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Riley [CTBus]

Mage
Aug 8, 2020
599
I won't judge. I just want to know how they feel like as a non-user. Let's start with Fentanyl, Heroin, Cocaine, MDMA, Weed, Meth and feel free to add some things I don't know about. Please don't talk about selling. Thank you.
 
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nayomi

only the truth will save us all
Jul 19, 2026
182
kinda like explaining orgasm to aliens
 
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telekon

Mage
Feb 5, 2025
569
I won't judge. I just want to know how they feel like as a non-user. Let's start with Fentanyl, Heroin, Cocaine, MDMA, Weed, Meth and feel free to add some things I don't know about. Please don't talk about selling. Thank you.
I've never done fentanyl or heroin, but I have injected hydromorphone (dilaudid) which is apparently stronger than heroin and that felt like floating.

Cocaine feels like coffee if you've ever drank 10 espressos at once. You feel the need to talk extremely fast, like there's a pit in your stomach if you're not gonna talk, and you have nO IDEA how annoying you are. for example, me and my friend thought it would be hilarious to have a podcast where we would yap while on cocaine and when I sobered up I couldn't listen to it for more than 5 minutes.

MDMA is the drug I think is necessary to try, it feels like true love. You have fallen in love with the world, humanity, everything around you. You want to call all your friends and tell them how much you LOVE them!!! You will call and apologize to your abusive parents and make peace with hitler if you knew him. And you want to dance! Everything sounds amazing. It can be the shittiest music and you will think it's Mozart. I just think the world would be a softer, more loving, and less ruthless place if everyone took MDMA together just once.

Weed...now this one depends. Weed, shrooms, LSD, psychedelics in general depends greatly on 1) who you are and how well you can handle mind-altering experiences or if you have anxiety 2) the dosage or quality of the drug. Weed has changed a lot over the years but when I smoked for the first time in 2010 as a 16 year old, I felt like I was seeing the world for the first time. I could make connections and think differently, more creatively. I think the best way to put it is you think divergent thoughts. It's like all of the good symptoms of autism and schizophrenia, but if you take them too long you'll end up actually having autism and schizophrenia. I used to play games meant for babies or watch Teletubbies during my first trips and those things were fantastic. You will have delusions and those delusions are somehow fun, and you might think you are being very profound. Sometimes you are!

I've never done meth.
 
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lastappleonearth

Пиздюк
Jun 11, 2026
176
I won't judge. I just want to know how they feel like as a non-user. Let's start with Fentanyl, Heroin, Cocaine, MDMA, Weed, Meth and feel free to add some things I don't know about. Please don't talk about selling. Thank you.
I've only tried weed a couple of times in my life, the first two times I hardly remember, but I know that it made me laugh, like a lot, but that's it. The last time I took it was in form of a weed brownie a friend made. We both ate a decent amount of it while at a gathering with other friends and then he drove me home, which prob was not the best idea. The drive home tho was almost like a transcendent experience if that makes sense, it felt like I was levitating in a way, and we had the most thoughtful conversation we ever had, at least it seemed that way.
Idk if benzos classify as drugs, bcs it's technically medication, but I have the most experience with it, especially Xanax. When I take Xanax, it makes me forget all my sorrows, intrusive and negative thoughts, it makes me feel calm and euphoric at the same time. It's an awesome feeling tbh, that's probably why it's so addictive. It also makes u a lil bit careless imo, bcs u don't really feel fear and become more confident
 
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burninghill

Arcanist
Dec 2, 2025
442
I was and still am addicted to (though clean from) DPH, or diphenhydramine/ bennys. It's the drug in sleep medication.

Your experience really depends on the amount you take, but walking feels like gravity has increased 10x, you'll try to move and feel slowlyyyyy dragged to the floor. It's also really common to get muscle spasms in your legs (which I hate).

Using DPH has always felt great to me, though it's known to cause anxiety and dysphoria. My head goes light and it's common to get a sort of pixilated vision which is exactly what it sounds like, things just start to look like they're made up of moving pixels. If you take enough, items start to disappear and I'd always felt like I saw creatures or bugs moving in my peripheral. My favourite part was definitely the disappearing objects.

Never try DPH, it being an interesting and fun initial experience is what slingshots you into addiction.
 
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NSA

Your friendly neighborhood agent
Feb 21, 2022
293
I won't judge. I just want to know how they feel like as a non-user. Let's start with Fentanyl, Heroin, Cocaine, MDMA, Weed, Meth and feel free to add some things I don't know about. Please don't talk about selling. Thank you.
Weed makes me happy, sleepy, and hungry. Like a mild drunk if you ever had alcohol.
Cocane just makes me want to clean my house lol. #adhdlife
 
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hdead

Mage
Jun 2, 2026
520
I won't judge. I just want to know how they feel like as a non-user. Let's start with Fentanyl, Heroin, Cocaine, MDMA, Weed, Meth and feel free to add some things I don't know about. Please don't talk about selling. Thank you.
Cocaine: On top of the world, too much energy and inflated ego. Fun, but destructive
MDMA: Most love you've ever felt. You'd almost make love to a trashcan on it.
Weed: Mad mellow. Nothing matters, not a care in the world. Superchill and easygoing on that. Until you hit psychosis, and then you can't use it ever again. Took me 16 years and it helped me ruin my life.
 
