it's been the saddest and loneliest moment I've experienced.

 

[sleepy10]

The very last thing i will do is look at the stars before i go. i plan on going camping alone for a few days that way clean up will be easy.

 

[Little_Suzy]

I'm going to royally fck-up the employee who forgot to cut my pizza.


I'm struggling! As I tear the pizza apart, the toppings come loose and fall off the crust.

 

[Gonnerr]

Breathing loll

Seriously eating a good last meal , listening to music while i do it.

 

[vitbar]

Can't imagine I'll do anything special. Kind of worried my favourite things might stay my hand.

Tidy my stuff so it's easy to deal with.

 

[AInilam]

Throw myself a home-coming, going away party. Lots and lots of psychedelics, splurges, music, favorite foods and sweets.

 

[friendofbirds]

there's a delicious lebanese resturant near me, probably order like 25 bucks of delicious food the night before

 

[Cessation]

If I ever find the courage to go through with it (been 25+ years now since I first realized I wanted out, and no luck yet), or reach the requisite level of despair, I intend to pray. Despite repeated efforts to the contrary, I'm pretty sure I've screwed mostly everything up. I'd consequently not relish the idea of existing needlessly in some hereafter where I'd be sure to be equally useless and do nothing of importance. Prior to that, I guess I'll just pay my last bills, maybe write some goodbye notes.

 

[AveMori]

Since I will use SN there won't be any eating right before it, but I will eat some delicious food the day before. On my last day I will read, watch some really good movies and get into the right mental state. Before ingestion I'll put on some moody music, write my last letters and place warning signs for the people trying to enter to contact authorities and not enter by themselves. I don't know if I will call anybody, I just hate goodbyes too much and my last moments should be about myself!

 

[cats333]

pet my cat and tell him im sorry

 

[Ammended]

I am doing everything I can now, to appreciate the beauty in the everyday and in everything around me. When the day comes, and I know I will only have a small window when it does, I hope I have done enough so that I will not jave to hold out for anything special and will simply have the resolve to carry through.

 

[kissa]

probably meditate

 

[rileywatson]

Immediately before CTB? Probably post on SaSu. In a broader sense I would want to set things up so people wouldn't need me, and I would probably use some kind of dead man's switch to do a lot of it, so as to not alert people to my intentions. Also I'd probably get high.

 

[Morte]

Some fancy last meal probably

 

[MikUma]

I have the plan, it's kind of been set into kind of motion:
1.) Write all my letters and have them soread out on my desk. Write where I want specific things to go, kind of like a will. (I have the letters and the will)
2.) Clear the room of anything I don't want to be found, throw them away somewhere else. Factory reset my computer and phone.
3.) Clean my room to make it as clean as possible when they do cleanup.
4.) Go off site to where my family won't be the first ones to find me; I don't want them finding me first, they don't deserve that.
5.) It should ideally be in the really late hours of the early morning, when nobody is asleep. Send short messages of thanks, if I text them, there's a high chance they have a letter waiting for them on my desk.
7.) CTB. byeeeeeee worlddd i hope these lives that are living have a genuinely great life.

 

[Spectre]

These are so cute and strangely comforting to read. Considering my last set up didn't end up too well unless I have N I think the way I go out is going to be more spur of moment. Whenever I get the nerve or feel enough pain too.

 

[waterrrrrrrrrbottel]

I would have to text all my friends and write a note for my mother. I'd also need to be under the influence of something to rid myself of SI.

 

[Mea Culpa]

It depends, but if things go the way I want, then the last thing I'm planning to do is spending the christmas holiday with the people I love one last time. Then once its passed... I'm hoping I'll be gone.

 

[almaPerdida]

I will enjoy my birthday with my friends before i leave. Then i will smoke my last weed before taking my SN. I want eat my last sushi the day before, then i'll be ready to go as i listen to my playlist i've made to die.

 

[BWV478]

For shits and giggles I'll give you my entire plan. This summer I'm going to withdraw all of my money and leave it with my parents, then take a gun and drive off somewhere far to find a nice secluded part of nature to CTB in. I don't know exactly where yet, probably somewhere out West in the mountains. I'll hang out there for awhile, take in the nature and reflect on the few good times I got to have throughout my dogshit life, listen to some music, watch the sunset descend over the mountains one last time and then end things there.

 

[AvoidingMyself]

I haven't had takeout in a few years. I'll probably pickup some beer, order a pizza then watch a few of my favourite streamers until I'm ready to CTB.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Logically nothing else except ctb. Because anything that I would do from now until I die anyway whether I kill myself or not won't matter in 100 years , 200 years , 1000 years , 1 trillion years. We all won't exist forever in 150 years. I won't remember anything I did after I am not existing.

What that any human alive now could do will matter in 200 years? People think that's a long time but this year 2023 passed by really quick didn't it? The last 5 years?

Even 1000 years is a meaningless blip on the galactic time scale

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd like to say goodbye to a few places. Mostly water related landscapes- the sea, a river, a waterfall, a lake.

I want to listen to Tomita's interpretation of Debussy's 'Reverie':

 

[Aim]

no idea, probably walking around in circels ruminating on what the fuck i am doing. But its happening. So GOD BLESS <3 death isnt scary, its only the time right befire you blast it Haha, But i must say, its probably not going to be a fun experience. But hopefully a peaceful one . tudelu :D