SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
361
I hate feeling too much. I hate both feelings but when i feel nothing I just feel paralyzed. Both r shitty feelings and there's no in between, that's definitely one thing I'm hopeless about.
 
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failed life

failed life

Member
Apr 10, 2023
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Mostly I'm feeling far too much, which is totally exhausting. I used to have ways of escaping it and finding small things to enjoy but that's gone now.
 
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Parasitic

Parasitic

Tew
Jun 16, 2023
34
I think I hate feeling too much more, when overloaded with thoughts/feelings I feel panicked. I over think everything at rapid speeds and can't focus on anything for more than a second, I also find it exhausting, the only upside to feeling too much is I find it possible to mask it. Feeling nothing at all is paralyzing and almost like viewing the world from a third person perspective, like being the person holding camera. Its emotionally dead which I can't hide, a complete neutral/nothing hurts only when you notice or worse, get told, I would often be feeling nothing at all in a neutral and someone will mention "oh your moody today aren't you" or "cheer up" and I don't have the energy to explain I'm currently completely empty inside feeling nothing and that quickly downward spirals into a depressive episode, that being said I still prefer nothingness (assuming im alone) because not being able to feel anything positive means unable to feel anything negative and during that time I can find some sort of peace.

I wish you the best
 
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winamp

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
1,357
this is a great question

feeling too much is the same as being aware to me and I think once people become aware or sentient they will never be the same again whether if it's a positive or negative experience

I'd rather be oblivious to everything and the horrors and complexities of this world
I feel that those who are capable of being oblivious to everything are privileged in some way although it is not safe to be unaware of your surroundings

I am unsure
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
1,070
I definitely think that feeling too much is by far the worst.
It is far more stressful and emotionality draining than being emotionally neutral.
 
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(¥)

Jun 8, 2023
52
feeling. all my life i feel empty. sadness, death, happiness, never feel any thing towards it. felt like robot. told to "feel like this" to this and "feel like this" to that. just trapped in a controlled world.
 
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lokabe82

lokabe82

To infinity and beyond
Jun 16, 2023
153
When I feel nothing at all, I tend to chase after some type of feeling (usually with alcohol and occasionally psychedelics). It doesn't usually work so I end up being a functional alcoholic. When I feel too much is when the self sabotage starts. Overall feeling too much is way worse.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Feelings are more dreadful in my opinion, feeling too much only leads to more suffering but of course one will suffer no matter what as long as they exist here. It's a curse having the ability to exist in this dreadful world.
 
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ifeelsobad

Experienced
Aug 23, 2022
218
I hate feeling so much I wish I felt nothing
 
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SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
361
Yeah, it just sucks when I don't have control over any of it. It just happens, with no trigger (wether that's feeling too much or nothing, I can never find the middle ground between the two; if I feel nothing, I want to feel soemthing, but if I feel too much I want to feel nothing)
 
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imcurious

imcurious

Member
May 6, 2022
97
I'm not sure. I have been on both ends of that spectrum. For most of my life past childhood, I've developed a sort of no-feelings kind of coping mechanism. My emotions are still there, but they are incredibly dulled and fleeting. It's nice that I don't feel anything intensely negative, but I don't feel any pleasure, joy, excitement, anything at all, towards life. Kind of just feels like the days are dragging on without any end in sight. Sometimes I wish I were a kid again when I did feel more, but I don't know if the constant depressive and anxious episodes are worth it.
 
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pole

Global Mod
Sep 18, 2018
1,385
when I felt too much, I desperately wished to rather be numb and feel nothing.

now, when I feel nothing, even about stuff that use to move me, I feel dead and miss feeling something.

I guess being in the middle of both would be fine. it being unbalanced is just dreadful.
 
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BuranaPoe

BuranaPoe

Is there something really worth it?
Apr 4, 2023
7
Una de las pocas amigas que he tenido (ahora se ha ido, como todo el mundo) me confesó que nunca había sido capaz de sentir un sentimiento real, ni siquiera cuando murió su abuela, la persona más cercana a ella, y parecía como un maldito regalo Ya que desde que tengo uso de razón me duele sentir demasiado, inconscientemente soy demasiado expresivo en mi cara, lo que me ha traído un sinfín de problemas con personas propensas a ofenderse... Me encantaría poder sentir 0 % de las cosas, podría ser más desapegado de las situaciones desagradables
 
SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
361
I'm not sure. I have been on both ends of that spectrum. For most of my life past childhood, I've developed a sort of no-feelings kind of coping mechanism. My emotions are still there, but they are incredibly dulled and fleeting. It's nice that I don't feel anything intensely negative, but I don't feel any pleasure, joy, excitement, anything at all, towards life. Kind of just feels like the days are dragging on without any end in sight. Sometimes I wish I were a kid again when I did feel more, but I don't know if the constant depressive and anxious episodes are worth it.
I feel ya
when I felt too much, I desperately wished to rather be numb and feel nothing.

now, when I feel nothing, even about stuff that use to move me, I feel dead and miss feeling something.

I guess being in the middle of both would be fine. it being unbalanced is just dreadful.
Same here
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
I wish I could feel nothing. Sadness abx loneliness is killing me
 
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