What do you get out of these forums?

[Just A NPC]

Clearly we all know people are watching this forum, and it is bringing more light to the issues of mental health and suicide. People are finding this place because of this article as well, and so I figured we could help them. Let's make a thread of the good this place brings. So I pose this question to everyone here. What do you get out of this forum? will go first since I pose the question.

The very obvious, to me anyway, is this forum has prevented me from making a spur of the moment choice to end my life when my bipolar downs hit. Growing up, before I even found this place, I tried to kill myself in ways I learned we're just harmful to myself and my family. I have tried over dosing on aspirin and Tylenol. I have tried slitting my wrists. I have tried to drink bleach, and I have also tried to starve myself. I have tried to hang myself unsuccessfully. I have tried to drown myself, and I have also tried to suffocate myself. I am sure there are many ways I have tried that I am forgetting. Many of these actions have caused me to go to the hospital, wasting resources that could have been used in a better way, and also left a huge amount of pain with my family and friends I once had. If I had information before this website much of this would have actually been avoided since many of the ways I tried to kill myself actually don't work. They just make me feel stupid for trying, and after 20 years did nothing to help me with my real problem: being bipolar.

SO besides bringing me an informed choice, which inadvertently has kept me alive longer, this place gives me comfort knowing I am not alone. I do not post often, more because of myself than what is presented in the forums, but I know if I am in the middle of a mental health crisis I can come here for help. I can speak what is on my mind, and get unfiltered feed back. I can browse the forums when my mind is racing and remember that I am not the only one dealing with these feelings and emotions. It helps me keep my feelings in check, and I've never once been told I need to kill myself. In fact I've had plenty of private messages offering love and support.

So I have found information that has inadvertantly kept me alive. I realize the pain my spur of the moment attempts have created, because of this website, and see the resources I've wasted that could have gone to actual emergencies. Hell, honestly, Ive found more mental clarity here than I have on medication and being in hospitals.

If this forum were to go away I can promise you people would still try to kill themselves. I can also promise you if this forum goes away there will be less lives saved because of the community and resources offered here.

Life is messy. Life is not perfect. There is loss, but that loss would still be there even if sanctioned suicide was not. Maybe even more, because I'm sure I'd have eventually bumbled my way into killing myself after so many failed attempts. Thankfully this forum has helped not only me, but my extension my family and remaining friends, because they know I'm in a better mental place finding a community that understands what I go through.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Connecting with humans who are feeling similar… Otherwise I would be entirely isolated

 

[Someone123]

Being able to discuss these issues with people who understand- so many people say they can't understand wny someone would want to commit suicide- they are lucky that their life has been good enough that they have never considered it- I can't even imagine what a life like that would have been like- it sounds like paradise by comparison. The abuse was so bad since a young age that it's been a struggle to retin a will to live since second grade, many years ago.

 

[CiproKilledMe]

Came for the methods; stayed for the company.

 

[Just A NPC]

Being able to discuss these issues with people who understand- so many people say they can't understand wny someone would want to commit suicide- they are lucky that their life has been good enough that they have never considered it- I can't even imagine what a life like that would have been like- it sounds like paradise by comparison. The abuse was so bad since a young age that it's been a struggle to retin a will to live since second grade, many years ago.

This is well said, and I also was bullied very hard from a young age. The schools, authorities, and parents did not stop anything. In fact most of the time I reached out for help I was the one punished or admonished (especially when I actually tried to defend myself!) It does not bring a sense of support, or comfort, when you do what you are supposed to (seek help) and the bullies get away with everything while the one being victim gets punished. In fact seeking help made me want to harm myself more!

What a great point to bring up. What do you do when you have tried the "correct" ways to "fix" your problem and it still remains? Seems like the answer these people who want to paint in a negative way is to find others who understand.

Why take that away from people?

 

[Insomniac]

I procrastinate here and postpone my CTB. I feel like the people here are on the same low energy level as me and it make me feel comfy.

 

[forgotten15]

Being able to express myself without being judged. Feeling like I actually have people to whom I can relate to and not be the weird one. Also, being here has actually prolonged my life and stopped me from making irational decisions when it comes to my suicidal thoughts. And I feel less alone when I interract with the forum members. I would be devastated if SS would get taken down.

