SuiSqueeze92

SuiSqueeze92

Self Saboteur
Jan 15, 2020
479
Well I'm sure my name may offend some referencing "suicide"... but the actual meaning of what a sui(cide)-squeeze play is in baseball when a runner runs home before the batter bunts. I played baseball for a long time and a gun was always my most likely choice if available, at one point almost was. My life is basically also a constant squeeze play it seems, sometimes caught in a pickle... sometimes taking a risk and rarely "scoring" lol.

So yeah, double meaning :) I'm just curious what the meaning of other's usernames are to them?
 
  • Like
Reactions: Largeletters, UninformedLover, itsmeagain and 2 others
Boochky

Boochky

Fat, bipolar, and hairy. (Sorry boys, I’m taken.)
Feb 23, 2019
334
Nickname from my ex. He was always making up weird pet names like cutepants and grandmagigglebuckets.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: itsmeagain and SuiSqueeze92
SuiSqueeze92

SuiSqueeze92

Self Saboteur
Jan 15, 2020
479
Nickname from my ex. He was always making up weird pet names like cutepants and grandmagigglebuckets.

Lol nice, never would've guessed. I was thinking something Kentucky haha
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: Largeletters and Boochky
Eurus

Eurus

Everything Must Cease.
Sep 30, 2019
200
Greek god of the east wind
 
  • Like
Reactions: SuiSqueeze92
Eurus

Eurus

Everything Must Cease.
Sep 30, 2019
200
Well,I used to enjoy just reading the dictionary for fun and I needed a gamer tag at the time so I decided to look up something unique,and voila,Eurus
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Cid9121 and SuiSqueeze92
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
I was Mr2004 but now I'm Mr2005. 2004 is where it started and 2005 is where it should have ended. My heads stuck there with the decision I made wishing I could make a different one and my body is fifteen years in the future for what feels like a result of that life ending choice
 
  • Like
Reactions: Kassender, Dead beat dad, SuiSqueeze92 and 1 other person
SuiSqueeze92

SuiSqueeze92

Self Saboteur
Jan 15, 2020
479
I was Mr2004 but now I'm Mr2005. 2004 is where it started and 2005 is where it should have ended. My heads stuck there with the decision I made wishing I could make a different one and my body is fifteen years in the future for what feels like a result of that life ending choice

Oh don't you just love the "if I knew then what I know now" moments. I can't quite say I know what you mean because I don't, but for my age, my choices too have made me feel beyond my years wondering "what if" these days.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Kassender and Mr2005
M

MoreThanAFeeling

Specialist
Feb 23, 2020
392
Paul is the name of an old friend and the 88 comes from O-Ren Ishi's army, the crazy88 (from the Kill Bill movie).
 
  • Like
Reactions: SuiSqueeze92
BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
Self-explanatory lol
 
  • Like
Reactions: Marchioness, itsmeagain, TheSoulless and 1 other person
h0wd1rtygurlsST4Yc1n

h0wd1rtygurlsST4Yc1n

Member
Jul 26, 2019
54
how dirty girls stay clean. amy winehouse....witney huston....ect....i know its not funny that i want to die but i have to laugh about it some times
 
  • Like
Reactions: itsmeagain
Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Sensei literally means "teacher". It's not only used in Japanese martial arts, but in Japanese schools as well. I am, surprise, surprise, a teacher by profession.
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: Epsilon0, itsmeagain, SuiSqueeze92 and 2 others
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Sensei literally means "teacher". It's not only used in Japanese martial arts, but in Japanese schools as well. I am, surprise, surprise, a teacher by profession.
Teach me your CTB ways master. You were compiling a list of "unfortunate" accidents after all :pfff:

My username is obvious to any Pink Floyd listener. I chose it while I was incarcerated and in solitary confinement. It was part of a message of hope that I wrote on the brick wall among all the negative graffiti.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Marchioness, Empty Smile, Epsilon0 and 6 others
TimeTheTaleWereTold

TimeTheTaleWereTold

lifeguard, save me from life
Jan 30, 2020
44
it's the opening line from reel around the fountain by the smiths - "it's time the tale were told, of how you took a child and you made him old"
 
  • Like
Reactions: SuiSqueeze92
HelensNepenthe

HelensNepenthe

Thoughtful poster
Jan 17, 2019
835
Nepenthe is a medicine in Homer's Odyssey. Helen of Troy drinks it to forget sorrow.
Then Helen, daughter of Zeus, took other counsel.
Straightway she cast into the wine of which they were drinking a drug
to quiet all pain and strife, and bring forgetfulness of every ill.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: LastRide, SuiSqueeze92, itsmeagain and 1 other person
Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Teach me your CTB ways master. You were compiling a list of "unfortunate" accidents after all :pfff:

