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[blacklemonade]

my partner ended the relationship, its been the last drop for me. i cant do life anymore. i finally need to overcome my fear of death.

my family and friends, i dont feel like they actually understand how much im hurting. they keep telling me, its gonna be fine, call me. if you need to talk or if you dont want to be alone. i tried calling them, they dont pick up, no message, nothing. ive felt like a burden before, but its gotten worse. i feel like noone can take it anymore, my sadness, me hurting. i feel like people would feel released not having to deal with me in their life anymore, like my ex partner, now living a happy life.
i wish i wasnt so scared of failing to die and ending in a state without control over my body. i really dont know what to do

 

[leavingsoonx]

I'm not here to tell you not to CTB but it helps me to think that I see people who I view as mean who seem to have the best life ever. All I know is even if it's not suicide we all struggle with life. My narc ex may have a relationship but I know his issues and that they are probably still real. Losing a partner is hard… I'm sorry.

 

[FuneralCry]

Trying to die going wrong is also what I'd personally fear, I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I also find it painful to exist. But anyway I wish you the best.