What do you wish people would understand, if anything, when you CTB?

[lovemelovemenot]

I wish my family would understand that nothing they could've done would have stopped this from happening. I wish they would understand how much I've tried to get better, to change my perspective, to be happy, and it's just not working. I wish they would understand that a life only lived for those around them is not much of a life lived at all. And finally, I guess I wish they would understand how much thought I've actually put into this decision. I'm sure if any us of here could change things about themselves or go back into time or do whatever it takes to be happy and live a life we enjoy, we would. But it's just not so simple. Not how the world works.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I wish my family would understand that nothing they could've done would have stopped this from happening. I wish they would understand how much I've tried to get better, to change my perspective, to be happy, and it's just not working. I wish they would understand that a life only lived for those around them is not much of a life lived at all. And finally, I guess I wish they would understand how much thought I've actually put into this decision. I'm sure if any us of here could change things about themselves or go back into time or do whatever it takes to be happy and live a life we enjoy, we would. But it's just not so simple. Not how the world works.

Im the opposite-my so called family could have done so so much that would have helped me to lead a better life, to feel a little happier, to have a little self worth. I dont nessarily want them to know that and they wouldnt believe it anyway, they will believe what they want. I'm sorry you feel this way, despite having a family that care, such a huge spectrum of reasons on here for people wanting to ctb-there really is not one size fits all for reasons. it would be easier for people to understand if there was. Its such a complex issue.
I just want them to try and wrap there heads around the concept that not wanting to live any more does not automatically mean you are "mentally ill" sure for some people a mental illness is part of it- but many thousands of people have taken there own lives without having a a mental illness as such. Again i would like to quote-maslow's hierarchy of needs- which is an excellent system in order to understand that which human beings need in order to have not only that sense of immediate security in life, plus love , but also meaning, value & purpose. The irony is, is that a certain few people that have decided I have a mental illness- due to attempts on my own life- exhibit far far more signs of a variety of mental illness's than I- and in fact having to deal with that in my life, is at least one factor in me feeling like i've just had enough. So that would be all- im rational, clear -headed, sane, logical-not even depressed as such (in the sense of when one feels depressed for no discernable reason) -just deeply sad, despairing & hopeless- for many real,palpable, fact based reasons.

 

[lovemelovemenot]

Im the opposite-my so called family could have done so so much that would have helped me to lead a better life, to feel a little happier, to have a little self worth. I dont nessarily want them to know that and they wouldnt believe it anyway, they will believe what they want. I'm sorry you feel this way, despite having a family that care, such a huge spectrum of reasons on here for people wanting to ctb-there really is not one size fits allfor reasons. it would be easier for people tounderstand if there was. Its such a complex issue.
I just want them to try and wrap there heads around the concept that not wanting to live any more does not automatically mean you are "mentally ill" sure for some people a mental illness is part of it- but many thousands of people have taken there own lives without having a a mental illness as such. Again i would like to quote-maslow's hierarchy of needs- which is an excellent system in order to understand that which human beings need in order to have not only that sense of imediate security in life, plus love , but also meaning, value & purpose. The irony is, is that a certain few people that have decided I have a mental illness- die to attempts on my own life- exhibit far far moresigns of a variety of mental illness's than I- and in fact having to deal with that in my life, is at least one factor in me feeling like i've just had enough. So that would be all- im rational, clear -headed, sane, logical-not even depressed as such (in the sense of when one feels depressed for no discernable reason) -just deeply sad, despairing & hopeless- for many real,tangible, fact based reasons.

To be honest, my family isn't perfect. I haven't even talked to my mom in about 3 years because of things she's said to me, and what she's done. I don't have a good relationship with my dad, he's very selfish in nature and acts like his kids are a burden even if he doesn't realize it. I have an okay relationship with my brothers but that's all. Though my parents have caused a lot of hurt in my life, I still don't want them to feel like it's their fault. For some reason I'm just not that resentful, even if they could've done better. I think I would've ended up this way regardless.
I do agree that not everyone that wants to die has to have some sort of mental illness. It doesn't take a crazy person to see all the flaws in the world and be wildly uncomfortable with them.

 

[MeltingHeart]

To be honest, my family isn't perfect. I haven't even talked to my mom in about 3 years because of things she's said to me, and what she's done. I don't have a good relationship with my dad, he's very selfish in nature and acts like his kids are a burden even if he doesn't realize it. I have an okay relationship with my brothers but that's all. Though my parents have caused a lot of hurt in my life, I still don't want them to feel like it's their fault. For some reason I'm just not that resentful, even if they could've done better. I think I would've ended up this way regardless.
I do agree that not everyone that wants to die has to have some sort of mental illness. It doesn't take a crazy person to see all the flaws in the world and be wildly uncomfortable with them.

someone took my SN away, as had intercepted it- shouted about how selfish i was repeatedly-as someone would have to find me like that- and then told me other ways that would be better to do it-that would cause less offense to others- it feels like the final act of cruelty!-mistreat/ neglect me for most of my life & then to top it off take away my only way that would be a little more peaceful & the way I felt most comfortable about. Ive never been an angry or resentful person-more hurt and broken - but I am reallllyyyyy angry about that.