I'm always very ambivalent about posting about method. I always hope that only people who really have good reasons to leave will use the information amassed in this forum, but I know that's not how it works.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: SuiSqueeze92 and Brick In The Wall
Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
1,030
Fairly self explanatory. I'm a dad and a dead beat.
DBD
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Largeletters and SuiSqueeze92
itsmeagain

itsmeagain

Specialist
Jan 28, 2020
334
Nepenthe is a medicine in Homer's Odyssey. Helen of Troy drinks it to forget sorrow.
Oh my god, that's so deep I love it
I thought I'd add. I needed a quick username to put down, and I thought that it needed to be something I could remember. Something I thought about whenever I came back to SS.

And, well...a lot of times I log on, Ijust think...

"It's me again. I'm here, in pain, or to talk about someone else's pain... Here I am, Again.
 
Last edited:
  • Like
Reactions: Largeletters, charlottewilts, Sensei and 1 other person
SuiSqueeze92

SuiSqueeze92

Self Saboteur
Jan 15, 2020
479
Fairly self explanatory. I'm a dad and a dead beat.
DBD

I understand that.. not a dad, but I feel that'd be me from the stress

Oh my god, that's so deep I love it
I thought I'd add. I needed a quick username to put down, and I thought that it needed to be something I could remember. Something I thought about whenever I came back to SS.

And, well...a lot of times I log on, Ijust think...

"It's me again. I'm here, in pain, or to talk about someone else's pain... Here I am, Again.

I get that, that's about how I feel with my pdocs or anyone annoyed by me lol to them it's just me bitching or being dramatic most likely. I became the Debbie Downer/Negative Nancy! NOOOOO!!! Lol
 
  • Love
Reactions: itsmeagain
itsmeagain

itsmeagain

Specialist
Jan 28, 2020
334
I understand that.. not a dad, but I feel that'd be me from the stress



I get that, that's about how I feel with my pdocs or anyone annoyed by me lol to them it's just me bitching or being dramatic most likely. I became the Debbie Downer/Negative Nancy! NOOOOO!!! Lol
pdoctors, what're those?
 
Ame

Ame

あめ
Nov 1, 2019
322
"Ame" is one of the indigenous Japanese readings of the Chinese character: 雨, meaning "rain". Japanese is a language laden with countless homophones context is insanely important, I cannot even begin to explain;;; and so there are many other characters that can be read the same way. One that immediately comes to mind is 飴 ("sweets"/"hard candy") and the much less common 天 ("sky"/"heavens"). I liked the short and sweet quality of "Ame" and there is a personal connection that I have to the character but I won't go into that here.

In a conversation that I had with a dear late member, I was told that "Ame" is actually a conjugation of the verb "Amar" which means to "to love" in Portuguese (their mother tongue). This is also true of Spanish, but I never consciously made the connection until then.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Epsilon0, Largeletters, Otter and 1 other person
LastRide

LastRide

Specialist
Jan 23, 2020
369
Well I love riding and I want to die....my last phantasy before death will probably be remembering me galopping away on a horse at full speed....that will be my Last Ride !
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Largeletters, BPDbitch, SuiSqueeze92 and 1 other person
smile418

smile418

Member
Feb 21, 2020
49
I think I fake smile too much irl but at the same time I would like to have a genuine reason to smile. It's something I dislike about myself and as well something to strive toward.
 
M

Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
I like morphine. Tada
 
  • Like
Reactions: Largeletters and SuiSqueeze92
UninformedLover

UninformedLover

If you see me active on here...its gotten worse...
Nov 12, 2019
265
It just means someone who is not well-versed in romance
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: Largeletters and SuiSqueeze92
BPDbitch

BPDbitch

Experienced
Nov 10, 2019
248
Self explanatory, I have BPD and I'm a bitch lmao :wink:
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: BPD Barbie and itsmeagain
itsmeagain

itsmeagain

Specialist
Jan 28, 2020
334
Self explanatory, I have BPD and I'm a bitch lmao :wink:
You can't be that bitchy. You've been here for a little over two months and have over 126 posts with your account still intact :heart:
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: Largeletters, Rome Horseman, Nutshell and 1 other person

Similar threads

GuessWhosBack
Replies
7
Views
985
Recovery
butterflyguy
butterflyguy
O
Replies
2
Views
297
Suicide Discussion
katyusha_kat
katyusha_kat
goodoldnoname923
Replies
45
Views
3K
Suicide Discussion
Eternal Eyes
Eternal Eyes
Styg
Replies
3
Views
342
Suicide Discussion
satomii
S