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[Wantingpeace]

Ambien and Xanax. I'm small and petite. And also I told him I don't do pharma. I don't even take an apirin usually

Can you pm me please

 

[Shay]

I know. All the doctors I've been to after tell me it's impossible for that to happen. I'm like I'm not an idiot. I took it. Felt sick. And a few days after it happened. There's nothing else that could have caused it. But every doctor except holistic ones say it can. I only went to this doctor bc he said he is integrative medicine. Ha. This was BS

Ambien and Xanax. I'm small and petite. And also I told him I don't do pharma. I don't even take an apirin usually

Yes! Was drug Was it..it is very hard for others to believe. So they think it is all imaginary.

Can you pm me please

it won't let me start a conversation

 

[Wantingpeace]

I know. All the doctors I've been to after tell me it's impossible for that to happen. I'm like I'm not an idiot. I took it. Felt sick. And a few days after it happened. There's nothing else that could have caused it. But every doctor except holistic ones say it can. I only went to this doctor bc he said he is integrative medicine. Ha. This was BS[/QUOTE

Yes i took a drug thst acts on the brain. I start to feel poison in head during it..stupid Dr my brain is in my head if i need to tell you that lol and I'm taking a drug thst acts on brainwhat the he'll do you think that is??? Right after poison entered I felt something FRY away in right side of brain and a function I had whole life left me..I do not think that is just going to happen suddenly to someone just walking down street one day??? My god

 

[lifeofregret]

Lifeofregret, what if you found a way to make something lovely out of yourself and accepted that they want to take care of yourself? What if you could find something in yourself that you could give to the world that you could justify your existence with? I can't think of anything myself but I feel that if I could then I'd have a reason to live. I don't want to make you feel worse Lifeofregret.

That's the thing, there isn't anything I can literally do. I made a post on reddit and most people wouldn't even know what to do and just said "things will get better" and some idiot said use my eyes which is the dumbest thing I ever heard. I'm literally forced to be a human leech

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Lifeofregret, what if you found a way to make something lovely out of yourself and accepted that they want to take care of yourself? What if you could find something in yourself that you could give to the world that you could justify your existence with? I can't think of anything myself but I feel that if I could then I'd have a reason to live. I don't want to make you feel worse Lifeofregret.

Well Jazzy...with physical suffering there is no release. For many it matters not what you might/might not give to the world. The worst thing in life is to be dependent on others for basic needs. You are at the mercy of others 24/7, and there is nothing you can do about that.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Are you serious? Holy shit. How can doctors get away with this shit?

Medical professionals can get away with anything. Think about it. The best place for a sadist to work is in medicine. The "Angel of Death"
in the concentration camps of the 2nd world war, a scottish doctor who murdered over 30 people, the doctors who make sure that those being tortured live through the torture...I could go on endlessly...

 

[JazzyWolfWhistle]

I'm sorry there's nothing anyone can do for you.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

so what's the benefit to doing that to patients? I guess you have to keep going back to that doctor giving them money to fix the symptoms?

Doctors also receive benefits from the pharmaceutical companies for pushing their drugs..game, set and match.

 

[bigj75]

Medical professionals can get away with anything. Think about it. The best place for a sadist to work is in medicine. The "Angel of Death"
in the concentration camps of the 2nd world war, a scottish doctor who murdered over 30 people, the doctors who make sure that those being tortured live through the torture...I could go on endlessly...

that's horrifying.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Medical professionals can get away with anything. Think about it. The best place for a sadist to work is in medicine. The "Angel of Death"
in the concentration camps of the 2nd world war, a scottish doctor who murdered over 30 people, the doctors who make sure that those being tortured live through the torture...I could go on endlessly...

Yes my Dr told me a similar drug thst destroyed me was withdrawn for causing damage heart problems. But its ok to use a drug thst doesnt kill someone but leave them in an absolutely unluvable conditoon,

 

[bigj75]

Doctors also receive benefits from the pharmaceutical companies for pushing their drugs..game, set and match.

that's pure evil.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

That's the thing, there isn't anything I can literally do. I made a post on reddit and most people wouldn't even know what to do and just said "things will get better" and some idiot said use my eyes which is the dumbest thing I ever heard. I'm literally forced to be a human leech

I am deeply sorry life. You sound very much like my son. He is severely disabled by arthritis, and the pain for him ( mentally and physically ) is horrendous. Very few people understand what you are going through. Fortunately some do. I do not know what condition/s you are facing, but if I can I am here for you...

 

[bigj75]

Yes all day every day. Brain damage from meds. Severe. Want to die bc can no longer function

I can't believe how common this is.

 

[Shay]

The sad part is I fought it. And then gave in. That's why I hate myself so much. I knew I can't manage meds.

 

[JazzyWolfWhistle]

But shay, you couldn't know that they'd hurt you this way, could you? Unless maybe you mean your intuition was warning you and you regret ignoring that?

 

[Shay]

I knew meds are bad. I've always practiced holistic meds bc I don't trust doctors. He said he was holistic. The first time I met him he spoke my language with L theanine and supplements. I told him I'm sensitive to meds too.

 

[Wantingpeace]

I can't believe how common this is.

Yes and it is covered up by it is the persons mental illness or "hypocondria".

 

[Phro]

Does anyone else think back to when it all went wrong and fantasize they had a time machine that could change everything if they could only find the right moment to change their life? Then you'd have a beautiful life and could be a good person and would still have you're friends and could be proud of whoo you are.

It all went wrong at my birth. I'd have to go back and interrupt the moment of conception.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Beautiful life? Mostly an oxymoron.

Life can be beautiful for fleeting little moments. 99.99921% of the time though, it's pretty damn ugly. Nobody can make it beautiful all the time. Not even most of the time. That's why life is a huge ripoff for everybody.

Just think if N was on sale at Wal Mart for 35 cents. They'd sell out. They would have to make more of it than alcohol probably.