"What do you want from life?"

[unnormal9]

This is a recurring question asked to me by all my therapists and physicists. My answer has always been, nothing. I wish for nothing more than to die. I have had them impose a lot of things that simply would not work. When I write, its not for enjoyment, its an outlet for my pain—as cutting was years ago. All I want is to return to nothingness, but I shouldn't have to suffer physical agony to get there. That's the only reason I'm still here. Any method, including SN, is not without pain. The physical pain is my barrier.

 

[orca87]

I don't know anything about your personal situation, so I might be completely off. I assume your pain is emotional, not physical in nature.

You feel like there is nothing you genuinely enjoy. Probably you feel out of place and lonely. I have written about depression and loneliness here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/my-theory-on-depression.114545/

Let me know if you can relate.

Based on the assumption that it's loneliness and abandonment that causes your pain and inability to feel joy, you could watch some movies you like. Look at the characters in the movie and ask yourself if they live a life that you'd find enjoyable. Then make a list of what they "have" and see if you can get it, too. Or if there is someone you know who you think is living a life that you'd enjoy. Look at them. What do they do that you would enjoy, too? What other people souround them?

It's just the first step. Imagine a future. Just dream. No reality checks at this stage. Just find out if there could be something that you'd enjoy, even if it's completely unrealistic

 

[Paradise]

Honestly, I just want no stress, being able to meet with friends, play guitar, draw, read without having to worry about work. Travelling and discovering the world. I just want peace and also excitement. Also would like to do drugs with no repercussions but you know how it is.

 

[Dead Ghost]

I used to ask myself "what does life want from me?" because asking the question in this way helped me much more than saying "what do I want from life?".

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Jo abans em preguntaba "que vol la vida de mi?" perquè formulada la pregunta d'aquesta manera m'ajudava molt més que no pas dir " que vull de la vida?".

 

[RedDoor]

I really Don't know, I've always been a rather lifeless person, for me life is a means to an end, i guess i want to believe that I can be loved or maybe that i matter

 

[leavingsoon99]

The only thing I want from life is OUT. Pain be damned.

 

[CTB Fella]

Nothing.

 

[unnormal9]

I don't know anything about your personal situation, so I might be completely off. I assume your pain is emotional, not physical in nature.

You feel like there is nothing you genuinely enjoy. Probably you feel out of place and lonely. I have written about depression and loneliness here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/my-theory-on-depression.114545/

Let me know if you can relate.

Based on the assumption that it's loneliness and abandonment that causes your pain and inability to feel joy, you could watch some movies you like. Look at the characters in the movie and ask yourself if they live a life that you'd find enjoyable. Then make a list of what they "have" and see if you can get it, too. Or if there is someone you know who you think is living a life that you'd enjoy. Look at them. What do they do that you would enjoy, too? What other people souround them?

It's just the first step. Imagine a future. Just dream. No reality checks at this stage. Just find out if there could be something that you'd enjoy, even if it's completely unrealistic

My pain is both emotional and physical. The emotional pain manifests into physical pain; from headaches, migraines to general fatigue.
I certainly have felt out of place before rediscovering this place. As chronically suicidal I am generally ostracised from other communities.
I dream often, it's another outlet for my pain as my writing chronicles those dreams; primarily the ones I cannot control—the peculiar ones. My favoured dream is eternal sleep, simply nothing.
I don't find enjoyment in anything, trying to do so would just be forcing to like something I don't truly enjoy; for others. I find comfort in peaceful slumber.

 

[outrider567]

Nothing

 

[Source Energy]

Love. If that is not possible, just a peaceful end...

 

[Challu]

What I want from God, I can't recieve on Earth. So, I'm looking forward to my suicide in May.

 

[downndone2]

All the money I lost in 2019 to magically appear and some decisions to be turned around.

 

[singularity3]

The death

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I certainly know that I could never wish to exist, I also just wish for nonexistence as in death there is no suffering, no harm, I see life in itself as being the true problem and the thought of being trapped in this futile process until I decay from old age really does disgust me. Nothingness is ideal as I see life as being something so terrible that is best avoided, the existence of life is just a cruel mistake and I don't want to suffer in any way. As humans we certainly do deserve the option to pass away in peace without struggle, it's inhumane how that is denied from us, nobody should have to carry on existing just because some delusional people want to, forcing people to stay here against their wishes is extreme cruelty.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

To have been born the correct sex from the very beginning, and have been average looking or attractive as such.

Since that is not possible, life has nothing to offer me.

 

[SpiderLink]

This is a recurring question asked to me by all my therapists and physicists. My answer has always been, nothing. I wish for nothing more than to die. I have had them impose a lot of things that simply would not work. When I write, its not for enjoyment, its an outlet for my pain—as cutting was years ago. All I want is to return to nothingness, but I shouldn't have to suffer physical agony to get there. That's the only reason I'm still here. Any method, including SN, is not without pain. The physical pain is my barrier.

I feel you, what type of stuff do u write? I do poetry, I have a hard time expressing how I feel and explaining in depth on how I feel… so I use poetry to help. Plus I find no one can really shut me down and say it's bad because it's art, even tho it talks about struggles. Art is an expression really imo

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Happiness

 

[bloberta]

i just dont want to hate myself anymore

 

[Atwr]

Nothing

 

[unnormal9]

I feel you, what type of stuff do u write? I do poetry, I have a hard time expressing how I feel and explaining in depth on how I feel… so I use poetry to help. Plus I find no one can really shut me down and say it's bad because it's art, even tho it talks about struggles. Art is an expression really imo

I write fantasy/reality stories, particularly ones derived from dreams. Other styles I've written are modern-medieval fantasy hybrids.

 

[momdontcryplease]

To be born the opposite sex or at least known early enough to dodge puberty in time. But that's my selfish wish... I really don't want anything else regarding myself but I do really wish that I won the lottery to give that money to my parents.

 

[ILuVCkn]

I want a working and functioning brain so I won't have to be stupid.

 

[Unattainable666]

Life has given me nothing but sorrow, tears and pain. I want nothing from it.

 

[SpiderLink]

I write fantasy/reality stories, particularly ones derived from dreams. Other styles I've written are modern-medieval fantasy hybrids.

Nice!!

 

[nosoul]

Everything I ever wanted is gone, my music abilities, the ability to use my brain creatively, all gone, I just want to exit, feel so trapped

 

[Methuselah Fallen]

Love. That's the only point to life, I think - living for someone else, which is a part of love. Without love to live for, or have, as it were, then there is no other desire but for the story to end.