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backdrop8743

backdrop8743

Not from this world
Mar 18, 2024
12
Just logistics. Who i want to adopt my cat, who has keys to my flat, etc. I just plan to schedule an email or message to someone, i don't want my body to be found weeks later and my cat being alone for too long (he has an automatic food dispenser, so he can get by for a few days). If i spoke cat, i would write a letter to him however, thanking him for always being the light of my life.
 
doomer843

doomer843

Going down the happiness spiral 🥰
Mar 25, 2024
37
Those who have a note, notes, or plan to write.. what did/will you put?

I want mine to be heartfelt to everyone in my life I feel like I owe one. But I don't want to write so much that it ends up traumatizing them more than the act itself if that makes sense .
I feel like if I write one it will end up being a novel-sized manifesto
 
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hadenough58

Member
Mar 7, 2024
81
Just the practical things such as my pre-paid funeral, location of documents and bank & financial details.
Absolutely no recriminations or blame but just a brief sentence to say this is want I wanted and it should not be treated as a sad event but rather my life choice especially after a turn of events at work yesterday which brings my end all the nearer.
 
Archness

Archness

Defective Personel
Jan 20, 2023
444
There's too much to think about if I want to be comprehensive. I also don't give enough of a fuck to care about some note people will outright deny and say I'm just mentally ill if they disliked the contents at all, or couldn't ever get it themselves. That, or something that endlessly goes on about my depression and nihilism. Not fun to read, write, and is ultimately needless since I'd be dead.


I feel like if I write one it will end up being a novel-sized manifesto
Maybe I'll leave behind a blank-book titled, "The Nihilist Manifesto". It'd be kinda funny, and very fitting for a nihilist like me who can only cope by joking and not caring at all. Hell, someone should make that right now, I'm genuinely curious what the reaction would be.
 
depressedカリちゃん

depressedカリちゃん

I only exist online
Mar 27, 2024
48
I apologized to my parents and saying it's not their fault. (actually maybe a bit but not the most) I say how I felt and I wrote my iPhone password down so they can see throw all my stuff I post and my media to at least one time will understand what was really going on with me.

I wrote 3-4 letters in total over time when things were going hard again. In one I blame the health system In another I mentioned my ex-fp
 
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justcallmeJ

justcallmeJ

<3
Nov 9, 2023
269
I wrote a cocidil so my bf legally gets first pickings on my stuff and some final wishes. Also a general note where i explain why i ctb and where i apologize, and some personal letters to people.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
1,736
I will enrage the providers, normies and others with the truth in a scolding video and book life is an evil imposition prison torture slavery. I will expound on my rejection of life

I will leave behind a book "the anti-life manifesto why life is bad and non-existence is much better than life "

Chapter 1. What would you trade for 6 hours of the worst unbearable constant pain?

Chapter 2. .life is meaningless suffering. There is no objective reason to live

Chapter 3. We all will die anyway. Nothing matters. The universe is also expanding into nothingness.

Chapter 4: the extreme suffering extreme pain arguments for why life is bad

Chapter 6. Old age is hell

Many more chapters
 
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Darmok

Member
Sep 11, 2022
20
I strictly have logistics. My desire for a memorial service (minimal) and handling of my remains (cremation, take to landfill)
 
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Valso

Valso

Member
Mar 12, 2024
81
Before each of the failed attempts I had "programmed" (it's in quotes because it's not actual programming, it was setting up parameters) an SMS website with a link to an image (my suicide note) to be sent to the heartbreakerr and the system would have sent it automatically, if I didn't cancel it first. Meaning that if I had succeeded, she would have received my suicide note telling her she's the main reason I'm ending my life because she literally destroyed it, thus having her feel guilt for the rest of her life. What better revenge than this? And it's also kind of a poetic justice, so to speak - she destroyed my life and my dreams with an SMS (Americans call it "text message") and I would destroy hers with an SMS.
 
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hopeless08

Specialist
Dec 8, 2023
379
Those who have a note, notes, or plan to write.. what did/will you put?

