What do you think it would happen if somebody who knows you, found you on SS?

[Neowise]

I picked a completely new username and avatar for a reason and I actively chose against using a name I am already using somewhere else because I want to avoid the ethical discussions people certainly would bring up. Just leave me alone lol, this is my space for free speech.

It is not impossible to find out who I am though, I talk quite freely about my life here and even posted a photo of my cat who was put down last December lying next to my other cat. And sometimes I post similar things here and on a discord server I am on (for example about the cat being put down) so one could count 1+1. But the chance for finding that is small and rather luck based.

Even if I told someone or they found out about me being on the site I wouldn't want to tell them my username.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have valid reasons for browsing an suicide website. I know people try to constantly prevent suicide but the pain and suffering that this life brings is worse.

 

[Charaltontin]

I've told my best friend I post on here and stuff but I don't think there gonna try to see what I post on here, and if others found it cause I use my same gamertag/ username name or similar to it for everything I'll just tell em oh it's nothing

 

[bad luck]

I would ask him what his method is.

 

[Jumper Geo]

They have and told my family but here I am

Cheers

Geo

 

[TessB]

This happened to me. It was a guy who used to work in a shop in my town and we had bonded a little over a book I was buying.. then he recognised that it was me on here, then messaged me on Facebook.. and i felt such a deep connection with him knowing he was here too. We messaged a lot about life, depression etc. BUT me being me with bpd and wanting everything to be INTENSE INTENSE INTENSE I fucked it all up trying to push for more intensity in the friendship, when he is more of a quiet type.. and I'm such a fucking prick that when that didn't work I sent him a boob pic, like some desperate guy sending dick pics to girls for attention. Then I blocked him. Oh what a cliche. I'm such a mess.
Anyway. I messaged him recently and apologised and now because he is a genuinely good guy he is fine with me, we pass each other when driving and I beep at him and freak him out.
I want him to go for a drink with me in our town one day.. but he probably shouldn't do it, as I'll start being a freak all over again and probably end up sending him a pic of my noo noo or something.
I hope he reads this.. but he probably won't as I think he's getting better now and I'm so happy about that xx

 

[xaea13]

If someone found me here, I'd be like the dog who just took a dump on the floor and then acts completely oblivious when you show up.
"Who, me? I don't even know this person lol, what are you talking about?"

 

[BornBrief]

It's been one of my fears lately since I started hanging out with a group on discord. Sometimes I'll be the one to stream a show, and lately I've been drunk/tipsy more days than not. I've accidentally opened web pages on habit while still streaming my browser while we are just chatting and forgetting people can see Thankfully no accidents yet...

 

[TessB]

To be honest I'm getting to not even give a shit who knows I'm on here. I actually really don't care.

 

[Symbiote]

No one gonna care and if they did, they'll do a wellness call in which I'll respond, "just fine" and then they'll leave me alone for many years.

 

[loopylou]

I found it on a list of evil suicide forums and I had to enter the exact url or else it would give me the hotline and hide the website

Really? What country are you searching if from?

 

[WornOutLife]

To be honest I'm getting to not even give a shit who knows I'm on here. I actually really don't care.

It seems we're birds of a feather!
I just don't give a damn anymore about what people say. Most of them know I'm suicidal since my failed attempt, anyway.
That's why I even have a pic of myself as my avatar lol

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

My best friend? They wouldn't be surprised. They know how I feel. My mom.. also knows. Everyone else... has no fucking clue.

 

[Echo81]

People who know me would just say oh that's normal.
Even last month when my friend was threatening to have me 51/50d she called and texted my mom. My mom told her she's been listening to me for 20 years (it's really been 29 years but when one is 10 one may not tell adults that they want to die like myself) and there's nothing she can do about it.
Friend in question also hates her life and her reasoning to get me in trouble was that she would still have to live because she saw how close I was last month.
Shit, last month was really really bad for me depression and suicide wise.
It's times like this that I feel comforted by comparing myself to Jurgis Rudkus of The Jungle by Upton Sinclair.
Happy fucking Monday fellow commiserators.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Honestly, I am not sure. Depends on who it is. More than likely I would get a panicked call or visit from said person. That would make trying to carry out the act at all very difficult indeed as I am sure I would be monitored constantly....

 

[All Things Must Pass]

I don't post anything personal here, not even the country where I live, so I'd worry more about how they manage to do that.

