What if you had a gun?

[AbyssalAlien]

A gun is my dream method and is very difficult for me to acquire due to having a 5150 on my record.

If I had a gun, I would seek my desired place of death and likely choose a set of substances to be on at that place.

My place to die would be somewhere natural, several miles away from civilization. A meadow of some kind with a never ending horizon on a moonlit night with silence. Perhaps somewhere in Alaska during summer. If my body was ever to be found, I want it to be just bones remaining after my flesh decays into the earth.

Probably will be listening to ambient metal like deer death.

 

[Disabled75039]

SO i do have a firearm, a jericho 941 in 9mm, and its been really weird for me, as like, some days im like "holy fuck, i could CTB at work RIGHT NOW, whats stopping me" and then i get scared and go to range and blow through all my ammo(i did this today lmao) its an interesting cycle. I love guns, i really do, but I'm currently trying to figure out if having a method that is easy to make an impulsive decision with is right for me(its not holy shit). SO i gotta figure out what to do, I've always wanted an AK platform, so i might trade it in for one of those.

 

[hibikikyuxx]

I'd get drunk and then shoot my brains out.

 

[Tommen Baratheon]

Not right away, but I'd probably use it. I'm thinking about inert gasses method (nitrogen/helium) and when I'm really down my thoughts go toward jumping, but I don't think I would do that unless I would be severely depressed.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

If I had a gun and I way out I wouldn't be here, I'd be taking my chances before like could give me my fatal blow and land me in a place where I am alive just because my heart is beating. That's how I'd feel about it.

 

[Quietist]

I live with a parent who has several guns.

Literally makes no difference to my willingness (or unwillingness) to attempt suicide.

It would also be completely disgusting of me to use a gun on myself in a home where a minor child regularly visits, and I can't put him through that shit.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Last time I took a gun in my hand I wasn't suicidal.
I'm full of regrets now

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

A gun is my dream method and is very difficult for me to acquire due to having a 5150 on my record.

If I had a gun, I would seek my desired place of death and likely choose a set of substances to be on at that place.

My place to die would be somewhere natural, several miles away from civilization. A meadow of some kind with a never ending horizon on a moonlit night with silence. Perhaps somewhere in Alaska during summer. If my body was ever to be found, I want it to be just bones remaining after my flesh decays into the earth.

Probably will be listening to ambient metal like deer death.

This is why I so deeply fear a 5150. I really don't want to lose my ability of a gun, it results in me being very careful with what I tell others in the context of what I deal with mentally

 

[Forever Sleep]

The method I have access to is SN. I'm waiting for my Dad to go first anyway, so it wouldn't be immediate.

At one point, I would have been more comfortable with a gun. But, it never occurred to me you could miss. That would trouble me. I just don't know enough about them. Plus, I'd want to do it at home with as least invonvenience to the poor sods who have to clean up the mess as possible. So- SN appeals more there. Plus- I wouldn't want my neighbours scared shitless hearing a gun shot. I'm not bothered personally about my corpse but I don't like the thought of it traumatizing others. I'm not sure if they always need someone to identify it. Not that being blue probably looks great either!

If only we could just go at a clinic, we wouldn't have to worry about all this shit. I wish we could just feel 100% confident about our chosen methods too. I don't think I'd feel that confident with any DIY method. Even N to be honest.

 

[yumeganai]

hey there, i am also thinking about ctb via headshot. Just out of curiosity, what have you learned through your research?

i have read a lot of medical files, but one of the most useful things i have found is a video titled "Anatomy of a headshot" by dark science on youtube. pretty much sums up all the important things you need to know.

 

[-Tandem-]

I think I may be talking my roommate into selling me a handgun. There's a lot of conflicting info on exactly WHERE to shoot. Behind the ear is what I thought. He says he'll sell me a 9mm or a 40 cal. I think both are big enough to do the job. Does anyone know WHERE to aim it?? I'm not putting it in my mouth, chin, none of that bullshit.