I want mine to be heartfelt to everyone in my life I feel like I owe one. But I don't want to write so much that it ends up traumatizing them more than the act itself if that makes sense .
It completely makes sense. Sometimes I think I shouldn't leave notes because knowing myself the moment I start writing the notes the emotion will most likely prevent me from being able to do it, thinking about the pain they'll feel but if I don't leave notes I feel like it would be a slap in the face for them, like I didn't even care to leave a note. Also I'm afraid writing them notes will hurt them even more, I imagine them reading my words over and over again and just falling apart.
It's an incredibly difficult decision
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
483
My suicide note will be composed of mostly a bunch of "fuck yous" for all the pricks I've had to endure.
 
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AnonymousL

AnonymousL

Experienced
Apr 5, 2023
295
Those who have a note, notes, or plan to write.. what did/will you put?

I want mine to be heartfelt to everyone in my life I feel like I owe one. But I don't want to write so much that it ends up traumatizing them more than the act itself if that makes sense .
That its nobody's fault.

they will tear themselves apart with guilt. So I hope telling them that it's okay and thay they are not the cause of this will help.
 
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Ironborn

Member
Jan 29, 2024
79
My suicide note will be composed of mostly a bunch of "fuck yous" for all the pricks I've had to endure.
This is the kind of vindictiveness I can get behind 👍
 
Christopher Reeve

Christopher Reeve

Ein wunderschöner Baum um sich zu erhängen
Mar 27, 2024
66
I have something that could be considered a book about why life is not worth it, but I only have it for those who really want to know the reasons. One thing I learned is that most people who are close to you won't even notice your absence, at work someone else will be hired, someone else will live in your house, life will go on and your name will eventually fall into oblivion.
1- because people don't like to talk about tragedies
2- because time erases everything.
So leaving a note or not is just a whim, or a desire to be understood. (that's what I think)
write what you want, do it to feel good
 
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AlternativeBagel

Member
Mar 12, 2024
41
Mine will probably end up being a "book" of sorts as well. A very out of order one too. Kinda like a journal i suppose but and end of life one.
 
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thot88

Member
Apr 11, 2023
96
I apologize to my family and write that this was no one's fault. I just didn't want to keep doing this anymore
 
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lita-lassi

lita-lassi

let me spell it out for you: go to hell
Sep 25, 2023
396
if i followed through: a bunch of letters to those i love explaining its not their fault in the slightest and they were the best parts keeping me afloat as long as i was

probably a letter or two to some people that deserve to know theyre a big part of the reasons i couldnt keep floating anymore and that they should go fuck themselves

all combined the length of the letters would be a short novel i expect. i may make two copies of each and throw one of em all together so my family and friends that reach out have a more rounded view of "why"
 
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Forveleth

Student
Mar 26, 2024
126
I've watched a bunch of those sappy videos from people left behind and most of them say the same things. They want to know why, they think there's something they could have done, they didn't see any of the signs.

My notes would just address those things. I don't necessarily feel obligated to comfort people, more just clarify so they're not left wondering for the rest of their lives because I like people to know where I'm coming from. Also feeling a little vindictive as I'd like to tell a few people "This happened because of you". 😅
 
Valso

Valso

Member
Mar 12, 2024
81
Also feeling a little vindictive as I'd like to tell a few people "This happened because of you". 😅
You're not the only one. I feel so much hatred for this one (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/what-do-you-put-in-a-suicide-note.157881/post-2432017) that I keep inventing (in my mind) more and more painful ways to emotionally harm her after my death, like telling everyone else who to blame and giving them her phone number which is still active and I still remember by heart, along with a picture of hers.
 
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wiinterfrost

wiinterfrost

it only gets worse..
Oct 8, 2023
103
I want mine to be heartfelt to everyone in my life I feel like I owe one. But I don't want to write so much that it ends up traumatizing them more than the act itself if that makes sense .
i understand the sentiment. in my life i've written sooo many suicide notes. it was different every time. new things added.
i've made videos. but i always tried to not go too much into detail.

i think if you have the urge to go into enormous detail you could have a separate one as like a blogpost or a computer pdf or something. like one that is heartfelt and general and perhaps touches on logistical things, and one that is just full on vent mode but only for those who are willing, idk

i've made the plan now that i have separate ones for separate people, and one general one where i refer to people and tell them i have separate notes for them and where to find the rest of the necessary infos. also a little fuck you to my main abusers.
and a kind of anthology of how this world could be a better place and spreading love and all that i guess lol
and one where i explain how it came to be that i had to commit suicide and the events leading up to it. that is a separate note because as mentioned i do not want those who can't deal with that to be triggered by that.

like i heard that some people feel better in knowing that it was really bad and that they couldn't have done anything, like the not-knowing is horrible for some people. so maybe saving a separate note to go into detail about things (if that's what you want!!) could actually make sense.
 
