What is the cause of your mental torment?

[Kramer]

Be specific

 

[Deleted member 23774]

The cause of my mental torment is guilt and shame. I made a lot of mistakes and I'm not able to let my past go and move on. I'm unable to forgive myself at all. Also my torment is loneliness because people don't want to be around me because of the way I used to be. I am working on changing and being a better person, but I feel like it is too late for me. I feel like I'm hopeless and a lost cause.

 

[justanotherstar]

Me. I hate myself and it destroys me from the inside out. No amount of therapy or medication or love from family and friends has ever changed such a core belief. There is no one else to blame but me

 

[Okami]

Chronic pain, body dysphoria, self-hatred, etc. I really believe everyone I know would be better off without me.

 

[adam]

social darwinism

 

[CoalmineCanary]

Dark personality disorders in humanity.



(Please excuse my bromance with this guy)

 

[Leech]

PTSD, neglect, untreated mental and physical illness, the fact that bugs exist.
The usual :p

 

[angelfeather]

Having no self worth, respect or belief due to abuse as well as people controlling me all my life...

 

[312]

My parents' overprotection with me being 22 years old. It came at a time that I can't take anymore, and I have no freedom! I already tried to talk and nad right, they still think I'm a child. I don't know how to get out of this situation, because I work but I still live with them.

 

[MindFog]

My unrelenting hate for myself. I am my first and final bully.

 

[WornOutLife]

My past and these pointless but mysterious life and universe

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Me.
Life.
BPD.
PTSD.
Social anxiety.

Thats just the tip of iceberg

 

[Symbiote]

Dealing with childhood trauma and abuse, physical, emotional and sexual. Dealing with the bad choices I made as an adult, and then the toxic living environment with my wife and I. Been through all sorts of therapies and been hospitalized 5 times. I feel like I'm born broken, and the environment around me are trying to break me into tiny pieces that it be impossible for me to glue back together.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

being born

 

[xLosthopex]

The cause of my mental torment is guilt and shame. I made a lot of mistakes and I'm not able to let my past go and move on. I'm unable to forgive myself at all. Also my torment is loneliness because people don't want to be around me because of the way I used to be. I am working on changing and being a better person, but I feel like it is too late for me. I feel like I'm hopeless and a lost cause.

I relate to this a lot. Guilt really does eat you alive, I think it's the worst emotion there is. Pure torture

 

[rottingaway]

ocd and deep self-hatred

 

[SpinTop555]

The cause of my mental torment is guilt and shame. I made a lot of mistakes and I'm not able to let my past go and move on. I'm unable to forgive myself at all. Also my torment is loneliness because people don't want to be around me because of the way I used to be. I am working on changing and being a better person, but I feel like it is too late for me. I feel like I'm hopeless and a lost cause.

Are you me? Seriously, I feel the exact same way.

 

[Sherri]

My depression and anxiety. My fear of getting old and alone. And loneliness. Loneliness for me it's the worst.

 

[Weary Soul]

"What is the cause of your mental torment?"

Life.

 

[greebo6]

Being....;
1- Ugly,
2 - Always broke,
3 - Forever unemployed .
4 - Forever single,
5 - Lack of friends / any socialisation,

 

[StringPuppet]

Depression and social anxiety

 

[EmptyManForever]

Finding out the truth about the psych drugs I was prescribed, made me have a mental breakdown , I lost control and I've been super depressed for like 4 years now after finding out this truth

 

[NodusTollens]

Self-hate.
Chronic Pain.
Mental Health.

 

[LonelyDude15]

The cause of my mental torment is guilt and shame. I made a lot of mistakes and I'm not able to let my past go and move on. I'm unable to forgive myself at all. Also my torment is loneliness because people don't want to be around me because of the way I used to be. I am working on changing and being a better person, but I feel like it is too late for me. I feel like I'm hopeless and a lost cause.

This is me exactly!

 

[watereyes]

High anxiety due to fear of disease. Extreme loneliness. Worthlessness.

 

[awfullife]

Memories of being at the top.
(Money, toys, career, friends, clients)
Reality that it will never happen again.
Self Hatred and no chance at correcting this at my age
Only Jobs I can get are beneath my skills and abilities
Crippling weight of child support >> No chance to get ahead
No recreational activities besides SS
Shame about how far I've fallen
Poverty restricts shopping addiction that was only thing that brought me happiness
Holidays are the worst when you are estranged from kids

 

[rabbithole]

Disability from a botched lumbar puncture. Losing job, boyfriend, school, entire future is gone.

 

[profoundexperience]

The fundamental nature of reality -- how everything has come to be -- appears to be merely "rocks banging into rocks". Pointless in outcome. Supremely wasteful and heedless of suffering. As stupid as stupid can be.

The only thing of any value here are the positive and negative experiences of sentient beings. Although most things we could call "positive" are but the reduction of negatives... e.g., eating satisfying hunger. So, really it's all about negatives driving us to "do stuff" in order to "survive for survival's sake".

Then there are the other human beings: Whose primary motivation is, "What's in it for me?" And, of course that includes me too. You can't blame us though... that's the ~optimal strategy for evolutionary survival. Even our most favored emotion, "love" developed for impure reasons and has ulterior motives.

Unfixable an irreconcilable... slaves to biology, slaves to our childhood conditioning, slaves to physical and mental conditions we cannot control, slaves to the erroneous beliefs and faith others have that, "Life is a 'good thing'."

Damned with no good/fair way out......

 

[Sensei]

Bipolar disorder II and the problems it has entailed.

 

[Mongo]

PTSD from being battered as a child by father throughout childhood.
PTSD from being locked up in a state boy's ranch, in which boys were made to pit fight. Many other horrors there.
PTSD from almost being killed twice in the military
PTSD from hitchhiking cross-country twice as a 16 year old, getting attacked in Texas with a broken bottle
Majority Depressive Disorder from military, and childhood
Chronic pain from spine related birth defect, complicated by 7 auto wrecks, 2 military injuries, and one work injury
Neuropathy below waist causing constant electric shock feeling
Chronic insomnia
Inability to socialize, due to the above
Losing girlfriend and home now, because of the above

Ah, the rich pageant of life.