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issei123

issei123

Member
Apr 8, 2022
18
I try to occupy myself with other things, but it seems that even that doesn't work
 
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WoodyOak

Member
Apr 28, 2020
46
I actually sleep a lot more when I`m depressed.
Recently got a medical marijuana card (NYC) to help with pain from body injuries and lets face it, to get high.
Had edibles a few years ago and was totally digging the feeling (head high, made me sleep solidly) but the problem is always when I`m awake.
If I`m not at work or catching up on my shows, the thoughts always creep back in and I get sleepy.
My old man wonders how the hell I`m able to sleep so much (he`s 91 and doesn`t sleep much).
Don`t have the heart to tell him it`s depression and if he wasn`t around anymore I wouldn`t be either.
 
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Bong-Hit-Transplant

Bong-Hit-Transplant

Member
May 11, 2021
84
The waves come and go. There's nothing you can do to influence their length or intensity. You just have to ride it.

I do my best to make sure I'm alone and distracting myself when it gets bad. But like you said, it doesn't make it go away. It's just about holding on until it's over. Just taking deep breaths and reminding yourself the feeling will pass.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,392
I immediately try to bury it with distractions.
 
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Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
Cry
 
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Enigmatic Sailor

Enigmatic Sailor

vicissitudes of fate...
Oct 29, 2021
386
Keep my hands and mind busy on tasks/topics. Hug my family. Text people that I care about. Do chores. Create a schedule. Doodle. Play v*deo g*mes. Watch television. Go to the gym. If all else fails, you just go with the flow and kiss your ass for good luck.
 
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existcrisisactor

Member
Apr 10, 2022
36
I try to occupy myself with other things, but it seems that even that doesn't work
i don't know what to do i am deeply sad right now as i type
 
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Klo

Physical pain and depression
Mar 27, 2022
169
I used to drink and forget about it but I've been sober for a year and there's no escape. I research suicide methods because the decision that I will be ctb gives me some peace. I think it is ok to distract yourself from the sadness if you can't really deal with it at the moment.
 
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treetop.grazer

Student
Jan 11, 2022
126
I used to drink and forget about it but I've been sober for a year and there's no escape. I research suicide methods because the decision that I will be ctb gives me some peace. I think it is ok to distract yourself from the sadness if you can't really deal with it at the moment.

I never thought of it that way but yes, I'm the same, researching methods so I know when things get too much I have a reliable out does kind of bring me some peace too.
 
Insomniac

Insomniac

𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
May 21, 2021
1,357
I try to occupy myself with other things, but it seems that even that doesn't work
I personally used to drown in it substances.
Now I buy stuff to fill the void until I ctb.
 
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freedompass

freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
768
Well one thing about sadness at least it is distinct from depression. I feel sad right now. Spending time with my elderly mum who may not last much longer. When she goes I have no one really, my son is angry and shuns me. I never cry, decades of mental illness and psych meds seemed to dry up the tears. If I was gonna cry, I would. I'm not trying to distract myself because emotions are ok and healthy whatever they may be.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,850
Losing my girlfriend of 35 years(no kids) 3 months ago is more than just deep sadness--Residing together for 25 years, both retired, we were together at all times--loss of companionship is a nightmare, I miss her each second,I still cry each day---I thought my father's death 20 years ago was awful but losing my girlfriend is 100times worse----I keep busy by watching films constantly, mostly comedies--was watching Laureland Hardy films and shorts from the 1930's,Abbott and Costello shows from the early 50's,the Munsters etc--All Ido is go to the supermarket and pick up the mail(still get upset seeing her name on a letter--Exercise in a park each morning--I'm like in a Twilight Zone, a nightmare with no end and no relief from suffering except committing suicide--I possess all the stuff needed: nitrogen tank,regulator,flowmeter,plastic bag,plastic tubing---Tested the Nitrogen from a filled plastic bag--After 5 breaths my oxygen plummeted from 99 to 54--Nitrogen just like breathing air
 
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karasu

karasu

ダメ人間
Apr 6, 2022
35
I find that it's become difficult for me to do much about it. The things I usually liked to do before that helped me relax (like playing videogames, watching shows, scrapbooking, etc) hasn't been helping much for quite a while. Lately, I'll just put on my headphones and listen to music and try to close my eyes. Listening to music makes me reflect more in my thoughts though so I find that it's a 50/50 chance I end up feeling more overwhelmed which results in me needing to cut myself to relieve tension. I'm trying not to always end up cutting and consider it a last resort.
 
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onlyanimalsaregood

onlyanimalsaregood

Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
Mar 11, 2022
1,329
Normally I talk about it with some friends of mine
 
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savoytruffle

savoytruffle

Student
Mar 31, 2022
197
Lots of xanax and screaming into a pillow until I fall asleep
 
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EvaKay

Member
Apr 14, 2022
6
I don't eat, sleep all the time, and lie to everyone about how I'm feeling or what I'm doing. I had a breakdown last night where I messed up our closet and turned all the mirrors in the house the other way so I didn't have to see my reflection and when my partner got home I just told them I was looking for something I couldn't find in the closet. He didn't even notice the mirrors yet.
 
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UnwantedUnlovable85

Member
Dec 2, 2021
27
I usually dwell, I try to distract myself with movies or reading but even that doesn't work as I get lost thinking about ways to end things but then I think about eternal repercussions. So…. Without being funny or anything I masturbate. Which really brings me out of a funk….just being honest.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,299
There is nothing that ever makes me feel better, so I have no choice but to suffer. I just try to pass the time until I fall asleep, that is what life is, just passing the time until we eventually die. I do not want to think or feel anymore, the only thing that I want is non existence. I just wish that it was easier to leave this world.
 
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OldDrummer

Arcanist
Feb 4, 2022
435
It's a bit like having to pass by a burning house. If I try to go left or right, it moves with me.

It's best just to enter and go through the fire.
 
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