depressedginger

depressedginger

i exist without my consent
Oct 13, 2023
16
ive been mentally struggling a lot, recently the thoughts have been so fucking overwhelming, i need distractions in so many ways, drinks, candy, video games, weed, anything. because when im left alone with nothing but my thoughts, I'm left with nothing but the image of a rifle in my mouth and my blood splattered on the wall behind me, it seems like the only thing I've been craving recently, and while I've thought about other ways, it just seems like my day could not come sooner, im begging it to.

what do you think you'll "see" or where you'll go when you pass? do you imagine yourself going anywhere, feeling a certain way? i know many on here can relate when i say a sense of peace finally, an end to suffering.

when i die i don't think of seeing black, going anywhere, or anything at all. i imagine nothing, like a blind person doesn't see black they just don't see at all, as if you were trying to look out of your elbow or foot, nothing. i expect to be out like a light and for my body to burn or decompose, for my energy to be released back into this earth. I'm not spiritual, but there's something very spiritual to me about dying, and i couldn't be more excited.
 
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listenbeforeigo

listenbeforeigo

Member
Aug 6, 2023
6
I think about this a lot but I have not come to a conclusion yet. I most often find myself wondering whether one's vision will gradually blur and then...nothing or if it will be instant.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,789
Am hoping to see the tunnel leading to a bright white light while being bathed in a sense of infinite peace acceptance and love. (Sorry I have been watching too much NDE stories. Unfortunately it is the only thing soothing my mind this days )
 
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stuckinthemud

Student
Nov 14, 2023
120
Am hoping to see the tunnel leading to a bright white light while being bathed in a sense of infinite peace acceptance and love. (Sorry I have been watching too much NDE stories. Unfortunately it is the only thing soothing my mind this days )
This is how I imagine it too. I've watched a lot of NDE vids too and this is what is mainly described.
I guess because your brain produces DMT.
 
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Dysgenic Pup

Dysgenic Pup

A canine that’s not so heavenly.
Sep 18, 2021
435
I am confident it will be nothing, although I will never know for sure. It's too incomprehensible of a state for humans to understand since all we know is our experience, and death is the negation of experience, so we craft all sorts of after-death hypotheses that we can comprehend. We're only animals, maybe we're not meant to understand everything.
 
Princess_Kitty

Princess_Kitty

Lost kitty
Jan 4, 2024
177
I don't really know to be honest. Hopefully everlasting peace. I do remember what it was like from my 1st attempt when I was unconscious. For me it was like being asleep, but not dreaming nor aware of anything. It was just empty darkness, pretty much nothing. But it was the most peaceful sleep I ever had.

Hopefully it'll be like that.
 
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donsie

donsie

She whispered and it echoed
Jan 9, 2024
75
There is a fear of what it could be and then there are what I desire it to be and then there is the scientific side that we know, which is nothing and that's what I want. Nothing.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,742
After Death I won't be able to see nor know anything . Because I won't exist after Death , forever. I won't know I'm dead. It will be like it was before I was born for all those 13.8 billion years .

You can't have any experience if you don't exist no pain no suffering no bad memories missing anything no regrets needs or fom

All the problems began for me when they birthed me into this evil world as a fragile small animal that can suffer unbearable pain

After death is non-existence forever

Eternal Non-existence means never any pain , problems , suffering, bad memories, none of the1000's of horrible things in life
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,269
Hopefully reunited with my deceased dogs
 
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Readytogohome

Member
May 25, 2023
80
I expect that the last breath I take here on earth, the next breath I take will be in heaven, and I will see God and also my family and pets who have passed before me, so I look forward to a joyful reunion. 🙂
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,890
Nothing. I very strongly believe that once we lose consciousness that is it for us, we are gone, we simply cease to exist. Death is the absence of everything.
 
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Glandular

Glandular

Student
Mar 23, 2023
128
I guess nothing is the most probable answer. When they put me under during a medical procedure there was just nothing - I blacked out and woke up two hours later, like I time traveled into the future.
The romantic side of me would like to see a short (!) afterlife that recollects and celebrates the best moments of my life. Being reunited with long lost pets, relieving the best moments once again ... and then fade away.
 
