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Regen

I stay in my power
Aug 20, 2020
342
What dreams did you have as a child?

I had boring wishes, marriage, children, house, dog. When I was younger a horse and a big adventure run for guinea pigs. A house with a tree growing through the roof. To make and exhibit art. Writing a book. Being happy.

What were your dreams or wishes?
 
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darkcirclesunder

Member
Sep 8, 2022
42
I never had dreams i never thought that far ahead. But i loved basketball, hockey, tennis, baseball, and graffiti art
 
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bluelou

Member
Nov 10, 2022
13
I don't think I really had any dreams as a child. I immersed myself in books and creative stuff as an escape from my life. The only thing I remember thinking was that if I one day had a child, I would be a very different mother to mine. My boy is now 18 and is my greatest achievement.
 
LivideLamb

LivideLamb

I'm so decaying, feeling like an ashtray
Jan 5, 2020
290
For the longest time, I wanted to be a veterinarian to help the local animals and family. I grew out of it and I've been lost ever since
 
jackie_boy1337

jackie_boy1337

Member
Nov 5, 2022
77
I wanted to be in law enforcement (like a police officer) but thanks to a stay in loony bin on the part of a serious POS, that'll never be a reality.
My dad isn't put out about that though because when i told him that, he shit all over it and said "that's too dangerous for you."

A minor heart attack and stroke later... I've pretty much given up on any other childhood dreams I may have ever had, like just being happy.

Or never having to interact with my parents ever again, because they're manipulative, conniving pieces of shit who fuck everything up and really don't have a clue.
(Keep in mind, I'm an adult. I shouldn't have to interact with them regardless, but my health issues have forced me into interactions with them.)
 
toasterbath

toasterbath

i am bready to die. i am bread inside 😵🍞
Jun 26, 2022
253
i don’t even remember having any dreams. i always did just escape into games, tv, movies. life has been painful for just too long…
 
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UnlimitedPain

Looking For The End!!
Nov 5, 2022
317
i don’t even remember having any dreams. i always did just escape into games, tv, movies. life has been painful for just too long…
I can relate to the escapism of n such a level it’s also I do these days unfortunately with the addition of porn.
Only reason I can remember my dreams is I have a really good memory which feels like a curse
 
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SarRy

Student
Oct 5, 2022
187
I wanted to study martial arts so, I would not have to fear people anymore. I wanted to devote myself to religious studies so that I might do good in my life and be well after it. My life has always been more about avoiding pain because I find no pleasure in anything. At the best of times, I feel nothing. I guess I was not made for this world.
 
Rounded Apathy

Rounded Apathy

Longing to return to stardust
Aug 8, 2022
779
I wonder about the deleterious effects of achieving dreams.

The timeline is nebulous, but as far back as I can recall I'd had a fascination with Japan. Not just in the typical weeby anime way, but in the holier-than-thou, let me tell you about the history of the shogunate and this weird-ass instrument, everything to do with the place kind of way. I developed a single-minded determination to somehow get there and stay as long as possible, which culminated in picking up a bachelor's degree (and the associated debt) to get a teacher's visa and living/working there for three years. No guidance from anyone in life on whether this was a good idea, or what to do if I changed my mind. Which I did, after less than two years, realising it was horrifically isolating and ostracizing and that I had to gtfo.

One other "dream" I remember having around age 11 was to be an explorer. Whatever that means. I'd been playing a video game that had me going to far-flung locales all modeled on distinct regions of the natural world - deserts, jungles, tundras - and the idea of really going to such a variety of places tantalized me. To a scaled-back extend I did this after leaving Japan, traveling to a few places in SE Asia, Western Europe, and Central America. Never made it to a desert (sadly) or tundra (changed my mind, cold is shit); there are still some general/specific places it'd be nice to see.

But after having lived the life I have, I know it's all just chasing dragons. It'd be nice then just be a checked-off item on a list. We move from one thing to the next; satisfy one dopamine hit and need to seek out another.
 
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noaccount

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Oct 26, 2019
1,098
To be a cat and to find people's stolen cars (as a cat!) (we had lots of carjackings in our town all the time) and to build a labyrinth through a reed-field and build a secret house in the middle that no one would ever find and to learn to communicate with lizards.
 