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theboy

theboy

Visionary
Jul 15, 2022
2,680
the idea is to write a note that leaves your loved ones alone. Put in the note the reasons and how much you loved them, those are the basics. It is important not to leave loose ends that may confuse or upset the family by not having an answer. There was a user who left an outline of how to make a note.
 
fallingasl33p

fallingasl33p

Member
Jan 2, 2024
59
Everything I've written before just ends up sounding corny as fuck (as do a lot of the comments on this thread lol). I don't think I could ever properly articulate what I feel or trust that it would be properly understood so it's better not to bother I think. When it really comes down to it I won't write anything special. Most recent near-attempts I just put down sticky notes on what to do with my belongings, keys, who to tell when I'm found etc.
 
du2497

du2497

Member
Mar 17, 2020
36
I honestly couldn't do just the "heres my bank info / passwords etc etc" thing. I agree with the people in the thread that would probably write a "manifesto" of sorts. In my case, just to get everything out one last time. Though I get the sense it would get "buried" as it were, people don't really like to talk about why someone CTB'd and in my family my thought is they would just reduce it to "he was having issues with [ultra generic thing here]", so in a way its almost a waste to write one.
 
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Forveleth

Student
Mar 26, 2024
126
I honestly couldn't do just the "heres my bank info / passwords etc etc" thing. I agree with the people in the thread that would probably write a "manifesto" of sorts. In my case, just to get everything out one last time. Though I get the sense it would get "buried" as it were, people don't really like to talk about why someone CTB'd and in my family my thought is they would just reduce it to "he was having issues with [ultra generic thing here]", so in a way its almost a waste to write one.
Ugh, this is like those videos where the parents are like "He didn't show any signs of being in trouble" and then the friends are all "Yeah, no, he was obviously going through some shit" and you know the parents just didn't want to deal with it. 🙄
 
pinkhellokitty

pinkhellokitty

eternal sunshine
Mar 16, 2024
15
Just reassuring loved ones that it wasn't their fault and to not feel guilty or that they didn't do enough because at the end of the day this is what I wanted and I gave it my best and sometimes life isn't for everyone
 
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Unsure and alone

It's a slow fade
Dec 10, 2023
116
Before each of the failed attempts I had "programmed" (it's in quotes because it's not actual programming, it was setting up parameters) an SMS website with a link to an image (my suicide note) to be sent to the heartbreakerr and the system would have sent it automatically, if I didn't cancel it first. Meaning that if I had succeeded, she would have received my suicide note telling her she's the main reason I'm ending my life because she literally destroyed it, thus having her feel guilt for the rest of her life. What better revenge than this? And it's also kind of a poetic justice, so to speak - she destroyed my life and my dreams with an SMS (Americans call it "text message") and I would destroy hers with an SMS.
That sounds so very painful.
It makes sense to want the person who is your main reason to know.

How do I learn to do that ?
The delayed SMS / text.

And how do I cancel it ?
In case something were to go wrong.
 
Valso

Valso

Member
Mar 12, 2024
81
That sounds so very painful.
It makes sense to want the person who is your main reason to know.

How do I learn to do that ?
The delayed SMS / text.

And how do I cancel it ?
In case something were to go wrong.
IDK if that service exists anymore. You can Google for similar stuff, though. "How to send a delayed text message/email", for instance.
 
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Unsure and alone

It's a slow fade
Dec 10, 2023
116
IDK if that service exists anymore. You can Google for similar stuff, though. "How to send a delayed text message/email", for instance.
Okay thanks for the idea .
 

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