What I wish I could have back...

[Sadgirl121]

I'll never have my childhood back, no matter how much I long for it and try to have it I cannot get it back. I remember all the times my family used to go to the christmas parades in our small town. Listen to live music, meet santa, get candy canes and presents. The times I used to sneak downstairs to play zelda, or watch TV. My mum actually made my brother and I believe she had set up a motion detector at the top of the stairs and if we went downstairs at night it would go off. I remember using boardgame boxes to see if it was "active or not" so I could go down and play Zelda or watch futurama or robot chicken both of which I wasnt allowed to watch. I remember the time we had our Bear Safety training at the park in the center of our community where they taught us lie down and dont move and "Play dead", which later turned into a game of tag, the time me and my brother and neighbour egged the fence around our community, got caught and had to clean it up. The time I made my mum go to a different province with my brother and I to see an eye specialist at the childrens hospital because I hit my eye playing with her car antenna. I remember in elementary school I used to be in a seperate class because of my ADHD and they accomadated me so well to help me, I would build things out of wood, planes, cars, trucks, you name it. I had this one teacher assistant who would always be with me at recess and push me on the swing, I genuinely miss her. I remember the time at daycare I couldnt go into the pool because I had chicken pox and I was so sad, the time a parachuter flew by my daycare. I miss having those days, I miss having the freedom and the innocents of being a child, and not having to worry about anything, just being myself. I wish I could go back and relive it. But I cannot. That will be my biggest regret.

 

[Regen]

Sometimes I feel the same. And maybe I don't wish to being a child again but having someone who cares to me like a loving mother and helps me with all problems and wishes. Sometimes I don't like being an adult, sometimes I feel like a little child in the body of a adult person.

 

[deadstillwalking]

"Yesterday is a history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why we call it 'The Present'" I believe you've heard this quote at least once. We can't do anything about our past but to either reject it or accept it. In your case you're lucky that you have many memories that you can cherish, but it's not a good thing to dwell on them regularly. Because you must not forget that you're living at this moment too, and that in the future you might regret even more that you regretted that you can't keep on living the same life as when you were a child. Your childhood is a closed chapter of your life, so write something new in the other one! Nobody wants to read the same chapter of a book over and over again, am I wrong? Just live, live in the present, not the past!