 

[Rayzieka]

Scarily I think I'm finding myself in this position. Obviously, I would never name names or confront and hopefully, they wouldn't either. But I have a very large hunch. Luckily we aren't exactly on friendly terms so it should be neither of our concerns.

 

[Musketeer]

Because of my profile pic and some others I uploaded a few times, some people have made me this question.

I think only two things could happen:

1) They could ask me why I'm here and tell me not to ctb but I would answer: "What are YOU doing here? Why do you want to ctb too?"

Then, I would explain to them that SS works better than therapy for me and ask them to see my interactions with you all. In other words, I'm still alive thanks to SS.

2) They might just tell me that they happened to find randomly a suicide forum and that there'a a user who's uploading pictures of me.

I look like the happiest person on Earth IRL because I'm really good at hiding my depression and bipolar disorder so, I bet they would really think this is not me and even if they wouldn't, I don't really care. I would even feel relieved to talk about SS with somebody who knows me.

Now, what about you? Most of you don't have pics of yourselves but might've provided some info about your personal life so, if someome you knew read your posts, they might be suspicious of you.
Thus, I ask you:

What would you do if someone you knew found here and asked you what you're doing in this community?

probably contact some form of authorities, which is why i keep it my little secret.

 

[Black Rose Bunny]

Wee Woo wagon trip to grippy sock jail

 

[motel rooms]

He'd join it

 

[Fthis]

Like found me on SS as in they were another member? Or they came on here for evidence? Well no matter the case, I never gave away my country, anything about my looks exept my weight (which most people in my life don't know) so I don't think the chances are high unless they see me browsing SS which then I'm probably screwed.

 

[BlankUser]

Absolutely nothing. My boyfriend knows about this site. He's supportive. My relatives don't care much. They're all about: Life is precious!!! It's rainbows and unicorns!!!! (Pass me a bucket).
Even if someone would find me on this site, they would be like "It's just a phase". I don"t care about it.

 

[saltshaker]

It's a little awkward when i'm around friends and realise i still have SS open on my phones browser. I'm very good at secrecy though so i'm not worried. If discovered i'd probably just be honest about it, say it's a mental health forum.

 

[DarkNearDeath]

Partner up (assuming they're on the same path as me).

 

[blue_muse]

Thanks to a charity breaking confidentiality in the name of suicide prevention; I think several people have already found me on here, it's no coincidence that I see topics relating to things I disclosed to the charity once upon a time.

 

[Catchingdabus27]

No one would care lmao. It just justifies how they treat me. Or it's like "oh yeah she always feels this"

I showed my ex-friend and she was thinking of joining last yr... but again

I have no one that would ever care or contact me or anything so, meh doesn't matter.

 

[sm20]

Because of my profile pic and some others I uploaded a few times, some people have made me this question.

I think only two things could happen:

1) They could ask me why I'm here and tell me not to ctb but I would answer: "What are YOU doing here? Why do you want to ctb too?"

Then, I would explain to them that SS works better than therapy for me and ask them to see my interactions with you all. In other words, I'm still alive thanks to SS.

2) They might just tell me that they happened to find randomly a suicide forum and that there'a a user who's uploading pictures of me.

I look like the happiest person on Earth IRL because I'm really good at hiding my depression and bipolar disorder so, I bet they would really think this is not me and even if they wouldn't, I don't really care. I would even feel relieved to talk about SS with somebody who knows me.

Now, what about you? Most of you don't have pics of yourselves but might've provided some info about your personal life so, if someome you knew read your posts, they might be suspicious of you.
Thus, I ask you:

What would you do if someone you knew found here and asked you what you're doing in this community?

I'd delete all my posts about sn and just say it's just something I like to talk about but I'm not actively planning on anything.

 

[lanax09]

I wouldn't care to be perfectly honest. I mean they were on SS in the first place, sooo...

 

[Fthis]

I haven't had a good reply to this one until today, I was doing a group project, and someone wanted to google something with my phone. I unlocked it and handed it over without thinking, and when they opened chrome it was on SS. I grabbed the phone and closed it. "Suicide?!" She said. I told her it was a mental health forum and she smiled apologetically and said "I was there once, it'll get better"

 

[Rayzieka]

I haven't had a good reply to this one until today, I was doing a group project, and someone wanted to google something with my phone. I unlocked it and handed it over without thinking, and when they opened chrome it was on SS. I grabbed the phone and closed it. "Suicide?!" She said. I told her it was a mental health forum and she smiled apologetically and said "I was there once, it'll get better"

Yikes, close call. Good thing she was supportive or at least understanding.