What do you have left to do before you depart?

[GentlyFading]

I have a checklist of what I need to do before I CTB. What do everyone else's look like?

Here's what I got so far:

• Prepare rope (tie knots and measure to fit on door).
• Write a letter to housemates.
• Write a letter to family regarding bank accounts, belongings, and funeral.
• Make a sign to notify my housemates of my dead body.
• Write instructions on what to do when my body is discovered.
• Practice rope placement.
• Assemble floor covering (towels + garbage bags + tape to catch excrement).
• Tidy room.
• Launder dirty laundry.

I'll cross out items as I go along. Wish me luck <3

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Things To Do Before CTB
1) Execute Mother's Will To Completion
2) Liquidate Possessions - Ongoing
3) Get Monument Ordered & Installed At Mother's Grave - In Process
4) Get Will Drafted/Setup Trust - In Process
5) Write Final Note
6) Write Note To Police Department So Can Find My Body
7) Order Materials For CTB Method- In Process
8) Conduct Testing Of CTB Method For Efficacy
9) Empty Garage Bay For CTB - In Process
10) Destroy Hard Drives/Close Online Accounts - In Process

 

[Wannagonow]

Things to do before CTB:
1) Finally decide and acquire method
2) CTB

 

[Asiam]

-clean my room, throw away any journals that may speak badly of others
-pack my shit into boxes
-wait for my roommate to move away
-acquire method (drugs or nitrogen)
-have the best last day I can have, of art, meditation, and all the things the stress of poverty and life never allowed me to feel

 

[Forever Sleep]

Things To Do Before CTB
1) Execute Mother's Will To Completion
2) Liquidate Possessions - Ongoing
3) Get Monument Ordered & Installed At Mother's Grave - In Process
4) Get Will Drafted/Setup Trust - In Process
5) Write Final Note
6) Write Note To Police Department So Can Find My Body
7) Order Materials For CTB Method- In Process
8) Conduct Testing Of CTB Method For Efficacy
9) Empty Garage Bay For CTB - In Process
10) Destroy Hard Drives/Close Online Accounts - In Process

That's so lovely- that you are organising a monument for your Mum's grave.


My to-do before CTB list:

1) Make new will.
2) Arrange house clearance service so my family don't need to deal with my crap.
3) Order everything needed for my method.
4) Make drafts of my goodbye notes.
5) Wait for my Dad to pass first.
6) Prepay for my cremation.
7) Pay off my new phone.
8) Might have to gather together information for a tax return- sounds like the bastards even come after you when you're dead.
9) Make detailed notes for my solicitor with my bank accounts, bills, cremation details etc. Make a note to warn the police on what to expect.
10) Create attachments (goodbye notes and suicide details) to send via delayed email to my family, friends and the police.
11) Possibly post off a box of small mementos to my best friend for my God son.
12) Prepare the area- laying out thick plastic sheeting and turn off the central heating and everything else no longer required.
13) Depending on how much money I have at the time- perhaps say farewell to a few places before I go.

 

[savoytruffle]

Make notes for my mum, apologize for everything
Acquire method (if hanging, if SN)
Wipe/trash phone with SS details
Drink alcohol for the first time
Pick my last day (i don't want to leave the house, so probably weekend)
Arrange all necessary papers for getting cremated

 

[hopelessgirl]

Write a note on the door where I take SN and write a delayed post here on sasu

 

[outrider567]

Nothing really--Just put out my already written notes on the table, including the Nitrogen warning signs

 

[WorthlessTrash]

1. Bypass SI
2. Bypass guilt
3. Bypass fear of what happens when you die
4. CTB

Basically i need to grow my pair of balls i unfortunately have.

 

[Wait-Bus]

nothing actually since I figure the timing of my CTB will be based on an impulse of the moment. And once you are dead, you don't notice what you didn't do.

 

[DarkRose]

Nothing. CTB is not an if but a when for me. I have my SN laying next to me for when I can't take life anymore.
It will be a sudden decision to end my life. So nope, no letter, no goodbyes. Just me and peace.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

That's so lovely- that you are organising a monument for your Mum's grave.

Thanks, but I'm the only child and actually the last one left out of my entire family, which was small, and if I didn't do it, there would be no one to do it. Plus, I'm going to be there, too, at least in the form of cremains.

 

[liana]

Good luck. You sound like a very considerate person. I wish you freedom from pain.

I have so much left to do. Yet the same state of hopelessness that makes me want to go makes me so void of energy.
I move through the days so slowly and take forever to do something. I don't even have the energy to research.

 

[Prescott241]

List of things to complete before I CTB:
-Write out suicide note
-Purchase 150 grams of SN
-Join the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn (unlikely, willing to forego this step due to unlikely probability)
-Purchase Antiemetic
-Save up enough money for a week long hotel stay
-Meditate and attain spiritual closure about my death.

it looks like so far I just need to buy an antiemetic, save some money up for a hotel, and meditate to ensure I die in the right state of mind. I'm choosing to stay in a hotel for a week to keep my mind off unimportant and irrelevant things.