 

[Efilismislife]

is it wrong to wanna exit from life full of misery that the person dont want to be born in that miserable life?

why must it be treated as a bad thing?

its supposed to be a good thing to help people out of misery

why must the people who are in desperate situation must get stomped on from lucky people who have happy life

 

[Just A NPC]

I would like to mention something else, and should probably just edit my post but fuck it. I actually learned more about how to hurt myself, and what I could get intoxicated on, more in the hospitals and my short stint in juvenile detention than anywhere else. So even when I was seeking help, the correct way, I learned more about how to harm myself than if I DID NOT try to seek "help".

Another thing this place offers is to keep supporting each other despite what insurance or money one may or may not have. You can't say that about the places that are the "correct" way to get help.

Oh yeah also while in the hospital one of my doctors tried to fuck me. I was a 16 year old boy who self harmed, and had numerous suicide attempts, and me getting "help" included doing what I could to not get molested by my doctor. I haven't been molested here yet, so that's another thing I get from this forum. Fucking safety from those trying to "help" me.

I guess this is rambling now, but once when I was raped and went to the police I was literally told by the cops a guy could not be raped if they did not want it due to how anatomy works. (Yes I was actually told that in a much more gross way). I don't get blamed for being raped here, either.

 

[tieiwi]

I have been reading a bunch of forums on here for a while and finally decided to make an account. First thing I felt was comfort to be completely honest. Like I'm not alone and I'm able to interact with people who aren't judging me or constantly telling me "it'll get better, god loves you, think about your loved ones" etc.

 

[LADY007]

Connecting with humans who are feeling similar… Otherwise I would be entirely isolated

Only people who have anxiety/depression understand what an intense struggle it is. If you did not get the funds to go to college, developed anx/depression and kept getting older while taking meds that work only for a certain amount of time and then stop....frustration sets in and hope ends. You get in your sixties and realize no one is going to save you in your 70's and 80's. With this scenario, the fear that sets in starts taking the joy out of any that is left each day. Like being on a run away train....you know you will crash and can't get it out of your thoughts. I joined this group to contribute and learn about Nitrogen exit bags. I have a 40 cf cylinder of nitro gas and have told people how to purchase it without freaking the welding company out, etc. I am thankful for the members who shared experiences and how-to-tips. One day, humans might become enlightened enough to put people out of suffering as we so caringly do to animals.

 

[PTSDPigeon]

Clearly we all know people are watching this forum, and it is bringing more light to the issues of mental health and suicide. People are finding this place because of this article as well, and so I figured we could help them. Let's make a thread of the good this place brings. So I pose this question to everyone here. What do you get out of this forum? will go first since I pose the question.

The very obvious, to me anyway, is this forum has prevented me from making a spur of the moment choice to end my life when my bipolar downs hit. Growing up, before I even found this place, I tried to kill myself in ways I learned we're just harmful to myself and my family. I have tried over dosing on aspirin and Tylenol. I have tried slitting my wrists. I have tried to drink bleach, and I have also tried to starve myself. I have tried to hang myself unsuccessfully. I have tried to drown myself, and I have also tried to suffocate myself. I am sure there are many ways I have tried that I am forgetting. Many of these actions have caused me to go to the hospital, wasting resources that could have been used in a better way, and also left a huge amount of pain with my family and friends I once had. If I had information before this website much of this would have actually been avoided since many of the ways I tried to kill myself actually don't work. They just make me feel stupid for trying, and after 20 years did nothing to help me with my real problem: being bipolar.

SO besides bringing me an informed choice, which inadvertently has kept me alive longer, this place gives me comfort knowing I am not alone. I do not post often, more because of myself than what is presented in the forums, but I know if I am in the middle of a mental health crisis I can come here for help. I can speak what is on my mind, and get unfiltered feed back. I can browse the forums when my mind is racing and remember that I am not the only one dealing with these feelings and emotions. It helps me keep my feelings in check, and I've never once been told I need to kill myself. In fact I've had plenty of private messages offering love and support.

