squidsponge
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- Sep 22, 2024
- 79
I was chatting to a friend who doesn't have access to SN in their country. And they asked me what's stopping me because if they had it they would be gone asap. And I wondered what's really stopping me.
But I've realized every time I think about suicide I also conversely think of the after. Not the after on the dead side but on the remaining living side. — I start to adopt different random povs trying to predict their reaction or next move or opinion. I wonder if my uni scholar group would send an email about it, how people would try to find all sorts of reasons for my suicide, maybe even call me weak etc etc
But why am I really caring about that I won't be here ?? So if I can put a stop to this I believe I can sooner cbt
But I've realized every time I think about suicide I also conversely think of the after. Not the after on the dead side but on the remaining living side. — I start to adopt different random povs trying to predict their reaction or next move or opinion. I wonder if my uni scholar group would send an email about it, how people would try to find all sorts of reasons for my suicide, maybe even call me weak etc etc
But why am I really caring about that I won't be here ?? So if I can put a stop to this I believe I can sooner cbt
