Discussion What is the best feeling you've ever felt?

[UnravelingWinter]

One of the best feelings I've ever felt was last year before things went to hell, for about an hour I felt so extremely joyful for no reason.

 

[Weebster]

I meditated once and my whole body vibrated. It was then followed by the best sleep I've ever had.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

*laughs in mlg levels of anhedonia*
What the fuck is a good feeling

 

[lili]

I think surfing. Or going snorkeling really early in the morning. Being connected with the beach in sunrise in general is one of the best feelings. Like nature therapy.

Really need the beach right now. I feel like a lost fish without an ocean.

 

[Nagaina]

I once smoked something that one of my fellas gave me and I don't think I've felt this good in my entire life, but then I felt like shit month or so

 

[deleted]

I smoked a good weed 3 years ago that left me paralyzed for 1 hour smiling like an idiot, it's been a long time since I felt as relaxed as this time, it was even my first time smoking

 

[GrumpyFrog]

Once upon a time I had a good life and laughed with my good friends.

 

[Dysgenic Pup]

Perhaps for most people it's your first orgasm because that makes a lot of sense evolutionarily (not to get all NSFW) or just the first hit of a drug. Perhaps the very first time you ate or drank (or when you eat/drink after fasting). My best feeling, I probably wouldn't remember it. Haven't been feeling great these last several years.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not even know, I cannot remember ever feeling any positive emotions, my life has always been so depressing and sad. I think for me, nothing would ever take away the feeling of emptiness. I do not want to feel anything ever again, all that I want is to be gone from this world.

 

[walt]

Kissing someone for the first time, getting drunk with my friends for the first time (and falling over laughing). Those were great feelings.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

September 24th-29th, 2020. A girl expresses interest in me and I actually like her back too realizing we have a lot in common. For these first few days I finally see a light at the end of the tunnel I had dug myself in. I finally have a reason to start caring and stop moping. I start gearing up all these ways I can improve my life. I finally stopped hearing the voice of self loathing and hatred. It's as if my fractured quantum disturbed psyches were finally going to merge and become a complete well-rounded person.

And then she cuts me off and asks to mutually break this up before it can even start, for good reason though. Suddenly it leaves me even more broken than I had ever been before even though I respect her decision and know she's ultimately right. Those five days were the happiest I've ever been but the 16 months since then have been some of the worst days of my life by far.

I don't wanna hear a single reply about how if it could happen once, it could happen again. The chances of that are so stupidly low you might as well be asking me to win three lottery jackpots in a row first. What hurts about this situation is that I didn't do anything to start it. She reached out to me first. I came to realize that I can only really feel attraction for people this way and all I did that got her attention was whine on this site about what an incel I am which I wasn't doing to attract anyone. I'm still doing that just to push people away because I'd rather die alone than expose myself to getting ripped even further apart by false promises of a brighter future.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Definitely TMI but who gives a shit. Anyway I got an adult circumcision at age 20. I had to stay off my johnson for a whole three weeks. Once those were finally over with:

 

[Invisible 73]

The first time they showed me my baby girl, right after cutting her out of me

 

[symphony]

Pride. When I was doing things I was excited about and achieving to my highest potential.

 

[Niko66]

MDMA, I've been anhedonic for over a decade barely feeling any joy... My first time with the drug was such an insane experience, like feeling all the joy I missed out all my life, I felt such love for people and even for the first time for myself, of course it's a forced euphoria by the drug and the come down sucks but that was undoubtedly the best I've ever felt in my entire life.

Bittersweet thing though is I spent my entire roll texting on my phone my long distance friends loving messages because I have no one here to share with.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

The first 3 or 4 months I was with my first boyfriend. It was my first time feeling "love", being "in love", and it was in the late summer through the fall so my memories of that time, besides the euphoric feeling that always comes with new relationships that are still in that honeymoon phase (and especially a very first love when one is young and everything feels more intense, more passionate, more exciting, and brand new in every sense of the phrase) is images of beautiful, colorful autumn leaves, the smell of those leaves and the crunchy sounds they'd make, and bright sun on warmer autumn days (this was before I hated th sun, unlike now whereas I'm more comfortable on cloudy, dreary, rainy days, or during the winter). My boyfriend and I lived about 3 hours apart so we'd only see one another a couple times a month (which was exciting and always gave me something to look forward to) and we'd write letters/send cassettes (I'm dating myself here. lol It was the mid-80s, before email and Zoom and all that) and I'd rush home from school every day hoping to find a letter for me in the mailbox and it was always a thrill when there would be one there. Then I'd drive over a few blocks to the local park and read the letter, alone in my car, listening to music. God those days were so precious. I think I felt the happiest I ever have in my life during those months in late 1985...

