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Pryras

Pryras

Last hope
Feb 11, 2020
630
I don't want to have any fun memories or experiences per se since I am so over everything.

I'm no longer bothered to pay off any debts so all I have left if spoiling my cats before I check out. My sister will be caring for them when I'm gone but I want to buy them things like a catio and fun enrichment things like that. It's gonna take 2 months of work but it's worth it.
 
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buzzkill

buzzkill

Zaki
Apr 6, 2023
12
i used to have dreams about visiting places but now, honestly? i just wanna gather the courage and thats it
 
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asocial

asocial

Elmo rules the world!
Apr 26, 2023
15
learning to 3D model and make environments, draw and make 2D animations, and learn to paint
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
442
I used to want to complete my travel goals, but recently my passion for that has been fully extinguished due to life stuff. If I can push myself to stick around for the next 2 years or so, I would like to complete my PhD. Maybe get published in a journal so my name still exists in some abstract way? That's about it really. My other dreams and life goals have been well and truly trampled
 
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lemonlotl

lemonlotl

catching the bus (in Minecraft)
Feb 3, 2025
17
NGL, I flip-flop often between these things but... On one hand, I'd like to publish one of the stories I'm working on that means a lot to me just because I've spent so much of my life working on it it feels like it could be a waste to end it before that happens, but it would likely take much longer than I can wait for and I feel like the entire thing may just be bad despite me investing so much time into it so maybe just getting myself to an upcoming concert I have. :)
 
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Quietist

Quietist

Lost Cause
Sep 6, 2024
292
At least a rough draft of a sci-fi novel.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,266
There was so much that I wanted to see, so many things I wanted to do. I wasted my life, there's no time now to reinvent the romance of it all. All that's left to do is die.
 
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beyondgone

Student
Mar 3, 2023
107
My work here is done, im just waiting for our lord to call me home
 
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webb&flow

webb&flow

dum spiro spero—take it as it comes
Nov 30, 2024
642
I'm no longer bothered to pay off any debts so all I have left if spoiling my cats before I check out. My sister will be caring for them when I'm gone but I want to buy them things like a catio and fun enrichment things like that. It's gonna take 2 months of work but it's worth it.
Woo hoo! Best of times with the catio! Please keep us updated on how they like it. Best of lucks with it!.

We hope you derive at least some fun from such a project. I'm sure the cats at least will!

Hope the catio (and the journey that comes with it) makes you feel something nice.

From,
Hunter
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
I would want to finish making some things as I want to make to be able to provide something to others but ultimately I realize its better for me to die for myself as I am suffering greatly as I can't regret doing these things in non-existence.
 
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nomoredolor

nomoredolor

Specialist
Sep 7, 2024
369
Highlights from my bucket list: see MCR in concert, perform a queer wedding, write a book, get a tattoo from my sister (she owns her own studio and I've only ever met her once), visit Scotland, read all the Stephen King books & do a split.

I think I'll be able to do a couple of these things before I Ctb. But don't be sad for me if I can't. I have lived and had experiences and rich connections. I am better off this way, no more grief, pain and suffering. I can go be with my best friend. 🥰

Anna
 
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sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
292
See some of my favorite shows end.
 
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uchuunekoko

uchuunekoko

6.4311
Feb 23, 2025
52
Finish writing a novella, and potentially travel to Japan again
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,344
when i think about it logically or rationally there is nothing i want to do in this life and world other than escape this world and life, my suicide asap
 
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zappynomore

Member
Feb 22, 2025
85
Not really sure I would maybe like a hoilday somewhere to travel have not done it for a. while.
 
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995.

995.

Member
Dec 30, 2024
39
Need to withdraw my investments into my dad's bank. Write goodbye letters to my loved ones.
 
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GlassMoon

GlassMoon

😶‍🌫️
Nov 18, 2024
389
My first idea was a bunch of chores for the bereaved to having something left of me. But for myself? Go to a disco and dance all night, or as long as my feet let me. I really miss that, especially after hearing all the music at the carnival parade today.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Only clearing out my estate, getting rid of everything I can, until I don't want to do anymore.
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

:( precisely as ugly as Sidney Sweeney :(
Sep 19, 2023
2,228
I would love to create some music that is good enough that people want to listen and put on a playlist, not just because they're my friend and being supportive.

I also want to get far enough into my philosophical dive that I can be satisfied. This was kind of part one. I've dug really deep for part two about consciousness and the brain, time and energy. Connecting dreams, NDE, the boring daily life, etc., with higher consciousness and the passing of time. I know I won't find perfect answers, but I feel like I can break through to a point of general understanding I'm content with.

I'd also like to finish my recovery journal.
 
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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Coming back to die
Feb 24, 2023
382
traveling
 
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JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:cclxxv
Dec 5, 2024
1,123
Nothing, I feel so empty, that I'm just here existing today... tomorrow... I don't know. I had many dreams but they are now simple illusions of the past.
 
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MiraiShisen

MiraiShisen

Student
Jun 15, 2023
196
I wanna do so much things, I have a lot of passion, but I can not, even If I really wanted to, I feel betrayed by life and at the same time I am privileged human at the top of food chain.
 
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bipolar22

bipolar22

Notorious shtposter
Aug 31, 2022
388
waiting to last of us 2 to be released in April. also wanna try heroin
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,280
Hmm i really dunno atm
But try ice skating for the first time
See snow and maybe find love?

I really dunno.I could or not do these things
 
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slightoverlooked

slightoverlooked

Specialist
Dec 27, 2023
315
i wanna at least survive this year and: cosplay all my fav characters, visit conventions, see my friend in the UK, finish my bachelor thesis and maybe find a partner...idk
 
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Soontocatch

Member
Feb 20, 2025
45
With the amount of time I have left,I probably want to try some new things to eat ig and rewatch the shows that I really love and end it there.Seems perfect
 
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cymbaline23

cymbaline23

Member
May 1, 2024
36
I want to make more music and put it out there, but I feel like I haven't had the energy or passion for it in a long time
 
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anonymouswebuser

anonymouswebuser

edgy attention seeker
Feb 27, 2025
96
A silly thing I want to do is visit Japan

Something that's a little deeper is that I just want to be remembered by someone, Leave my print somewhere or any evidence that I existed
I don't want to die as if I never existed, that's one of the most terrifying things to me.
That I suffered all alone, without even having someone who'd remember be, put flowers at my grave and sit there to talk to me
 

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