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Mint Floss

Mint Floss

Member
Dec 11, 2025
30
Don't know how to explain, but, besides death, is there's anything that you think could save you- no matter how unlikely?

Just sort of out of morbid curiosity. Personally I have no idea for myself.
 
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catsalvation

Member
Sep 13, 2025
68
Safety, a home, love, partnership, hope for a positive future, friends, community, feeling like my presence in this world matters in any way, restored mental health, erased trauma...
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

I revoke my subscription from life.
Nov 1, 2025
192
A family that actually cares about my well-being, a support system, friends, financial security, the ability to see the world itself in a more positive light.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,414
I need to catch a break for the first time in my life. I need to be saved. I need to be heard and loved. I'm out of gas on my own.
 
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peacefulnights

peacefulnights

star gazer
Jan 15, 2026
16
financial security and more faith in humanity. I just don't have the willpower to keep swimming upstream when it looks bleak. shoutout to the hedonic treadmill.
 
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qwert3948

qwert3948

It's all ordinary data.
Apr 24, 2023
136
Don't know how to explain, but, besides death, is there's anything that you think could save you- no matter how unlikely?

Just sort of out of morbid curiosity. Personally I have no idea for myself.
i feel like if i had friends i could maybe make it. not just friends, but people i genuinely love to be around.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Experienced
Dec 24, 2025
246
my own financial security, a healthy family, my friend living near and love without malice.
 
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spiders.in.my.head

spiders.in.my.head

chronically stupid
Dec 21, 2025
21
I need somebody to feel close to. Somebody who I could be confident cared about me and loved me. But until i continue being mostly alonr and increasingly isolated, i dont see my mental state improving.
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Wizard
Mar 16, 2025
685
A better world, a world where things make sense, and there are avenues to actually fixing problems. A world where we don't dehumanize one another and look at each other as cattle. Since that is impossible, nothing can help.

This current world as it exists, may as well be hell. Maybe we'll spawn in a better place next time.
 
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jeevasO-o

jeevasO-o

Disqualified As a Human Being
Jan 15, 2026
49
Real friends not leaving me and understanding me. Understanding.... Lovingly
 
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HawkTalon

Member
Jan 15, 2026
16
Like a few others here, I think it'd have to be a time machine. But even if I had one of those, I wouldn't be able to take back the regrettable decisions that I made and the hurt that I caused in this timeline. Theoretically, there could be some sort of memory erasure in the way of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, but neither would that take back my decisions, just free me from their memory. Although the memories exist as a righteous and natural consequence to my actions, so it'd be like escaping justice after having committed a crime.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
58
to feel accepted and cared for, for real. to be as loved as everybody else. equally, not always being skipped over for the other friend they like more. to be able to transition and not be judged.
 
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webb&flow

webb&flow

dum spiro spero—take it as it comes
Nov 30, 2024
439
i feel like if i had friends i could maybe make it. not just friends, but people i genuinely love to be around.
i hope you will not only find but have such lovely people to be around in your life <3
 
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annasplight

annasplight

'too clingy' she says.
Aug 6, 2024
76
As childish as it sounds, my mother. I wholeheartedly believe that if she stopped being so abusive, I would find the will to push through life. This is the same woman who told me she didn't believe in abortion, so that's the only reason I am here. So yeah.

My mom could save me. And maybe a copious amount of weed and Smirnoff.
 
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Abort!

Abort!

Better a self-aware idiot than a clueless one.
Jan 3, 2026
70
Something I do not believe truly exists in our current rudimentary configuration: unconditional love.
 
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Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless, Broken Doll
Apr 20, 2023
40
Don't know how to explain, but, besides death, is there's anything that you think could save you- no matter how unlikely?

Just sort of out of morbid curiosity. Personally I have no idea for myself.
companionship.

i want to be seen. understood. someone to connect with.

i want to be able to depend on the fact they will always be there. i want to not be alone at the end of the day. i want someone to share all my joy and share all my sorrow with. someone to simply share my life with. someone to get through all of it together with.

i think then i would be able to say it's all been worth it. everything i've been through. everything i will suffer through in the future. it's all worth it if i can share it all with someone else.

but i will never have that. i've only ever felt that sort of companionship and understanding and connection with my sister. but she can't be in my life like that. so i will never know companionship. i will always be alone. it will never have been worth it.
 
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