What causes depression for you?

[Dr Iron Arc]

Deep self loathing, insecurity, anxiety issues, terrible stuff from my past, all standard stuff really.

 

[Mustkeyknow]

Poverty. Lack of opportunities for me as I'm getting older and older. Everything was so simple when I was younger.

 

[Yoffi]

very limited social life, I'm working on my every other cause of depression but I feel like this one is out of my control.

 

[Nymph]

Pretty much everything, I hate this world

 

[iDieUDie80]

Probation restrictions, public criminal record, OCD, not getting what I want and never winning anywhere.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Schoolwork causes me a lot of depression too, at least when I can't get it done easily. I can't wait for this semester to be over so I can finally graduate and get people off my back about getting a degree.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Definitely mental illness, my history as an abused child, loneliness and the pressure society put on me.

 

[Lostandlooking]

Being autistic and not knowing it caused a lot of problems growing up. I got bullied in school and have always felt an enormous pressure to conform, to try to fit in. At home things weren't that great. Lots of yelling and arguing. For the longest time, the way I felt was never discussed and didn't matter. Feelings were never discussed, this wasn't maliciousness, my parents just didn't know any better I think. All that mattered were my grades. I don't really know when depression started. I often felt depressed growing up. It didn't get better when I grew older. I tried to keep up, I tried to make connections. I rarely really connected with other people. I was always hiding and trying to fit in. Balancing everything cost me so much energy I was never really able to be happy about my successes or the things I achieved. Life was so draining and I kept my struggles to myself. I told myself this was normal. Even in therapy I was encouraged to keep at it, and to try to accept things and bear the discomfort. I got more and more depressed and eventually I broke down. I knew things had to change, drastically. It still took a couple of years. I developed chronic pain issues because of all of the stress. After another breakdown I was at a point where I knew for sure that whatever was going on with me mentally or physically just didn't matter or even didn't really exist. I was denied acknowledgement for so long and so often that it became reality. I know it sounds kinda weird and it's hard to explain. But that's how I felt. That's when I got my autism diagnosis and things started to slowly change. Very, very slowly. It still took several years and another breakdown because of workstress to get where I am now. I'm still very worried about income and the future. Being sick from work causes a lot of stress in itself and talking to people about it often triggers me and can cause a meltdown and a subsequent depression. I still doubt myself, my feelings and my pain all the time. I am more sensitive to stress than I've ever been. And I often get overwhelmed to the point where I start to feel depressed. Even though it's pretty bad sometimes I'm slowly acknowledging my struggle. And I'm lucky I have some people in my life to talk to about these things. I'm learning to set boundaries. And slowly opening up about these things. Thanks for reading, it's nice to vent sometimes.

 

[Fedrea]

Guilt, for sure, causing a disordered sense of self. Physical health problems and probably some kind of PTSD. Particularly tinnitus for some reason. Loud as fuck. Failure of all my hopes and dreams like a career I'm having children but that's way down the list of suffering

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Child and adult sexual abuse and genes. It clearly runs through one of my parent's family. Coincidentally or not, it was the grandfather of that family who molested my aunts and uncles and me.

 

[fettuccinee]

Childhood Sexual Abuse, Abandonment Issues, Brain trauma that affects memory, various other mental illnesses, being an utter failure.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

For me, I think my anxiety disorder and trauma resulted in chronic depression. For whatever reason, it gets worse and then I'm in a double depression.

 

[RicRac]

Child sex abuse by the grandfather, isolation, 40 years of depression, a life of mental pain, still here but feeling very close to the end.

 

[AvaAdore]

I thought about it for awhile and it seems it's all because of the way our world currently works. I think people in the past were generally more happy living in small communities where most people felt valued.

 

[catsarecool]

Childhood trauma and the inability to function that came from it. Barely getting through life and feeling useless and ashamed for not being able to just go on with life. Feeling like my life just passes me by while I accomplish nothing.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

I guess it's just exhaustion, burnout from trying to make something out of myself and failing over and over again. And also poverty, and possibly brain damage.

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

when they treat depression they treat the brain the chemicals etc but they can't treat whats happening or happened in life and doctors aren't stupid so you would think they would understand more......
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and alot of people blame there parents but can you honestly say you could raise a child and be sure they would never be hit by depression.

 

[AvaAdore]

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and alot of people blame there parents but can you honestly say you could raise a child and be sure they would never be hit by depression.

I don't blame my mother for my depression but I know that she contributed to the low self esteem I had to deal with. Once I was old enough to reflect on how she treated me it was very upsetting to know someone that's supposed to protect and help me more than anyone else set me up with issues I had to overcome. She was neglectful, physically abusive, insulting and untrustworthy. She has since apologized for the way she treated me. I told her I forgive her but I still feel hurt by it.

 

[CalmStrikeofMercy]

Numb and disconnected.

Wishing I had perfect knowledge and truth.

Greco-romanian-egyptian economy.

Living in a pro-eugenic society in which I am unable to compete within.

Divide and conqueor and brüte algorithms.

People who think destroying people is okay.

Peace at the end of a gun/arrow/bomb/fire/sword/light saber/chemical.

Putting harmful chemical substances in bodies.

Unethical science and human experimentation.

Feels like I am lost out in space/untethered.

Not being able to end my life on my own terms.

 

[Amumu]

First and foremost, my physical appearance.
Then, my personality.
Thirdly, existential problems.

All my addictions derive from it : alcohol, pmo, opiates, anxiolytics, etc.

 

[alexit]

As the title implies, I am curious as to what you guys think causes depression. I think for me, I just stopping trying and put myself in a mental box. Part of the reason was outside my control, but part it was also an existential crisis. I felt like it doesn't really matter what I do or accomplish. I feel like no matter how big of a legacy you make for yourself time will eventually erase all that. We are just temporarily here, may as well have fun. I guess I am a nihilist is that way. The problem with that is there is no long term decision making/goals, and eventually it just all feels empty.

These videos encapsulates what I am talking about.

Spoiler: Youtube Links

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My chronic conditions. They fucking show up every day, some more than others.

 

[almost_dead]

As the title implies, I am curious as to what you guys think causes depression. I think for me, I just stopping trying and put myself in a mental box. Part of the reason was outside my control, but part it was also an existential crisis. I felt like it doesn't really matter what I do or accomplish. I feel like no matter how big of a legacy you make for yourself time will eventually erase all that. We are just temporarily here, may as well have fun. I guess I am a nihilist is that way. The problem with that is there is no long term decision making/goals, and eventually it just all feels empty.

These videos encapsulates what I am talking about.

Spoiler: Youtube Links

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[melp]

No willingness to try, failed ideas, and life is an unfair game