So I have found information that has inadvertantly kept me alive. I realize the pain my spur of the moment attempts have created, because of this website, and see the resources I've wasted that could have gone to actual emergencies. Hell, honestly, Ive found more mental clarity here than I have on medication and being in hospitals.

If this forum were to go away I can promise you people would still try to kill themselves. I can also promise you if this forum goes away there will be less lives saved because of the community and resources offered here.

Life is messy. Life is not perfect. There is loss, but that loss would still be there even if sanctioned suicide was not. Maybe even more, because I'm sure I'd have eventually bumbled my way into killing myself after so many failed attempts. Thankfully this forum has helped not only me, but my extension my family and remaining friends, because they know I'm in a better mental place finding a community that understands what I go through.

Your response is nice. :) I am glad that you have found compassion from others who suffer from suicidal urges. I have done a lot of the same that you have done. I traced it to male entitlement, oppression and feeling buried by suggestion that I am for sale and there to live reverent. It caused my mental health to cave in, along with rape culture. I've got a formal PTSD diagnosis. I refuse to treat it with medication. I have received nothing but abuse from therapists (fascist - gaslighting, ridiculing).

I hope that your suicidal urges lessen. I hope your medication helps you and that you find peace, a more pleasant path to take and that you heal from your experiences that wounded you.

 

[Just A NPC]

Only people who have anxiety/depression understand what an intense struggle it is. If you did not get the funds to go to college, developed anx/depression and kept getting older while taking meds that work only for a certain amount of time and then stop....frustration sets in and hope ends. You get in your sixties and realize no one is going to save you in your 70's and 80's. With this scenario, the fear that sets in starts taking the joy out of any that is left each day. Like being on a run away train....you know you will crash and can't get it out of your thoughts. I joined this group to contribute and learn about Nitrogen exit bags. I have a 40 cf cylinder of nitro gas and have told people how to purchase it without freaking the welding company out, etc. I am thankful for the members who shared experiences and how-to-tips. One day, humans might become enlightened enough to put people out of suffering as we so caringly do to animals.

What a great response, and I can relate to this very much. I remember being younger thinking all I really needed was to find someone I could talk to, and who understood me. I have found bits and pieces of that in my life, but not like I have in a place like this. Even when I was in hospitals, and therapy, you can't always be completely honest because of the threat of being sent away. Sometimes we just need to be able to say "I want to kill myself today" and have someone understand that doesn't mean we are going to actually go through with it at least in that very moment. We are not dangers to ourselves, or others, just for verbalizing something we are feeling.

The truth is no one is coming to save us, so it is another benefit of this forum. Finding like minded people who understand and give us a safe place to speak freely.

 

[Kobusu]

Seriously, it's the only safe place I have to talk about my feelings. It's the only place where I can say "I'm thinking about killing myself" and not have cops called on me or family members alerted. It's also the only place where other people understand. There's a lot here. I came initially for the methods, and to learn how to properly do things, but now it's just nice having a place I can talk to other people who "get it". Who have tried to kill themselves too, or who want to try. It's not something average people understand, but this is a place where we can talk openly about our struggles and issues and fears and everything. I think this place provides a very necessary and helpful environment that you can't get anywhere else.

 

[PTSDPigeon]

I have met people who are DOWN. People who are lifeless and depressed. I get to see some facets of my own personality and struggles others go through. I've struggled with suicide for years (much of it due to stress; not necessarily mental illness).

I've found others who have conditions like PTSD.

I've seen that "irregular and imperfect and less than cookie-cut people" find love, acceptance and partially "recover".

it's given me some hope.

I've exchanged therapy information (self-help techniques).

i've got someone to talk to who won't prey on me, lurk for me with his popularity, money, accomplishments.

I feel safe and this site has actually help put suicidal urges to rest or in remission. I haven't sought out methods and know plenty already and have made my own futile attempts (pills, camping lanterns (gassing myself), hanging, household chemicals, planned on jumping).

I've made pen-pal friends who I'm happy and excited to receive email messages from.

