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eve2004

DEAD YESTERDAY
Aug 17, 2019
578
Depression should really be called Schrödinger's Syndrome. It's like being dead and not dead at the same time.
I thing there's some song lyrics that says « between heaven and hell »... but i think I'm closer to « hell » although I don't believe in either...
We are the breathing dead.
 
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snowman626

snowman626

Mage
Jan 28, 2019
545
A typical weekday for me:

Wake up at 4pm.

Go surf youtube and check if anyone replied to my comments.

Play slither.io at random times throughout the day.

Eat when hungry, usually something healthy like oatmeal.

Vape some thc oil.

Play online poker to make money.

Watch movies , more youtube, read random stuff in reddit or on here.

Lay on bed and listen to music and radio.

Go out to buy a bunch of delicious food and binge eat. Typical stuff i get are things like sandwiches, chinese food, pizza, hot dogs, chips, cookies.

Play a little more online poker.

Vape more thc oil.

Watch redtube and pornhub and rub one out.

Shower (sometimes, not every night)

Some more youtube while laying on bed and ready to sleep at around 6am.


Weekend:

Wake up at 3pm.

Go to work 1hr, start work at 4pm.

Work till midnight. Come home at 1am.

Eat dinner and shower till 2am.

Watch youtube and play slither.io and vape thc oil until 5am.

Sleep
 
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Fartlastone

Member
Sep 13, 2019
12
My day:
I wake up at whatever time.
Do the chores.
Hear my mom yelling about how useless I'm and how all my friends are successful and I'm doing nothing but laying on her couch.
Take a nap.
Watch cats videos.
Reddit and reading random articles for the rest of the day.
When I get bored of my phone I put it down, and stare at the wall or the floor and go deep in my thoughts, I can spend 30 mn doing nothing but staring at the wall.
This is my day. Oh and shower sometimes...I stay in my bed all day so I guess don't need to shower.
And my mom ask me why do I want to kill myself, well you answer this question every morning.
Sorry for my English.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
My day:
I wake up at whatever time.
Do the chores.
Hear my mom yelling about how useless I'm and how all my friends are successful and I'm doing nothing but laying on her couch.
Take a nap.
Watch cats videos.
Reddit and reading random articles for the rest of the day.
When I get bored of my phone I put it down, and stare at the wall or the floor and go deep in my thoughts, I can spend 30 mn doing nothing but staring at the wall.
This is my day. Oh and shower sometimes...I stay in my bed all day so I guess don't need to shower.
And my mom ask me why do I want to kill myself, well you answer this question every morning.
Sorry for my English.
English is fine, and it is similar to my day
 
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Intelligent_Lobster

I knew taking this picture would come in handy
Mar 30, 2019
92
I go to work, come home, and draw. Smoke a few, read a bit, watch podcasts, and then fall asleep listening to guided meditation.

Oh, and I picked up some vitamins today, so I'll that into my routine somewhere.
 
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8yy8uiyhbij

Member
Feb 11, 2019
96
I wake up 30 mins before work everyday, work all day (I work 56-60 hours a week) and when I get home from work I drink until 3am, then I do it on repeat, when I get a day off from work (2 days each week) I go into the highlands and I hillwalk for some time to clear my head.
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Visionary
Mar 21, 2019
2,974
Work too long and too hard
Probably explains how I feel
 
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Bulletwbttrflywings

Bulletwbttrflywings

My soul is awakened... and I’m f*cked
May 29, 2019
244
Drink 4 cups of coffee
Forget to eat breakfast
Nap for 3 more hours
More coffee
Cigarette
Smoke a bowl
Paranoia and self hatred time
Contemplate some cleaning
More coffee
Smoke a bowl
Feverishly eat
Think about homework
Contemplate fixing myself
Reminiscence
Drink heavily
Smoke a bowl
Smoke cigs heavily
Stay up waaaay too late
Rinse and repeat
This is my life. Between client work.
There's some days I just sit there and stare at my computer screen...

Like today. This whole week actually.

I just want to go...
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,194
Get up in the afternoon, paint something, listen to music while rocking back and forth and imagining myself die, get drunk, go to bed rinse and repeat. Sometimes I go to the bridge in the late evening to secretly try to kill myself, but thats optional. Pathethic, I know
 
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Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
I work 5 days a week, you'll be surprised how busy it keeps you!!
 
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cryptic_cynic

cryptic_cynic

Degenerate
Jul 8, 2019
129
Not much. Mostly just avoid interacting with humans and listen to the Smiths alone in the dark.
 