 

[Red Scare]

Being in love, and knowing that I was in love and that he loved me too... having sex with him... Playing music together, which was at times better than sex... it was better than drugs. I loved him so much.

The worst I have ever felt was when I learned he was dead. I knew I would never feel any of that again. I have been hell bent on ctb since.

 

[StarryStarry]

When I took too many xanax and fell down the stairs and was unconscious for two days. The worst part was when I woke up.

 

[ShadowsFall]

When I am extremely stoned. When the internal chaos and racing mind are replaced by an inner calm and all thoughts are negated. I feel like I am drifting in an endless void, free and disconnected from reality. All my problems no longer matter. Eventually, I drift into sleep. Unfortunately, I wake the fuck up a few hours later.

 

[pzzalzr]

heroin, 100%. Definitely not worth it now, but the feeling of no pain, pure bliss, nothing in the world mattering anymore, it's heavenly. I wish I'd never let it get that far.

 

[AloeGarten]

MDMA, followed by cocaine. the MDMA euphoria is amazing, the only downside is you know it has to end, and the comedown is often dreadful. cocaine is especially good for me becasue i often go days at a time without speaking more than a few words, but i cant stop talking on coke
as the previous reply said, id assume opioids/heroin to be even better, but ive yet to try it

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

There were a few times I felt very, very happy on drugs. Once or twice I remember feeling happy around someone I care about. That's honestly all I can think of - this was all in the past 6 months or so.

 

[Al Cappella]

A few years back, for a minor operation—the cocktail of drugs they gave me before the general anaesthetic. I was flying, but in a way that didn't feel drugged. I kept telling everyone in the OR how amazing I felt, they actually—nicely—told me to shut up and stuck the breather over my gob. Later I realized what it was—all the fear was completely gone. No anxiety at all. First time I ever felt that…

 

[FogFilledLife]

Alive.

 

[NorseHel]

The feeling of loving someone unconditionally and knowing they feel the same.

 

[Noctis]

When I tested my exit hood to make sure it worked. I put the bag over my head, turned on the gas, waited until I got close to passing out, then took off the hood and turned off the gas.

I now knew I only needed ten minutes to get everything together, and another hour of being undisturbed to make sure I would die. I literally controlled my entire life at that moment. That feeling of power and control was intoxicating. I rode that high for like three days.

Graduating college, hanging out with my friends for my bachelor party, getting married, getting that job I wanted, buying that video games I'd been looking forward to for months... all of that was nothing compared to knowing I controlled my life and no one could stop me.

The irony is I always COULD have controlled my life if I weren't such a passive and timid dumbass. But that moment, I truly felt the control.

 

[ClownMe]

Honestly, masturbating. It speaks volumes to how sad my life is that the best feeling ive ever felt is of a sexual kind, ive been so empty and miserable for almost as long as I can remember.

 

[outrider567]

When I tested my exit hood to make sure it worked. I put the bag over my head, turned on the gas, waited until I got close to passing out, then took off the hood and turned off the gas.

I now knew I only needed ten minutes to get everything together, and another hour of being undisturbed to make sure I would die. I literally controlled my entire life at that moment. That feeling of power and control was intoxicating. I rode that high for like three days.

Graduating college, hanging out with my friends for my bachelor party, getting married, getting that job I wanted, buying that video games I'd been looking forward to for months... all of that was nothing compared to knowing I controlled my life and no one could stop me.

The irony is I always COULD have controlled my life if I weren't such a passive and timid dumbass. But that moment, I truly felt the control.

Yes the feeling of control is nice--Just turning on the gas, watching the plastic bag fill up, taking those deep breaths and then watching the Oxygen plummet from my body from the oximeter, Nitrogen is pretty amazing

 

[lofticries]

Eating something sweet or unhealthy in a large amount after starving.

Also losing weight randomly without trying.

 

[stoicseal]

My first time taking oxycodone, or Percocet. The euphoria was like nothing I've ever experienced. I've had to stay away from it since, because I know I'd get addicted.