What do you guys think of this?

[deepinlimbo]

I don't want to live like this anymore. My birthday was a few weeks back and I am 25 now and of this is how the rest of my life with proceed then I am honestly done. My quality of life is what I deem to be sub par and below what I should be expecting from life so im contemplating this:

sell most of my possessions off, leave my gf and be honest with her within reason, she deserves better. Sell the car I have now and use the savings I do have which is decent to buy my dream vehicle, an old ex army truck and take it to the Scottish highlands, maybe stop off some other nice locations on the way and camp out a bit, campfire, explore the woods and mountains etc and be with nature for a while and then kill myself a few days later maybe near the coast.


Obviously Im not asking for people to say I can kill myself. Im making this clear. That's my choiceI know how this forum and the principles of sanctioned suicide work etc and it's not the main point I'm making here.
im more just stuck on how I should proceed in my painful life. I'm really so painfully unhappy.

more I'm asking for advice on the idea of just being honest and somewhat of decent person for once in my life

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Is this your first girlfriend or did you have any previous relationships?

 

[deepinlimbo]

Is this your first girlfriend or did you have any previous relationships?

Not first, but Been with her for about 7 years. I love her and she loves me but I'm not the person she deserves, she deserves far better.

 

[Fakereality]

Have an honest talk with her perhaps about life and stuff maybe take her on a last date if you can somewhere relaxing
Spend one good day with her and at night, break the truth to her she has been with you for so long maybe you could somehow make that last date somewhat memorable for her and you before you decide what to tell her and how to tell her.

 

[deepinlimbo]

Have an honest talk with her perhaps about life and stuff maybe take her on a last date if you can somewhere relaxing
Spend one good day with her and at night, break the truth to her she has been with you for so long maybe you could somehow make that last date somewhat memorable for her and you before you decide what to tell her and how to tell her.

Thanks. I just wish I had my time over. I wouldn't change much, just the bits to make me healthy.

its hard to let go. I think seeing her with someone else whilst I'm still around would be heartbreaking even more. But I want her to be happy

 

[Chancerator]

I like to idea of an epic road trip with your dream vehicle. When I was around your age, I did something similar. I threw all caution to the wind and hiked part of the Appalachian Trail. The idea was to hike the trail and then CTB, but I found that my inclination toward dying diminished greatly in the process. Now, I didn't hike the trail to save myself. I always knew that CTB was my end-goal...and I saw the Appalachian Trail as an awesome thing to do before I died. BUT the act of hiking the trail extended my life for a while. By doing something that I'd always dreamed about, I grew more confident in my ability to tackle other battles in my life. So, idk. Be bold, my friend. The world wants us to believe that we're cracked and broken, but we possess a type of strength that few people can truly fathom. Every breath you take is an act of courage, whether you choose to CTB or not. I just hope that you get to look down from a few mountain tops before you go.

 

[deepinlimbo]

I like to idea of an epic road trip with your dream vehicle. When I was around your age, I did something similar. I threw all caution to the wind and hiked part of the Appalachian Trail. The idea was to hike the trail and then CTB, but I found that my inclination toward dying diminished greatly in the process. Now, I didn't hike the trail to save myself. I always knew that CTB was my end-goal...and I saw the Appalachian Trail as an awesome thing to do before I died. BUT the act of hiking the trail extended my life for a while. By doing something that I'd always dreamed about, I grew more confident in my ability to tackle other battles in my life. So, idk. Be bold, my friend. The world wants us to believe that we're cracked and broken, but we possess a type of strength that few people can truly fathom. Every breath you take is an act of courage, whether you choose to CTB or not. I just hope that you get to look down from a few mountain tops before you go.

Thankyou for your insightful words.

 

[Tamz]

I love the idea of travelling a bit first seeing mountains, being with nature, camping, camp fire, star gazing. If I did something like that I would be at such peace to then enter non existence.