raindrops
Someday, eventually
- Mar 29, 2020
- 447
I currently live with my grandmother, she's the only family I have. My mother died when I was 14, my father has his own life I'd rather not be involved with him, he takes drugs and has a lot going on that I couldn't deal with personally (he doesn't have his own home either) My sisters live miles away from me and they're too young to support me if it was needed.
My ex partner who I was with for 11 years left me and after 11 years I have put my friends on the back burner, I don't have any real friendships, I am a loner through my own choice, I'm finding it hard to keep a conversation going, I'm finding it really hard to make friendships again.
I keep thinking to myself if I lost my grandmother what would happen to me? My nana doesn't own this flat, it is owned by the council, they told me I couldn't keep this place if anything happened, it is a 3 bedroom flat anyway, so too many rooms for just me. I live in the UK does any one have an idea how the council could/would help if things got really bad?
I have no savings, my job doesn't pay amazingly well, I was arrested and now have a criminal record, I'm too scared to apply for other well payed jobs especially if I have to declare my convictions, they're not that bad, they sound bad & it's embarrassing. I have no physical or mental illness, well I haven't been diagnosed with anything atm, so I can't claim any benefits, plus I usually work 26-30 hours a week.
I fear living in a shared house, that would mean living in a room for the rest of my god damn life or worse, I fear homelessness.
How do you get a flat? How do you live like an adult?! How do you survive in this world with NO family at all, I'm so frightened by all of this.
My ex partner who I was with for 11 years left me and after 11 years I have put my friends on the back burner, I don't have any real friendships, I am a loner through my own choice, I'm finding it hard to keep a conversation going, I'm finding it really hard to make friendships again.
I keep thinking to myself if I lost my grandmother what would happen to me? My nana doesn't own this flat, it is owned by the council, they told me I couldn't keep this place if anything happened, it is a 3 bedroom flat anyway, so too many rooms for just me. I live in the UK does any one have an idea how the council could/would help if things got really bad?
I have no savings, my job doesn't pay amazingly well, I was arrested and now have a criminal record, I'm too scared to apply for other well payed jobs especially if I have to declare my convictions, they're not that bad, they sound bad & it's embarrassing. I have no physical or mental illness, well I haven't been diagnosed with anything atm, so I can't claim any benefits, plus I usually work 26-30 hours a week.
I fear living in a shared house, that would mean living in a room for the rest of my god damn life or worse, I fear homelessness.
How do you get a flat? How do you live like an adult?! How do you survive in this world with NO family at all, I'm so frightened by all of this.