I have done my best to become the best person I could. I am not perfect, but I am conscientious and ethical, I own my shit when I become aware it is shit, I try to do no harm, I am sincere. I respect who I've worked so hard to become, a good person.
In spite of all my effort to heal and become the best person I can, I am screwed by external circumstances over which I have no control.
In retrospect, I recognize calling myself a good person sets me up for judgment and disdain when I am being more human than good, or when my actions don't fit in someone's paradigm of good. Fortunately, I didn't say I'm a perfect person, or the villagers would have shown up with their torches and pitchforks. :)
I want to go out thinking of myself this way, as a good person, affirming myself and a lifetime of effort, and that I am not to blame for my circumstances.