Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

šŸŽµ Be all, end all šŸŽµ
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
Have you seen Happy Death Day? Fun movie
 
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FindingHome

Student
Aug 4, 2023
175
Sometime in September. Started prepping today. Have a big to do list of things I need to do before CTB.
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,450
Death day never works, it's like people who say they will diet on this day, stop smoking here, quit drinking end of the month etc. Never comes true as we are lazy and lie to ourselves.

When we are ready, we are ready.
 
Death is my goal

Death is my goal

pathetic failure
Aug 25, 2022
506
setting up a death day is stupid imo, if you're ready to ctb you just ctb..
 
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blessedistheflame

blessedistheflame

sisyphus in the flesh
Aug 9, 2023
6
Day after my mother's funeral. She has stage 4 lung cancer and had a brain tumor. The fact she made it 5 years is surprising enough, so I doubt we have much time left. I know she's unhappy and I think she fears death. The last time we spoke she just cried into the phone for several minutes. It breaks my heart to know she cries more than she smiles. Can't bring myself to do it when she's still around.

I hope it's in the winter so I can pass out in the snow on 20mg of klonopin and feel the warmth of my flame burning out. Hypothermia seems beautiful to me. If it's summer I guess the backup is heavy klonopin, zofran, and plenty of SN, but I look upon the former method with comfort and the latter with fear. These days I doubt I'm making it to 2025. I hope my partner will forgive me.
 
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Makku

Makku

Hi! My name is Makku! Any pronouns ENG/ESP/FR?
Aug 9, 2023
1
I'm not sure, probably around December. I've tried before CTB around new years but I messed up so... probably will try it again this Christmas season and if I fail again it could become my Xmas tradition.
 

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