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Neverfeltdeader

Neverfeltdeader

Can you hear me drift away?
Dec 12, 2021
130
I believe there's nothing after and I really hope so, too. I don't want to be reunited with anyone (even though I love so many) or live through memories, etc. Can you imagine if ghosts really did exist and we ended up stuck wondering the earth for eternity?
 
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ThymeToLeave

ThymeToLeave

Adventurer
Dec 12, 2023
141
One time while asleep I was having trouble breathing because of sleep apnea and the position I laid in. I dreamt I coughed up my lungs and was dying. I started floating up and saw Jesus welcoming me to heaven.

I think I'll probably see something similar in the moments before my death, whenever and however that happens. I don't think this religious stuff is real, it's just a consequence of being raised in a Christian culture. If I had been raised in the middle east I'd be seeing something featuring Mohammed instead of Jesus.
 
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SMmetalhead36

Ready to have my forever date with suicide
Oct 6, 2023
317
I hope I don't see anything but peace
 
Chocomel

Chocomel

Chocolate Milk
Jan 13, 2024
49
Honestly I dont really know what I expect. I mean I already think that hard about afterlife and all with the original concept about it from religion, heaven and hell. But right now I dont really know what to believe or what to expect.
 
butterfly000

butterfly000

I want freedom
Jan 6, 2024
32
If I don't exist I don't think I would experience anything, let alone "see" anything. Not only that but I couldn't think anything of it. I could never get bored of "nothingness". That would require a mind. My consciousness would just cease to exist.
 
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Endoflifecomestoall

Student
Oct 31, 2021
120
When you loose consciousness with low blood pressure or a blow on the head your sight goes a kind of white with ringing in the ears and a feeling of peace. I imagine that Dearh is similar
 
Slow_Farewell

Slow_Farewell

Warlock
Dec 19, 2023
709
I hope i'll just feel sleepy then drift off. SI disguised as "hope" might be strong if there's an after life and I might be fooled into being reincarnated.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,591
Just like the 3 hours I was out during my gallbladder removal: nothing to see, nothing at all, that's what I expect
 
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throneofdispair03

throneofdispair03

is a mistake
Jan 10, 2024
236
I believe nothing will happen. Just a subconscious, eternal and hopefully peaceful sleep.
 
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longdeaddyingsoon

Member
Jan 9, 2024
10
i hope that i see nothing, just eternal nonexistence.
 
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DesperateOne

DesperateOne

Specialist
May 25, 2023
318
Nothing, the mind cannot imagine it since its literally just that, nothing. I had a heart surgery when I was around 18 and I had my first hand experience of what it's like. After they gave me the the anesthetics I got a little dizzy then boom I woke up in the hospital bed. What happened between in those 8-12 hours? I have no clue.

I think the brain also might be designed to give you a comfortable passing. I'm basing that off what all those near death experiences are about or the saying "your whole life flashes before your eyes one more time before you die". After that it's nothingness.
 
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Argo

Specialist
May 19, 2018
360
Since "I" won't be the thing I feel I am with a functioning brain post brain death, the question is incoherent to me. It is like asking, How do butterflies fly before they transform? Unless we're in the Matrix or something. But the ultimate answer is we can't know what happens in a situation which no one has any experience of. And having expectations about things we can't know, doesn't seem that useful.
 
CemeteryPet

CemeteryPet

Buried Alive
Jan 10, 2024
33
Not sure. I'm open to the idea that it could be more than 1 thing, depending on how you died. I believe in ghosts, I'm a big supporter of Quantum mechanics so there could be other planes of existence where our souls go to, and as an atheist I also believe there could be nothing but darkness on the other side.

Personally, I'm hoping to end up a ghost and haunt people I hated when I was alive. That's what I'd call living it up.
 
Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,331
My vision fading out
 
Mäximum

Mäximum

All the effort for nothing...
Apr 5, 2023
167
Nothing, hopefully. That's the reason I want to go. To deal with nothing else.
 
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BlackMoon

BlackMoon

Peace-seeker
Oct 30, 2023
190
It's simply the end of existence. I'll see nothing because there's nothing to see in my opinion.
 
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deadbody

deadbody

he/him 🏳️‍⚧️
Oct 24, 2023
117
I'm not sure, some part of me wants to believe in afterlife, but I understand at the end of my existence will be nothing, just darkness.
 
leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
I'm not sure what will happen but my consciousness will continue to be. Things are not as simple as they seem
 

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