What helps you to feel better about going to ctb?

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The fact that I won't have to worry about anything anymore is comforting

 

[Al_stargate]

I tried my best. No more embarrassment, humiliation, pain. No more dealing with people that defy logic. And when I managed to overcome it all, I get hit with the biggest blow. Does anyone feel like their entire existence is just a joke to God?

 

[deletednumber]

I see it as the end of this excruciating torture that I have to live every second of this unfortunate life that I have had to live and am living, I see death as the freedom that I deserve,i see that black nothingness as the warm hug i always looked for in life,the eternal love,the eternal perfection.I strongly belive everything will turn in peace...no more pain,no more cold in my heart.Just the right ending to this life so suffered and painful.
Of course sometimes i feel very angry and sad because i think about all the beautiful things i deserved as every human being should experience joy and happiness and love and these thoughts make me cry a lot deeply because it hurts but very often the thought of me dying is very calming very peaceful i can feel a feeling of happiness and peace.

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

I think it both comforts and scares me that death is inevitable. The fact is, not a single person will escape it. That's weirdly comforting. Even if I don't believe in an afterlife, whatever happens next, or even if nothing at all comes after...it's something everyone will experience.

Ctb brings me comfort because I'll have control over it. I can end my suffering at any time, and that is reassuring to me.

 

[jawdropped123]

That no one has to be around me anymore due to my condition

 

[fullofregrets]

Personally, no more anxiety attacks and sheer panic of facing people. I'm saving myself from a miserable life. Not a day goes by when I don't feel regret for my actions due to which I am here.

 

[fatefulstillness]

That I won't decay twice, that it will prevent a far greater suffering.

People who know me they all agree I've already suffered too much. It's a bit shocking when it comes from their mouths, but it's true. Knowing it can all be over and that I can control when and how I'll leave makes me feel reassured and calm. Sometimes it's even exciting. Truth is I'm worn out and I'm doing life while being very close to the end of my rope. I decide when it's enough, as it should be. I didn't ask for any of this.

I'm sick of hearing people say life is worth living no matter what. We're not special. We are merely accidental.

 

[tieiwi]

That's an appealing idea. What method will you go with?

SN and I will be using stans stat method.

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

Sentences like life is finite so it will end with or without ctb makes me feel better, or that suffering is finite as well. What sentences make you feel better?
*Sorry if the title or post is misleading, my mind is kinda foggy this morning

Reminding myself that death is everyone's fate, what's an extra day living if I'm going to live it regretting it and in pain, and most importantly perhaps, reminding myself that my method of choice is going to be completely painless and that it is indeed the most peaceful way biologically speaking that one could possibly pass away. I also feel better whenever I think to myself that the people I know are going to be okay going on without me.