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NSA

Your friendly neighborhood agent
Feb 21, 2022
293
Morphine is one i can really understand addiction to. I had it in the hospital several times. Everything is just Chill. Everything is fine. Tornado could be hitting, roof collapsing around you, buildings on fire and you just found out yout so is cheating. All Good. You feel pain but you just dont really care.

Unfortunately this amazing high only lasts like 20 min then its just a regular pain killer. Sad.

And of course tolerance goes up super fast too, at least for me. Still feels good just not That Good.
 
lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Пиздюк
Jun 11, 2026
176
I was and still am addicted to (though clean from) DPH, or diphenhydramine/ bennys. It's the drug in sleep medication.

Your experience really depends on the amount you take, but walking feels like gravity has increased 10x, you'll try to move and feel slowlyyyyy dragged to the floor. It's also really common to get muscle spasms in your legs (which I hate).

Using DPH has always felt great to me, though it's known to cause anxiety and dysphoria. My head goes light and it's common to get a sort of pixilated vision which is exactly what it sounds like, things just start to look like they're made up of moving pixels. If you take enough, items start to disappear and I'd always felt like I saw creatures or bugs moving in my peripheral. My favourite part was definitely the disappearing objects.

Never try DPH, it being an interesting and fun initial experience is what slingshots you into addiction.
I've been abusing diphenhydramine recently, bcs I have a hard time falling asleep, it's genuinely addictive. Ig I should I rlly stop
 
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fettyshooter

zzz
Aug 6, 2026
6
I won't judge. I just want to know how they feel like as a non-user. Let's start with Fentanyl, Heroin, Cocaine, MDMA, Weed, Meth and feel free to add some things I don't know about. Please don't talk about selling. Thank you.
i dont know if my receptors are just fried after so much use but even on the best fent its very underwhelming to me compared to all the other opioids. the first couple times i tried it were a little better but still not great just ok. after snorting it i dont really feel anything until i change positions. unlike other drugs i can still think clearly and talk to people just fine it just gives a really nice body feeling and takes any physical pain away. it felt the best when i accidentally snorted and swallowed an entire rock (maybe 175mg) at once. after panicking for 30 - 40 minutes it felt like the sun was in my stomach. like a veryyy warm (but comfortable) ball that slowly spread out to the rest of my body. it felt like an angel was hugging me. theres only a couple times ive overdosed on it but it was very peaceful. i did a fat line and walked into my boyfriends bathroom to get something. i dont remember falling over or anything. it felt exactly like when youre about to have surgery and they knock you out. i woke up probably close to an hour later so confused wondering why i was on the floor. it only felt like 5 seconds passed. i looked like a smurf and puked my guts out. it is a very nice drug to od on. there was no pain only extreme nausea and that was only after waking up.

#4 heroin is my favorite besides (prescribed) hydrocodone syrup. i still dream about that hydro syrup. its true that heroin feels better and more intense when you inject it. its the same kind of sun-like warmth as when i snorted that whole rock of fent at once except all at once instead of slowly spreading out. i finally felt content with everything. you could be miserable getting rained on in the street and if you shoot some H itll feel like youre in a mansion. its not that awful manic happiness like a low dose psychedelic would give you. you just finally feel happy and content with everything in your life. it has that same feeling like youre being wrapped in a warm blanket and hugged by angles but by 10x. its amazing and when i first started doing opioids i felt like this is what i was meant to feel like my whole life. like this feeling is what i was always missing. i finally felt like id be ok with living another 60 years if i could just feel like this 24/7. its hard to describe but if youve been suicidal your entire life and feel like an alien in this world then a good opioid high really does feel like its cured you. i hate weed and psychedelics i hate how they make you feel opioids will always be the best thing in the world to me.

fent and heroin withdrawal is like all the greatness of being on iv heroin -1000000. it is the worst agony you will ever feel in your life. i had a massive pain tolerance before getting on opioids and the pain and agony you feel in withdrawal is just indescribable. ive tried strangling myself and digging into my arms with an eyebrow razor and running in front of a car to make it stop. you will do ANYTHING to make it stop!! it feels like youve just been possesed by pain and suffering. suffering in withdrawal will make being depressed and miserable look like an expensive vacation. id rather be stuck in a hospital bed with the pain of organ failure again than ever go into withdrawal ever again! seriously there is nothing worse on this planet than going into fent withdrawal after months of taking 100 milligrams every day. even on a low dose. you will start begging your family members to kill you. i never ever thought id be yelling begging someone to kill me. i offered them everything i had as long as they would kill me. and when they said no i decided i was going to run in front of the next car i saw i couldnt live with that level of pure agony another second. so please for the love of god never become dependent on this stuff it is horrifying!!! ugh i wish withdrawal wasnt a thing opioids would be the perfect cure for almost anything if it didnt. oh my god in fent withdrawal even morphine withdrawal looks like a luxurious beach vacation. h o l y s h i t. after a while you cant think or speak you can only scream. sorry this is way longer than i thought it was going to be.
 