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EmptySteph62

Student
Aug 4, 2019
169
Wake up at 4, kennel shift at 5 to 7 or workout and have breakfast if I dont have a shift. Class from 8 till 5 with an hour lunch at noon to 1. Kennels or homework until 9 and then studying until about 11 then bed.
It's alot but at the very least it keeps me too busy to think about how much I hate my life some days...
 
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gingerplum

Enlightened
Nov 5, 2018
1,450
Depression should really be called Schrödinger's Syndrome. It's like being dead and not dead at the same time.

This is absolutely brilliant. Is it your original idea? Fucking epic.
 
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Élégie

Student
Sep 24, 2019
143
Wake up
Make tea or coffee
Wash the dishes, clean the apartment
Check my emails and other notifications e.g. youtube, online forums, etc.
Go for a walk or a bike ride (when I have enough energy)
Go grocery shopping or run some errands
Come back home, take a shower
Cook dinner
Read or listen to music/podcasts/movies/series/videos until I go to bed... anything to distract myself from my crippling loneliness and shitty life
Try to go to sleep before 4am

Rinse and repeat.
 
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clownangel

clownangel

Student
Sep 25, 2019
122
Up at noon on a good day.
Meds, coffee, cigarettes & screwing around on my phone usually until my partner gets home. (2pm)
Maybe shower, if it motivates me I'll work on projects or read. (Otherwise, mundane crafts and crime shows with smoke breaks till dinner)
Complain, cook something, crash & watch something goofy until they have to go to bed (11pm)
Put on Bob Ross, scroll here & wherever else until my meds kick in and I pass out (2-4am)
 
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thesongbird

Member
Jun 24, 2018
26
7:30 am wake up, run 3 miles, eat vegan
9-1 attend university Comp. Sci. classes
1-7 work on university homework and studying, eat vegan
7-9 dance
9-10 paint
10-11:30 dance
11:30 sleep
 
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LuzurPhagget

Experienced
Sep 15, 2019
288
Obsessively watch an assortment of youtube videos on a particular subject. Right now it's dragonball Z. A few weeks ago it was Beast Wars, and a few weeks before that it was ghe Sopranos and before that Marvel movies. Don't have the patience to actually sit through a movie.
 
Sweet emotion

Sweet emotion

Enlightened
Sep 14, 2019
1,325
I'm physically sick with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history. So there isn't much I can do. I've been like this for 14 years. So all I do is watch TV, write, read, and go on my tablet. I watch things on YouTube, go on Instagram and Facebook, and come on this site and see how everyone is doing. It's a very miserable lonely existence. I can't have company, it's too long to go into. The only time I leave the house is to go to hospitals and doctors appointments.
 
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axorz

Member
Aug 5, 2018
72
work + gym + repeat
For people who don't work, how do you pay for food, rent, etc.? savings?
 
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White_Room293

White_Room293

rapid cycling gay guy
Sep 13, 2019
155
I wake up , play video games and watch youtube videos/twitch streamers. Lay down to go to sleep, negative thoughts kick in and keep me up for about an hour unless I'm taking sleeping pills and it's a rinse and repeat. I'm doing great things in my life, I can't wait until I order my SN this Friday.
Jesus fucking christ. You just described me. Do you worry about your future and ending up a total failure? I worry every day and look at my past fuck ups in high school and I feel sure I will fuck up in college too. I can't stand the work until you die bullshit either. I'm sick of it but at the same I'm kinda of a go getty kind of person and I also have this weird spark in me that doesn't seem to ever get blown out if you know what I mean. I mean I am trying to close my gaps in my mathematics knowledge but I literally cannot stop procrastinating. I do this with everything. I always have this drive in me that will lunge at new interesting things but then when it comes to sticking to it I just lose it. I feel like I'm trying but I know I'm being a bit lazy at the same time. I'm really getting sick of this shit
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,027
Wait till my parents croak so i can get the fuck off this planet
 
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LonelyLight

Warlock
May 31, 2019
779
I wake up,
Go on my phone while in bed,
Maybe do a few things around the house,
If I'm in the mood I'll jog on my threadmill (seldom in the mood!!)
I'll eat food,
Shower,
Then get into bed at about 8pm and scroll on my phone until I fall asleep(usually 3am ish)
 
Boonks

Boonks

Lowlife
Mar 2, 2019
236
Open eyes
Check SS
Obligatory morning pee (while on SS)
Coffee and a cigarette (while on SS)
Another coffee and another cigarette (while on SS)
Contemplate the possibility of doing things
Bong (pump up the jam)
Joint
Cigarette (while on SS)
Coffee
Procrastinate breakfast until 4 PM
Take the dog out for a walk (while smoking joints and cigarettes)
Go home, check SS
Coffee and a cigarette, or two, or three (while on SS)
Talk on the phone with my SS friends (chainsmoking)
Force myself to feed once nauseous and can no longer take it (usually a slice of pizza in my left hand and my phone in my right hand on SS)
Obligatory post-meal cigarette (while on SS)
Movies/TV/Gaming/SS

Uhh...I seem to have lost my train of thought..I'm gonna go have a cigarette.

