What is it

[girlsboysthems]

What is the difference between dying now or dying in 50 years? I've been asking myself this question and didn't get a good answer. Everyone is like don't kill yourself and I'm like what does it matter? The end result is the same, just 50 years apart?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I guess their reasoning is- good things in life could happen in the next 50 years- as well as bad. Although, I've always felt like- will I even regret anything after I'm dead? Can we regret the decision even?

Really though- I imagine it's more about the effect on everyone else. People do seem to react more severely to someone who dies young and especially via suicide.

 

[The_Sadness_of_Life]

Well they're also the unknown, we look at CTB as a great escape finally away in the torments of life we no longer exist unaware of anything into the void of nothingness just like when we are unborn. This is our expectation with CTB.
But what if we are wrong and we are awakened in the spiritual world in some kind of purgatory being tormented where there is no escape which is eternal no point of return and if we have regrets there's no reset what we did can not be undone that's the scary part. After all we never know right? Just until then…..

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I guess a lot can happen, or not, in 50 years, one year or even a day. And this life as we know it happens only once. One single moment can change everything. After about six months of being suicidal I finally got my SN and asked myself if I would've missed anything if I'd ctb sooner, and the answer was No. I could've saved myself a lot of misery actually, but we will never know for sure. Since then, I've become calmer, not in a rush to ctb anymore, thankful to have my means for when needed. I'm afraid to hope or believe in a future, but recently the person I'm holding on for, is giving me reason to believe there is hope.

 

[Zardoz]

What is the difference between dying now or dying in 50 years? I've been asking myself this question and didn't get a good answer. Everyone is like don't kill yourself and I'm like what does it matter? The end result is the same, just 50 years apart?

I agree. Almost no difference at all. Except the life experience of living that time. And the lives of those close to you, if one has people close to you who would genuinely have a significantly lesser life experience without you. I don't for sure lol.

The counter argument, which is basically "just live for the sake of it, and enjoy it", is said by people who just like being alive, or can't contemplate any other take on it (which is the vast majority of the population, including the lawmakers and mainstream society in general). It's biological, hardwired into most people's DNA, they can't help it.

edit: I've done over 50, so around 25/30 or so to go if left to run its uninterrupted course, hopefully not any more than that. I guess there's always the chance that things will change, but how many decades are we supposed to give it? It hasn't, still feeling the same, not holding out much hope for that any more...