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burninghill

Arcanist
Dec 2, 2025
442
I've been abusing diphenhydramine recently, bcs I have a hard time falling asleep, it's genuinely addictive. Ig I should I rlly stop
It is very addictive. Its effectiveness is also dulled from the first time you use it, so you'll have to keep taking more and more each time to experience the same effects you had initially. It causes early onset dementia, permanent hallucinations and organ damage.
 
MeSauce

MeSauce

Armchair Philosopher
Jun 1, 2023
143
Ill talk about meth because nobody else here seems to have tried it.

I took around 100mg of Meth. For the first hour, I didn't feel anything. Then, things slowly started getting more interesting. I was playing Team Fortress 2 at the time, a video game, and I slowly began realizing that I was getting more and more invested in the game. The highs of winning were increased and the lows of losing were almost nonexistant. Meth makes you not sleep, I remember that I took it at around 7pm at night, and I played TF2 for 10 hours straight, until 5 in the morning. Then I had to go to work. Crazy I did it on a work night but wth. I remember I never felt any urge to consume more. The only downside was I didnt sleep that night, I barely slept the following night, and i had rough sleep for 3 days afterwards. Not worth it imo, but worth it enough to justify taking it once just to say I did it.

Below is my log of what I recorded on discord as I was actively experiencing it:

Took it at 6:50pm on 7/23/2026. around 90-110mg. was hella scared but it was now or never. will update when I feel anything or 1 hour has passed

Playing TF2 now and have been ever since I took it. I am getting suspiciously happy. Barely noticeable, perhaps it is kicking in
i also have that weird feeling in my body that only drugs can make you feel
that feeling that your homeostasis has been broken somehow

7:50 definitely feeling more awake than normal. way more awake. i got 5 hours of sleep last night though i feel like I could go for a run rn. still playing tf2, and losing isnt making me rage as much.

8:06 dude im breathing faster than normal and im getting a good headrush feeling and im having a good time. it feels like when you are fucking someone and you are 30 seconds from cumming, its almost orjgasmic

9:10 still going strong, no noticeable rises, just feels good

10:08 bro I am like Locked into TF2 rn

2:07 still playing and awake
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Пиздюк
Jun 11, 2026
176
It is very addictive. Its effectiveness is also dulled from the first time you use it, so you'll have to keep taking more and more each time to experience the same effects you had initially. It causes early onset dementia, permanent hallucinations and organ damage.
Fuck that's bad, can sth like Xanax also lead to early dementia, even if you've never become fully addicted to it? Like I've been abusing it for a while now, but it's never been like true addiction in the sense that I take it every day. There's been long periods of me not taking it at all
 
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ketaminelover

Ketamine Lover
Sep 3, 2025
27
I won't judge. I just want to know how they feel like as a non-user. Let's start with Fentanyl, Heroin, Cocaine, MDMA, Weed, Meth and feel free to add some things I don't know about. Please don't talk about selling. Thank you.
It's a coping mechanism like any other.
I'll list out my general experiences.

- Ketamine makes you disconnect and relax, find some calmness in your life. Once it becomes a habit it destroys you mentally and ruins relationships.
- Cocaine makes you feel alive. Full of energy, ready for anything, combined with alcohol you are unstoppable. Long term destroys your health very quickly, is extremely expensive.
- Weed is like being drunk in a different way. Fun recreationally but once it becomes a part of your life it's hard to quit.
- Benzos are like magic in a pill. You take one and feel anxiety-free almost instantly. Having the power to overcome any stress at any time by taking a pill comes with a huge responsibility. Worst addiction by far.
- LSD is like putting on glasses when you have bad vision. Suddenly you experience more and at higher doses you can do anything with your mind.
- Amphetamine is like super caffeine. No sleep, no tiredness and no apetite. Boring mentally.
 
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DarkShadows

A broken person.
Dec 21, 2023
158
My experience:

Weed - Euphoric, Less bored.

MDMA - Peace, Warmth.

Xanax/Alprazolam - Silences 'noise' in head.

LSD - Perspective changes, lots of visual distortions.

DMT - Intense change in perspective, newfound but short lived motivation.

4-Aco-DMT - Change in perspective but more empathetic.
 
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