depressedginger
i exist without my consent
- Oct 13, 2023
- 16
ive been mentally struggling a lot, recently the thoughts have been so fucking overwhelming, i need distractions in so many ways, drinks, candy, video games, weed, anything. because when im left alone with nothing but my thoughts, I'm left with nothing but the image of a rifle in my mouth and my blood splattered on the wall behind me, it seems like the only thing I've been craving recently, and while I've thought about other ways, it just seems like my day could not come sooner, im begging it to.
what do you think you'll "see" or where you'll go when you pass? do you imagine yourself going anywhere, feeling a certain way? i know many on here can relate when i say a sense of peace finally, an end to suffering.
when i die i don't think of seeing black, going anywhere, or anything at all. i imagine nothing, like a blind person doesn't see black they just don't see at all, as if you were trying to look out of your elbow or foot, nothing. i expect to be out like a light and for my body to burn or decompose, for my energy to be released back into this earth. I'm not spiritual, but there's something very spiritual to me about dying, and i couldn't be more excited.
what do you think you'll "see" or where you'll go when you pass? do you imagine yourself going anywhere, feeling a certain way? i know many on here can relate when i say a sense of peace finally, an end to suffering.
when i die i don't think of seeing black, going anywhere, or anything at all. i imagine nothing, like a blind person doesn't see black they just don't see at all, as if you were trying to look out of your elbow or foot, nothing. i expect to be out like a light and for my body to burn or decompose, for my energy to be released back into this earth. I'm not spiritual, but there's something very spiritual to me about dying, and i couldn't be more excited.