Discussion What have you been doing to cope with everything?

[pomcustard]

Personally, I've just been eating sweets. I always end up craving sweet food whenever I feel extremely depressed.

 

[AbsurdAbyss]

after coping so much that i grow sick and tired of coping itself - i wonder.

 

[Rev346]

Drinking alcohol, smoking weed, and drinking too much diet cola.

 

[No More Tears]

Drink my whiskey. I've been through so much Jack Daniels that I should have already been given a discount card from the company.

 

[annasplight]

sleeping. I'm able to live the life I want in my dreams! But when i'm forced to be awake, I guess my new pastime will be searching this forum and baking. Baking excessively brings me such joy and peace. It's something I have total control over.

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

barely "coping" but just listening to music and obsessively trying to keep my mind of anything bad going on in my life.

taking things as they come and waiting for my final day, pretty much.

 

[sugarb]

Standing in windy places and staring off into space while listening to stereotypical sad virgin music to romanticize myself and more importantly watching pirated movies

 

[Lostman1029]

Surviving the grind day to day. Trying to resist my desire to drink. It's hard because I used to be a sommelier. Food and wine used to give me joy. I wish I could get prescribed opiates. I enjoy life so much more microdosing them.

 

[SMG08ABUSER]

Enrolled back to uni and got a job, both full time. Trying to keep myself busy as a distraction but it's really not working out for me. I'm doing well in my classes, but even if I get a decent job after graduating, I will likely CTB when I'm 28 and my car is fully paid off. I'm so tired of this world, and I am completely convinced that these feelings will never change, regardless of any efforts I make or any significant achievements or milestones that can happen in my life. The car payment being tied to my parents is literally the only reason I'm still alive right now.

I'm just so fucking done with everything. I really don't want to live past 28.

 

[mapleboy]

Sleeping, occasional self harm, playing video games for an unhealthy amount of time to escape from reality... Sometimes those things will work, and most of the time they don't. Life is just so unbearable.

 

[davidtorez]

Watching comedy mostly Married with children and reading

 

[pomcustard]

Standing in windy places and staring off into space while listening to stereotypical sad virgin music to romanticize myself and more importantly watching pirated movies

sounds pretty nice

sleeping. I'm able to live the life I want in my dreams! But when i'm forced to be awake, I guess my new pastime will be searching this forum and baking. Baking excessively brings me such joy and peace. It's something I have total control over

i used to love baking but getting all the ingredients can be a hassle sometimes because the times i want to bake dont coincide with grocery time haha

 

[Metalhead]

Bedrotting & drinking too much alcohol.

 

[emma99]

Iv been using lots of drugs and drinking alcohol.

Lyrica, Codine, Weed, HHC, Beer, Sleeping Tablets. Inhaling lighter gas

Honestly Iv never tried Heroin, but i'm considering buying a bag if im going to CTB.

I wouldn't inject it, just smoke it, iv seen ppl smoke it before and it actually one of the nicest scents iv ever smelled in the world.

Also If iv been over posting or coming across as offensive to anyone on here. i apologise. just going through a rough time.

Might CTB next week
and I have considered posting my story on here before i do.
but i think im just going to post some sort of nice thank you note instead.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Constantly putting music, films, YouTube on in the background to try and distract/motivate myself. Food also helps me too and, alcohol before bed to knock me out.

 

[Anon1337]

Long walks help me. Also going on here.

 

[pomcustard]

Bedrotting & drinking too much alcohol.

Ah yes bedrotting. How could I forget that? Been bedrotting for months as well.

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

Bedrotting, eating junkfood, drinking alcohol, thinking of ctb all day long.

 

[princejohnny]

Escapism is my entire life. I take edibles and get lost in daydreams with music. I much prefer the reality that I create in my mind.
Also, I'm taking time off next month to travel and see my favorite artist live. It's the only thing keeping me from ctb at the moment. It's both terrifying and exciting to be in the real world for a while.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

alcohol I can see how easy it would be to become an alcoholic. It's so easy to obtain and makes me feel better for a bit

Escapism is my entire life. I take edibles and get lost in daydreams with music. I much prefer the reality that I create in my mind.
Also, I'm taking time off next month to travel and see my favorite artist live. It's the only thing keeping me from ctb at the moment. It's both terrifying and exciting to be in the real world for a while.

I went travelling by myself earlier this year and it was amazing. I planned to ctb after but loved it so much I want to do it again. So .. planning to possibly ctb after that trip.

 

[blacksand]

honestly nothing. Depression has cornered me at this point.

 

[princejohnny]

alcohol I can see how easy it would be to become an alcoholic. It's so easy to obtain and makes me feel better for a bit

I went travelling by myself earlier this year and it was amazing. I planned to ctb after but loved it so much I want to do it again. So .. planning to possibly ctb after that trip.

Same here! I can't wait for my next trip. I dream about just taking off and traveling until money runs out and then ctb somewhere with a beautiful view.

 

[sugarb]

sounds pretty nice

i used to love baking but getting all the ingredients can be a hassle sometimes because the times i want to bake dont coincide with grocery time haha

Yeah it's pleasant sometimes. When I'm actually in the moment doing it the edginess isn't on my mind, it's just sensation-seeking I think lol. Like the wind + music combo makes my brain feel better or something. Might be an autism thing idk

Ah yes bedrotting. How could I forget that? Been bedrotting for months as well.

same dude T-T

 

[tanaka10]

to stay in bed and lots of benzo, oxazepam is good for everyone forgotten

 

[LittleBlackCat]

Same here! I can't wait for my next trip. I dream about just taking off and traveling until money runs out and then ctb somewhere with a beautiful view.

Ahh same here

 

[kyhoti]

Funny thing for me is, I'm in cognitive decline. It's hard for me to focus on things, so sometimes hours go by without notice. Like, no fucking idea where the time went.

Little frittery things.

I go down Youtube rabbit holes, eat about 5 times a day (cooking takes me forever just trying not to burn the place down). Nice long showers when I can remember that the shower exists. Going through my limited possessions and sorting into keep or trash. Picking up my motel room. Bike rides to the store for little needful things. Planning for my bus ticket. Little side trips to creeks or interesting looking paths. A little porn now and again. Obsessing over finances now that I'm in the final stretch. Ocassional Facebook binges to relive happier past days. Light reading.

 

[yoshizoom]

Not much actually. Just smoking cigs, listening to music and eating a lot. I know it's unhealthy, but when u feel catatonic for the most part it's the only thing you can do at that point

 

[Mäximum]

I be rawdoggin' them thoughts most of the time. Sometimes sh when I get the urge or when it gets bad.

 

[emma99]

to stay in bed and lots of benzo, oxazepam is good for everyone forgotten

Lyrica would be my drug of choice and next it would be Codine.
However given that Codine is regulated you need to have some discipline.

For awhile there i as experimenting with a rotational set up to keep my tolerance down.

Monday- Kava tea.
Tuesday - Kratom Tea
Wednesday - Beer
Thursday - HHC
Friday - HHC
Saturday - Codine
Sunday - Lyrica

Repeat.

But the problem is that taking something everyday, eventually make you want to take more.
and suddenly you find yourself on a days long bender. and that then creates a viscous cycle of having to take something all day every day just not to feel sick.

Also having to buy Lyrica on the street is just shit.
As local addicts begin to put two and two together,
and soon your getting asked by them if you
have anything. even if your just out minding your own business.

Or someone doesn't have any and refer you onto someone else
and your either getting overcharged or robbed.

So personally i love Drink, Kava, Kratom and HHC as their all legal and you dont need to associate with dealers and addicts.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

Trying to stay busy, drugs