What happens if you never find the courage?

[Pravesh]

being a stoical sociopath is the greatest feeling in the world, don't give a shit about anyone else with no consequences

how do i become one

 

[greebo6]

I know I have put it off for far too many years. This has done me no good at all . I truly wish I had done it years ago. Living with the desire to die is in itself exhausting and psychologically destructive.
My CTB date is in January.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

You'll become bitter and angry, wake up one day realizing that you've wasted the few good years that you had and hate yourself for that, you'll hate other people having a good time too, and you'll eventually die of old age...alone.

I'm on my way…

 

[FuneralCry]

If I never find the courage, I know I will just suffer for decades, spending the days wishing I was not here. However I know that things will get worse for me, and then I will get desperate. I refuse to reach old age, no matter what I will achieve my peace. I see suicide as taking control and ending all the suffering, it is the only thing that feels right for me.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Courage and motivation - It's hard to get inspired to do this sort of thing… If the house you're in is not on fire, if it's only smoldering, it's hard to leap out .

 

[saintedwinter]

Contemplating CTB for years but failing to gather the courage. What do long time lurkers plan to do? If I don't CTB, I think I'll waste my life away. Start drinking, start smoking, become a pain in the ass to everybody. Probably die of some stupid illness in a few years. Im slowly becoming a sociopath lol.

Probably either homelessness or a psych ward

 

[eternalmelancholy]

You need to either seek recovery or actually ctb. Otherwise life starts to spiral out of control while you just standby and watch.

 

[motel rooms]

I hate to sound like an optimist, but you'll just eventually die anyway...

 

[Dear Agony]

I started smoking cigarettes years ago/don't do anything to recover from my eating disorder with that in mind. If I never get the courage to CTB, I'll either very possibly get a condition from smoking for so many years since a young age or die from my eating disorder (or from consequences of it, for example I write this as I haven't had a bowel movement in 2 weeks oof). Well that or waiting until my mom passed away so I can CTB. If none of that happens in like 20 years, guess I'll have to live in torture or get the courage to CTB and leave my family.

 

[Sslsh]

Well a year has passed and I'm still around xD. Atleast now I've gathered enough courage AND have an actual plan to ctb. Waiting for things to fall in place now.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

Can't.. I cannot imagine how degraded my quality of life would be.

In my case, I'm better off dead.

Hoping to get the deed done by this weekend.

 

[flametrees]

Contemplating CTB for years but failing to gather the courage. What do long time lurkers plan to do? If I don't CTB, I think I'll waste my life away. Start drinking, start smoking, become a pain in the ass to everybody. Probably die of some stupid illness in a few years. Im slowly becoming a sociopath lol.

YES I am going crazy on this earth too. Nothing worse than being held somewhere you really don't want to be. Feel I'm being held hostage to live against my will. Every night I wish I could leave this earth and that I don't ever wake up. Other than hoping the universe shows some mercy and kills me quickly in an accident or something, I don't know what to do if I have to keep staying alive. It's like ongoing repetitive torture. I just try my best to support causes I agree with like animal rights. I help at the animal shelter. It makes me feel better but is also sad at the same time as the animals suffer too like we do. I guess the best we can hope for is that some sort of virus or pandemic wipes us out