I've tried to make people stop mid-effort (halfway through a "dose"). I don't feel responsible for making them stop, but it's rewarding to see someone halt the effort, decide to live with the pain for as long as they can and I'd like to help and chime in with "you're loved, though you're sick and in pain"

I love imperfect people who dysfunction. I can be high-functioning and I can be extremely reclusive and sick in my own apartment for weeks - thinking of my future, where it's going, what already happened while arguing with demons that make it impossible to leave an abuser - gaslighting.

I've found the company on here pretty nice. Caring, expressive, thoughtful. Nobody's pressured me to commit suicide, contacted me for a partner to jump with or taught me about new methods. I came here to relate and feel happy that I don't have to step outside, give out my personal information or be seen on a day when i'm not looking so good. I don't have to visit a therapist who puts sedatives in my mouth when I have concerns about safety, sex-abuse, religion or be put into an institution where I'm tortured by people who know only what they know.

I haven't become more suicidal since I logged into this forum - the opposite has happened! I've found alternatives that are less invasive (CBT therapy, chat, relativity). Suicide is so taboo that everyone usually drops out of your life and thinks you are "MAD" "dangerous" "lying" "getting attention" which compounds the existing or non-existing mental illnesses that society has labeled you with. I avoid (go out of my way) to avoid time with others now - knowing what I know I'll do better that way.

I had spent weeks in bed and had attempted to light a carbon monoxide lamp when i came onto this forum. Now, I am doing laundry, reading self-help books, communicating with someone human, getting some form of helpful attention and staying out of a limelight that no suicidal person actually "wants to be in".

I feel better - healthier and like there might be hope.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is a way to pass the time, also it is good to have a place that supports the right to die. It is cruel how the society expects us to suffer for decades, after all it is our life and our decision.

 

[Thequietone]

Clearly we all know people are watching this forum, and it is bringing more light to the issues of mental health and suicide. People are finding this place because of this article as well, and so I figured we could help them. Let's make a thread of the good this place brings. So I pose this question to everyone here. What do you get out of this forum? will go first since I pose the question.

The very obvious, to me anyway, is this forum has prevented me from making a spur of the moment choice to end my life when my bipolar downs hit. Growing up, before I even found this place, I tried to kill myself in ways I learned we're just harmful to myself and my family. I have tried over dosing on aspirin and Tylenol. I have tried slitting my wrists. I have tried to drink bleach, and I have also tried to starve myself. I have tried to hang myself unsuccessfully. I have tried to drown myself, and I have also tried to suffocate myself. I am sure there are many ways I have tried that I am forgetting. Many of these actions have caused me to go to the hospital, wasting resources that could have been used in a better way, and also left a huge amount of pain with my family and friends I once had. If I had information before this website much of this would have actually been avoided since many of the ways I tried to kill myself actually don't work. They just make me feel stupid for trying, and after 20 years did nothing to help me with my real problem: being bipolar.

SO besides bringing me an informed choice, which inadvertently has kept me alive longer, this place gives me comfort knowing I am not alone. I do not post often, more because of myself than what is presented in the forums, but I know if I am in the middle of a mental health crisis I can come here for help. I can speak what is on my mind, and get unfiltered feed back. I can browse the forums when my mind is racing and remember that I am not the only one dealing with these feelings and emotions. It helps me keep my feelings in check, and I've never once been told I need to kill myself. In fact I've had plenty of private messages offering love and support.

So I have found information that has inadvertantly kept me alive. I realize the pain my spur of the moment attempts have created, because of this website, and see the resources I've wasted that could have gone to actual emergencies. Hell, honestly, Ive found more mental clarity here than I have on medication and being in hospitals.

If this forum were to go away I can promise you people would still try to kill themselves. I can also promise you if this forum goes away there will be less lives saved because of the community and resources offered here.

Life is messy. Life is not perfect. There is loss, but that loss would still be there even if sanctioned suicide was not. Maybe even more, because I'm sure I'd have eventually bumbled my way into killing myself after so many failed attempts. Thankfully this forum has helped not only me, but my extension my family and remaining friends, because they know I'm in a better mental place finding a community that understands what I go through.

I'm pretty new here but I appreciate it that suicide is no taboo here.

You can just ask questions without being judged.

