UnluckyBastard
Student
- Jun 26, 2024
- 117
I am asking this question because I am legitimately not stable and I don't know what specifically I have as a mental illness. I don't feel normal. I feel like there's something very wrong. Here's a list.
I have had lifelong mental and emotional issues. I still have the same issues as I have as a kid. I get upset easily, confused easily, shut down emotionally and mentally when something doesn't "make sense". I feel like people always making fun of me. I hate myself so much and I'm always hard on myself and beat myself up a lot. I hold grudges for years and can't let things just go. I'm constantly bombarded with my own negative thoughts and put myself down constantly. I blow up over small things like getting killed in video games or when someone forgets to tell me something. I constantly feel like I'm attacked and I feel like I have to justify every little thing I do. I'm sick of feeling all these negative emotions but I've been through therapy and psychiatry all my life since I was 5. I feel scared, lost, tired, upset, angry, depressed, and anxious constantly. I feel disgusting constantly, like someone poured liquefied dumpster contents into the center of my body. I feel like there's liquid in my skull, like literally my skull of full of liquid and overfilled.
I'm sorry I made this very long but I really need to find out how to express this to my psychiatrist and therapist. They're not understanding anything I'm saying. I need help. I just want to feel normal.
I have had lifelong mental and emotional issues. I still have the same issues as I have as a kid. I get upset easily, confused easily, shut down emotionally and mentally when something doesn't "make sense". I feel like people always making fun of me. I hate myself so much and I'm always hard on myself and beat myself up a lot. I hold grudges for years and can't let things just go. I'm constantly bombarded with my own negative thoughts and put myself down constantly. I blow up over small things like getting killed in video games or when someone forgets to tell me something. I constantly feel like I'm attacked and I feel like I have to justify every little thing I do. I'm sick of feeling all these negative emotions but I've been through therapy and psychiatry all my life since I was 5. I feel scared, lost, tired, upset, angry, depressed, and anxious constantly. I feel disgusting constantly, like someone poured liquefied dumpster contents into the center of my body. I feel like there's liquid in my skull, like literally my skull of full of liquid and overfilled.
I'm sorry I made this very long but I really need to find out how to express this to my psychiatrist and therapist. They're not understanding anything I'm saying. I need help. I just want to feel normal.
