what even is there to do in life

[blush]

what even is there to do in life? it's mostly suffering for me. there's no purpose for me too.

a lot of people hinge their lives on an ideological promise, such as religion, or utilitarian ideas or just hedonism.

there's no reason to trust any of those things' promises of fulfillment. it logically feels like increasingly painful and complicated means to no real end in sight. i don't want to suffer anymore i just want peace. does anyone else relate

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

Yupp. I have anhedonia so there's nothing for me here on this Earth. I'm just going through the motions my whole life and I have enough of it. I feel that lack of purpose really hard. It's hard enough to just get through the days. The autoimmune-like illness and suspected dissociation doesn't help either.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I relate in terms of- the nicer things there are to do don't compensate for what's needed to do them- in my experience.

 

[violetforever]

i find fault in just about everything so im not even sure either. if i had the chance to press a button and die without leaving any trace or memory of myself in the world and peoples minds as if i never even existed, i would take it so fast. i feel like theres nothing to do that strongly makes me want to stay here.

 

[itsgone2]

Agree.
And there's probably always been people like us.
But the world seems different now.
Something isn't right.
Regardless, I want out.
Yes, too much suffering.

 

[IrishBug]

I don't think there is any point in life.

I suspect most people have something in their brain which tells them there is and its worth the struggle.

We don't.

Who are the sick ones? Us or them?

 

[Matchaaa]

I've always believed that the meaning of life is something each person decides for themselves, because everyone has different tastes and ways of living… but the truth is, there really isn't much meaning to it.

For me, the meaning of life is happiness and freedom, but I rarely get to experience anything like that; most of the time, it's just oppression and suffering, so life has no meaning.

 

[misterhippo]

Real real

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I just want peace as well, all I want is to be permanently free from this torturous existence of dreadful suffering and I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way.

For me non-existence is just all that's positive, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I find it torture to simply exist, all I want is the peace of non-existence where finally all is gone and forgotten but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered.

I never should had been burdened with this torturous existence that just causes harm, all that existence ever does is just torture existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for peace, I just want all to be gone for me in the true peace of non-existence, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's just so painful to me how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible agony of old age.

 

[bigzam]

Yup. Every new thing I get interested in eventually gets old and then it's back to square one. It seems like the only thing guaranteed thing in life is having to go to work and worrying about day to day things. And health of course. As a kid it was easy to imagine the future as having arcs and crescendos but the only real consistency is the drudgery.

 

[Painforever]

The only real point of it is to have kids, thats literally it, everything else just involves that.

 

[SDB]

I understand, I just want peace as well, all I want is to be permanently free from this torturous existence of dreadful suffering and I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way.

For me non-existence is just all that's positive, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all and I find it torture to simply exist, all I want is the peace of non-existence where finally all is gone and forgotten but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered.

I never should had been burdened with this torturous existence that just causes harm, all that existence ever does is just torture existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for peace, I just want all to be gone for me in the true peace of non-existence, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's just so painful to me how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible agony of old age.

Why haven't you CTB yet? Just curious