I have suicidal thoughts but never acted on it and here I learn what you shouldn't try if you wanna do it. So you have a less painful death.

 

[Just A NPC]

Thank you so far to everyone who has shared. I can not lie I am fired up at how one sided this article is, and it makes me so happy to be able to see so many people share they feel safe here. Support and the ability to feel safe is not just important but /vital/ to the very human existence. I'm not afraid to speak up and say I have flaws. Some of them are dark as hell because my brain fights itself.

That doesnt make me any less human, or a danger. That doesn't make /you/ any less human or a danger. The way we respond to these people writing articles like this, I feel, is to keep doing exactly what we are doing right now. Posting our thoughts, and fears, and not censoring ourselves because others don't understand. This is a community, and I am happy to be here with others who understand.

Please keep sharing what you get out of this forum because if others want to just see the bad that's on /them/.

I have been a quiet member of this forum for years and I do not intend to leave.

 

[LADY007]

I get such a sense of peace in my soul that I concluded from information here that my best choice is nitro exit bag. I read all the tips offered here...bought the right strength rope to hang from, decided nitrogen would be easier and less likely for survival instinct to ruin it, purchased a cylinder and am now refining how to secure the tube inside the bag. Bad things happen in some nursing homes. People are drugged and left iin the halls all day, subject to bed sores, horrible loneliness after a certain amount of time, etc. Not for me!

 

[Thequietone]

I wrote on twitter because of that guy who linked this article and said you should close this site. Suicide should be a human right even if you are healthy. You are born without a choice so you can go anytime.

 

[Just A NPC]

I get such a sense of peace in my soul that I concluded from information here that my best choice is nitro exit bag. I read all the tips offered here...bought the right strength rope to hang from, decided nitrogen would be easier and less likely for survival instinct to ruin it, purchased a cylinder and am now refining how to secure the tube inside the bag. Bad things happen in some nursing homes. People are drugged and left iin the halls all day, subject to bed sores, horrible loneliness after a certain amount of time, etc. Not for me!

I actually have my sn bought, and hidden. I have had it for a good while now, but still have yet to use it. Knowing I have an escape if I need it helps.

That peace of mind, which again has inadvertantly kept me alive, wouldn't have been found if not for here. It definitely makes waiting for the inevitable, whatever it may be, easier.

 

[4eyebiped]

Relatability is instant citizenship inside an unique but shamefully misunderstood community.
Relatability is a comforting friend among even the most distant of strangers.
Relatability is an instant bond that would normally take a near eternity to form.
Relatability is a lifeline that can reach the bottom of even the darkest and deepest abyss.
Relatability is a guiding lighthouse in a stormy sea filled with sharp jagged rocks, sharks and sirens.
Relatability is a bridge that the outside world has to take effort to try and build instead of a bridge that they unknowingly continue to burn.

It is a simple word, yet a profound one. It is what opens the door to open communication, understanding and compassion. It is simply amazing how powerful relatability is. Just take a moment before you judge someone else and see if you can find something in your experiences that relates to theirs and perhaps understanding can follow.

A lot of posts occurred between me beginning this and finishing (I am slow) so I imagine about everything I have said is repetitive, but at least it is true.

 

[Just A NPC]

I have met people who are DOWN. People who are lifeless and depressed. I get to see some facets of my own personality and struggles others go through. I've struggled with suicide for years (much of it due to stress; not necessarily mental illness).

I've found others who have conditions like PTSD.

I've seen that "irregular and imperfect and less than cookie-cut people" find love, acceptance and partially "recover".

it's given me some hope.

I've exchanged therapy information (self-help techniques).

i've got someone to talk to who won't prey on me, lurk for me with his popularity, money, accomplishments.

I feel safe and this site has actually help put suicidal urges to rest or in remission. I haven't sought out methods and know plenty already and have made my own futile attempts (pills, camping lanterns (gassing myself), hanging, household chemicals, planned on jumping).

I've made pen-pal friends who I'm happy and excited to receive email messages from.