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noaccount

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Oct 26, 2019
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As it turns out, that last part is mainly just about learning to understand their body language, there's no way to have a human-like conversation with them about past or future events or philosophical ideals.
 
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SectOfValtiel

Attendant of God
Nov 7, 2022
216
Im not sure if I had any, if I did I cant remember them
And trying to come up with one today is really hard for me
 
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IDontLikeMyself

Member
Nov 8, 2022
27
I used to have such big dreams as a child. I wanted to be an olympic swimmer but an injury ruined that. The worst part is that the injury still haunts me and I never really recovered from it.

That´s why my dream now is just to be able to swim like back than again.
 
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Someday_Somehow32

Member
Jul 20, 2022
78
I wanted to be a big time writer (you know like J.K Rowling or some shit like that), I wanted to animate, I wanted to sing, I wanted to tame lions and own a big house full of guinea pigs, I wanted to voice act, and get married to some guy that I daydreamt
 
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never mind me

Student
Nov 7, 2022
115
When I was a child I couldn't really imagine how it would feel to be an adult, so I didn't really think or dream much about what I would do. The only thing I knew very early was that I wanted to travel the world, live abroad and learn to speak several languages. In my early teenage years I also dreamt about going to college and studying something I'm interested in, having an interesting job afterwards, having lots of friends and enjoying lots of parties with them and having a good relationship with a guy I love. Actually I managed to achieve almost all of these things, which on the one hand really makes me happy, but on the other hand it has the disadvantage that nowadays it sometimes seems pointless to continue living, because I've already done most of the things I wanted to do when I was very young.
 
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sad_and_tired

Member
Nov 16, 2022
7
Being happy earning my life thanks to my passion (still to be discovered or lost from sight a long time ago), being autarcique and taking care of my loved ones.
 
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Meaninglessness

Existence is absolutely meaningless
Nov 12, 2022
128
I don´t remember what dreams I had as a child because that was such a long time ago, but I am sure that I didn´t dream of ending up here.
 
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kappa

Experienced
Apr 2, 2019
232
So odd when I hear people had dreams as children or even adults.

I liked animals.. I remember wishing they could talk to me. But I didn’t have any dreams or desires.

Never dreamt about kids and marriage, no “I wanna be X when I go up thoughts”. Really didn’t even have hobbies.

I just kinda milled around with the animals we had, and occasionally would watch one of the few Disney movies I had.

Wish I knew why I never had any interests or hobbies. Feels inhuman.
 
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Rairii

Is it necessary?
Nov 27, 2022
133
Being a doctor, therapist, some sort of person who worked with children in the mental health realm. I wanted to make them feel better and save them from all the abuse I was undergoing at home. Then there's the get married, live and travel to foreign countries, have a pet, be happy

All I accomplished out of that was owning a pet and going to university for psychology before I had to drop out after one semester because bad health. Well I guess I also moved out too which was a dream. Sometimes I'd like to think she would be pretty happy that we at least made it out but then I think she would probably be even more miserable to see what our life has really become. Oh well.

For silly stuff, I did want to marry various cartoon and anime characters, become a pokemon trainer, a ninja in Naruto with cool abilities, an idol, a magical girl, to turn into an actual pokemon like mystery dungeon type of deal.
 
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heavyeyes

Oct 9, 2022
1,375
I dreamed of being a singer or an actress when I was a kid. My parents never let me do either of those things so those dreams faded away eventually. Sometimes I still wish I could but it's too late now.
 
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freedomcalls

Student
Nov 9, 2022
137
I’m living my dream 🤷‍♀️

I wanted to live in a big house in the country, I wanted to have a big family (I have 5 kids) and animals (dog, cat, chickens, donkey)
I wanted to be a foster parent - who knows, I might when my own children are older….

I didn’t realise though that I’d still be me and that I’d have to live in my own messed up brain, always feeling inadequate and overwhelmed 😢
 
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LonelyEmerald

Experienced
Nov 26, 2022
232
I wanted to help the world through science and technology.
 
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