Discussion What have you always wanted in life?

[genericuser]

Just curious

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

Someone that loves me and to not be treated like absolute worthless subhuman trash by people.
That's way too fucking much to ask for apparently, can,t even get close to either.

 

[Foresight]

I want to have a deeper understanding of certain things and learn to be able to express those thoughts. Ideally it would be in ways that help others but if not just for myself. Pretty vague but I have a private rough draft in my mind. I struggle with focus and self expression so it's a challenging course for me.

I also always wanted to be a wife and now I am one. I feel very fulfilled in family life.

 

[whywere]

I want to have a deeper understanding of certain things and learn to be able to express those thoughts. Ideally it would be in ways that help others but if not just for myself. Pretty vague but I have a private rough draft in my mind. I struggle with focus and self expression so it's a challenging course for me.

I also always wanted to be a wife and now I am one. I feel very fulfilled in family life.

Awesome!!!!

Walter

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

Security, lack of anxiety.

 

[MsSelfsabotage]

So many things but mostly I just simply want to be wanted. And things to work out for me once. Always had to face rejection, always no no no. Never got what I truly wanted no matter how hard I tried and put work into it.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

A normal non traumatic non abusive life where people and family relatives don't come and abuse,ostracize,assault,bully,torture and mock me for the things I never even did and for who I never was. Honestly there are so so many things I wanted to happen or not happen, (most of them non material) that I don't care about anything anymore. It is pointless.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Romantic love and intimacy. Even when I was as young as five years old I was looking forward to experiencing love and relationships. This was only exacerbated by my parents divorcing and it made me want to ensure that whoever I get with should never be someone I'm just settling for and Vice versa.

 

[StarryStarry]

Peace and acceptance

 

[narval]

but with internet, gaming PC and better walls. I really don't need much more except money for bare minimum survival and rent

 

[Ashu]

I always dreamed of being loved by a good and beautiful woman with whom I could share a fulfilling life. Such a woman did in fact fall in love with me, and was ready to sacrifice everything to be with me. And I was so incredibly stupid and bad that I did in fact force her to sacrifice everything for me, and thereby I wrecked both our lives.

 

[Sherri]

Job wise I got to do what I always dreamed of when I was ok. Was the first thing on my buck list since a pre teen. And had the pleasure and pride of achieving that.
What I didn't get is that I would like to have been a singer, but the country that I live that is an almost impossible thing to dream off, I sang gospel as a young person, had a beautiful voice until my cigarette habit ruined it with time, that's the only regret I have , if I was American def would have tried it harder, much harder.

 

[ultrafuntimes]

a sense of agency, more than anything

 

[whywere]

So many things but mostly I just simply want to be wanted. And things to work out for me once. Always had to face rejection, always no no no. Never got what I truly wanted no matter how hard I tried and put work into it.

I care about you deeply, as you are a great friend to me, and you belong here on Sanctioned Suicide with so many other awesome folks. I can never even think about daily life without all the awesome souls here AND that really includes you, my friend.

Have a great upcoming weekend and all my best to you!

Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

The only thing I want is to die. I simply do not want to exist. There is nothing that I want from this life. I wish I never had to live in the first place. Nothing would ever make me want to live. I want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep.

 

[Rabhen]

To be a stay at home wife who works on my art, music and writing, in an actual house, with running water and electricity and heating and air conditioning and is also taken out to lovely places by the person that is my partner.

The only thing I want is to die. I simply do not want to exist. There is nothing that I want from this life. I wish I never had to live in the first place. Nothing would ever make me want to live. I want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep.

I understand, can never have what I want either, so I choose to not exist as well.

 

[TheSoulless]

To present as and to be treated as a woman. The first actual dream or desire I've ever had, even if I didn't realize it back then. But feels like there are so many obstacles between me and that dream now.

 

[Death_of_a_Phynixx]

Financial stability and security, my own personal land with no near neighbors, and to reunite with my twin flame.

 

[Circles]

To stop being suicidal and feeling lonely.

 

[ClownMe]

The simple answer would be to simply get a quick and painless death because I don't see the point in even being alive.

But if I had to live then I just wish I was loved, that's all ive ever wanted.

 

[S like suicide]

Being loved, being important to someone.
a family, friends, a partner,a sense in life
have a normal and joyful life, like so many out there. I didn't ask for the moon

 

[whatevs]

Vanilla stuff for starters. Friendship. Belonging. Community. Purpose. Cuddling. Not having anxiety, not living in fear.

Then being witness to as much paranormal activity as possible and to uncover some of the more esoteric or metaphysical underpinnings of existence. I was only permitted some paranormal activity and not much from the rest of these categories.

 

[NaturalBornNEET]

to have not had my body and brain been tainted by prenatal drug exposure

to be able to know what happens after death before I go through with suicide

 

[MewtwoIsAlive]

Someone I would love and spent my whole life with and live far away from my family.

 

[hungry_ghost]

A place of my own where I can live alone, not being an inconvenience to anyone else, or having anyone disturb my solitude.

 

[Kristicide]

A pony. I always asked for one at Christmas and I never got one. As an adult I still don't have one. But my dog has a stuffed pony animal so

 

[Hydrangea]

Living in my own little corner of the world where literally no one knows me, and maybe raise a few animals and grow some crops, and just play music everyday in the field, by the river, on top of a mountain, etc.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

A Family!

 

[summers]

To be rich, attractive, and have a big cock.

 

[callme]

To not be the last anybody is ever going to like in a suicide forum