I've tried to make people stop mid-effort (halfway through a "dose"). I don't feel responsible for making them stop, but it's rewarding to see someone halt the effort, decide to live with the pain for as long as they can and I'd like to help and chime in with "you're loved, though you're sick and in pain"

I love imperfect people who dysfunction. I can be high-functioning and I can be extremely reclusive and sick in my own apartment for weeks - thinking of my future, where it's going, what already happened while arguing with demons that make it impossible to leave an abuser - gaslighting.

I've found the company on here pretty nice. Caring, expressive, thoughtful. Nobody's pressured me to commit suicide, contacted me for a partner to jump with or taught me about new methods. I came here to relate and feel happy that I don't have to step outside, give out my personal information or be seen on a day when i'm not looking so good. I don't have to visit a therapist who puts sedatives in my mouth when I have concerns about safety, sex-abuse, religion or be put into an institution where I'm tortured by people who know only what they know.

I haven't become more suicidal since I logged into this forum - the opposite has happened! I've found alternatives that are less invasive (CBT therapy, chat, relativity). Suicide is so taboo that everyone usually drops out of your life and thinks you are "MAD" "dangerous" "lying" "getting attention" which compounds the existing or non-existing mental illnesses that society has labeled you with. I avoid (go out of my way) to avoid time with others now - knowing what I know I'll do better that way.

I had spent weeks in bed and had attempted to light a carbon monoxide lamp when i came onto this forum. Now, I am doing laundry, reading self-help books, communicating with someone human, getting some form of helpful attention and staying out of a limelight that no suicidal person actually "wants to be in".

I feel better - healthier and like there might be hope.

I love seeing this. I can genuinely say my day is better for reading. I am glad you have found a place that makes you feel better. Thank you for being part of a place that /I/ feel safe in.

Relatability is instant citizenship inside an unique but shamefully misunderstood community.
Relatability is a comforting friend among even the most distant of strangers.
Relatability is an instant bond that would normally take a near eternity to form.
Relatability is a lifeline that can reach the bottom of even the darkest and deepest abyss.
Relatability is a guiding lighthouse in a stormy sea filled with sharp jagged rocks, sharks and sirens.
Relatability is a bridge that the outside world has to take effort to try and build instead of a bridge that they unknowingly continue to burn.

It is a simple word, yet a profound one. It is what opens the door to open communication, understanding and compassion. It is simply amazing how powerful relatability is. Just take a moment before you judge someone else and see if you can find something in your experiences that relates to theirs and perhaps understanding can follow.

A lot of posts occurred between me beginning this and finishing (I am slow) so I imagine about everything I have said is repetitive, but at least it is true.

What a powerful statement. I hope those coming here with preconceived notions take a moment to truly ponder what you just said.

 

[WatermelonMel]

Peace of mind knowing that there's a community of good non-judgmental people who are in a similar position that I can talk to without needing to leave my comfort zone (home).

 

[HiImPaul]

Who doesn't like to be around people that understand them and share their experiences?

 

[LADY007]

I actually have my sn bought, and hidden. I have had it for a good while now, but still have yet to use it. Knowing I have an escape if I need it helps.

That peace of mind, which again has inadvertantly kept me alive, wouldn't have been found if not for here. It definitely makes waiting for the inevitable, whatever it may be, easier.

I bought sn, the rebreather and nitrogen. taking no chances. When my mother was in a nursing home (for six years) I sat with a handsome lad of 17 years old..paralyzed from the neck down from a car accident. I can't imagine the hopelessness of waking up each day to endure that.

 

[PTSDPigeon]

I love seeing this. I can genuinely say my day is better for reading. I am glad you have found a place that makes you feel better. Thank you for being part of a place that /I/ feel safe in.

What a powerful statement. I hope those coming here with preconceived notions take a moment to truly ponder what you just said.

I echo this! What a genuine caring person. For someone to be suicidal, down in the dumps and care enough to reply back to strangers with "I relate" or at least "I listen - I'm not here to medicate you, judge you, compromise your values, reform you".

That is a good friend.

:)

Peace of mind knowing that there's a community of good non-judgmental people who are in a similar position that I can talk to without needing to leave my comfort zone (home).

yeah, for some that's impossible. I can relate with being a couch potato now who cannot shower and thinks only of "when will this end"? I'm hiding from them, I don't want to join...