TLDR; SS and drugs
work + gym + repeat
For people who don't work, how do you pay for food, rent, etc.? savings?
Government housing and disability...:'(
Drink 4 cups of coffee
Forget to eat breakfast
Nap for 3 more hours
More coffee
Cigarette
Smoke a bowl
Paranoia and self hatred time
Contemplate some cleaning
More coffee
Smoke a bowl
Feverishly eat
Think about homework
Contemplate fixing myself
Reminiscence
Drink heavily
Smoke a bowl
Smoke cigs heavily
Stay up waaaay too late
Rinse and repeat
Basically.
 
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N-IsMyHope

Student
Aug 25, 2018
139
1.Wake up 10 am.
2.Drink black coffee so I won't be hungry and go work out around 1pm for hr.
3.Eat some fruits. Watch youtube. Grocery shopping, cleaning house. Weight my self 10 times a day.
4.Work at home till 7pm.
5.Dinner.
6.Shower and lay in bed watching youtube.
7. Sleep at 1:30 am (sleeping pills addict for 10yrs)

~~ Repeat Same thing every single day. I do not have any friend or family here. They live in another country. ~~
 
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Sweet emotion

Sweet emotion

Enlightened
Sep 14, 2019
1,325
Absolutely nothing. I live like a caged animal. I'm physically sick so there isn't much I can do. I have a severe pain disorder. I go to sleep whenever I get enough meds to knock myself out, then I'll sleep half the day away. I'll get up, go to the bathroom, eat, watch TV, write, read, go on the internet. But due to noise I can't leave the house. I have something called Complex Regional Pain Syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history, in my ears so noise is viscious and it's too much pain to handle. I can't even have people over because talking and listening hurts too much. Then the pain spreads to my head and face and I feel like I'm being physically tortured.
Absolutely nothing. I live like a caged animal. I'm physically sick so there isn't much I can do. I have a severe pain disorder. I go to sleep whenever I get enough meds to knock myself out, then I'll sleep half the day away. I'll get up, go to the bathroom, eat, watch TV, write, read, go on the internet. But due to noise I can't leave the house. I have something called Complex Regional Pain Syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history, in my ears so noise is viscious and it's too much pain to handle. I can't even have people over because talking and listening hurts too much. Then the pain spreads to my head and face and I feel like I'm being physically tortured.
 
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IRIYAMA

Student
Apr 10, 2018
146
Get up at 1am for work, then coffee and durrie.
Start work at 2am then the type of work I do flares up the intense neuropathy causing extreme pain.
Struggle for next 8 hours in minimum 8/10 pain taking plenty of nerve blocking meds and narcotics to cope
Get home around 11ish and fall asleep for an hour or 2 so not deal with shitty symptoms all afternoon.
Wake up and feel totally drained, depressed and wishing to die knowing I have to do it all over again tomorrow.
Rinse and repeat 6 days a week...
 
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Scooby-Doo

Student
Oct 10, 2019
133
I get up at 6am go to shop and get 15 bottles of Budweiser. Spend all day drinking and playing video games. Take a few zopiclone, have shower then bed. If I'm working (nights) I stay sober and watch crime documentaries. Have shower then go to shitty work.
 
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Heart of Ice

Chillin'
Sep 26, 2019
362
I:
  • Wake up
  • Eat two slices of bread with cheese and mettwurst, and a third one with jam on top
  • Play video games
  • Maybe walk to the grocery store or the library
  • Eat something, mainly unhealthy prepared foods or "minimum effort foods" such as chicken nuggets you make by just placing them in a pan for a few minutes
  • Occasionally lie to my family over the phone that my studies are going well (I'm mainly "studying" to get free money from the state)
  • Keep playing video games (currently playing Metal Gear Solid games, starting from the PS1 game)
  • From 9 PM to 11 PM watch Youtube videos or pirated movies on my tablet
  • Go to sleep, repeat all steps tomorrow
 
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neilo99

Tired of Life
Oct 9, 2019
182
Wake up at 6am
Go to work and pretend I'm happy
Get home at 6pm
Pretend to my wife I am happy
Watch tv
Bed at 11pm
Repeat
 

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