What attracts you most to your method?

[ctb-soon]

My method is hanging, and full suspension is preferred.

I want something that is almost 100 percent effective once you step off that stool. And I can deal with some of the extra pain if it means a better chance it will be successful. From what I have seen in a number of videos, people pass out pretty quickly.

And there is some science research that reviewed streamed hanging suicides and most people were unconscious in a few seconds. The longest was 15 seconds.

Every day, I am getting closer to my CTB date.

 

[day]

When found I want to appear at peace. I'd like N like a lot of people but SN seems like my current best bet.

I would hate to have to use a firearm or hang as I'm worried I may cause' someone unneeded trauma.

Edit: Also SN has a fairly high success rate and seems like it won't cause a ton of SI like other methods.

 

[ctb-soon]

When found I want to appear at peace. I'd like N like a lot of people but SN seems like my current best bet.

I would hate to have to use a firearm or hang as I'm worried I may cause' someone unneeded trauma.

I do understand that.

I do plan to do it in a hotel.

I will have a delayed message to the police telling them where they can find my body. You can't stop someone from finding you, but I figure if its the police they are better trained to handle this

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

SN. I find its effectiveness being rather attractive

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Everything painless and paceful or maybe guns

Hanging is my method too but really hurts

 

[day]

I do understand that.

I do plan to do it in a hotel.

I will have a delayed message to the police telling them where they can find my body. You can't stop someone from finding you, but I figure if its the police they are better trained to handle this

I wish you the best of luck with your plan OP.

 

[bedhead_baby]

Partial suspension. I have a fear of sudden death, I don't know why. I guess just because my brain can't comprehend suddenly shutting off. So something where I fall asleep, basically. If you hit the spot above your adam's apple (under your chin and pull up) it should cut off oxygen to the brain but not totally inhibit breathing like putting pressure on the windpipe, from what I understand. My brother hung himself but was not successful as he was already in the hospital, but he said it was pretty instant unconsciousness, and that kind of sealed it for me.

Also it would be a way to stay at my home and have my blanket with me. I've always pictured doing it the shower so it's easier to clean, and I can have the vents on to keep the smell from ruining the rest of the house.

 

[ctb-soon]

SN. I find its effectiveness being rather attractive

how did you decide on your method?

For me hanging just resonates with me, maybe because I attempted it once before and want to have success.

I do like the moment in Full suspension where you are still conscious, hanging but cannot escape. And at that moment I want to declare " I just killed myself"

Everything painless and paceful or maybe guns

Hanging is my method too but really hurts

I did an attempt when I was a teenager. I tied a cloth around my neck and I was fully suspended. I did not feel much pain, just the discomfort of not being able to inhale and exhale. I felt pressure in my head. I did pass out, but the cloth knot gave out and I found myself on the floor, a very cold concrete floor I can remember.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

I saw a few real suicide videos by hanging and on by SN and I gotta say SN method looked much more peaceful…. Maybe I'm wrong though…..

 

[ctb-soon]

Partial suspension. I have a fear of sudden death, I don't know why. I guess just because my brain can't comprehend suddenly shutting off. So something where I fall asleep, basically. If you hit the spot above your adam's apple (under your chin and pull up) it should cut off oxygen to the brain but not totally inhibit breathing like putting pressure on the windpipe, from what I understand. My brother hung himself but was not successful as he was already in the hospital, but he said it was pretty instant unconsciousness, and that kind of sealed it for me.

Also it would be a way to stay at my home and have my blanket with me. I've always pictured doing it the shower so it's easier to clean, and I can have the vents on to keep the smell from ruining the rest of the house.

Have you ever considered a different method - or what would you say really resonates with you?

I saw a few real suicide videos by hanging and on by SN and I gotta say SN method looked much more peaceful…. Maybe I'm wrong though…..

I have certainly seen hanging videos, but not with the SN method. Where did you see them?

 

[hellispink]

SN. I just prefer that my body to be in the best way possible. Sn will make my body blueish but thats fine its in one piece. Jumping breaks me in different halfs thats disgusting for the people seeing and cleaning. I don't want my tongue out with a weird face how usually they found hanged people. I will be dead obviously but i just don't wanna go looking that way.

 

[bedhead_baby]

Have you ever considered a different method - or what would you say really resonates with you?

I have certainly seen hanging videos, but not with the SN method. Where did you see them?

I've fantasized about almost every method imaginable. I picture full and partial suspension the most, though, and only see myself following through with that. The taking a final breath and passing out is most appealing because I just want to fall asleep. I don't have access to any drugs that would do that, only what would cause seizures and vomiting and then death, and that's not a pretty picture (but I've definitely fantasized about that as well).

SN. I just prefer that my body to be in the best way possible. Sn will make my body blueish but thats fine its in one piece. Jumping breaks me in different halfs thats disgusting for the people seeing and cleaning. I don't want my tongue out with a weird face how usually they found hanged people. I will be dead obviously but i just don't wanna go looking that way.

I've thought about that as well, honestly the biggest downside to hanging. But depending on the time it takes someone to find you, we'll all look yucky either way, and eventually we won't have a body at all, so that brings me some peace.

 

[MBG]

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+ no pain
+ quick
+ sure death vs surviving but in even worse condition
+ affordable $250 + $45 S/H
+ no travel required
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[lawlietsph]

Partial hanging is my method but honestly I'm not so sure why. 2 family members of mine tried to overdose on some pills but obviously they both failed so I have some ptsd involving these "swallowing something" methods. I don't want it to be too painful.
Thinking about it I feel like I deserve to suffocate. Like my body deserves to be tortured in some way because it failed me so many times. I want my body to hang... I don't know how to explain.
I just want it to be over quickly and to never feel a damn thing ever again.

 

[dogtired]

IV heroin overdose for me. I like it because:

- peaceful, painless & probably even euphoric
- won't leave a disturbing-looking body like hanging or jumping would
- I can die comfortable and warm in my bed
- if I don't leave a suicide note it will look like an accident (debating the pros/cons of this though)
- injecting heroin is something I've done many hundreds of times and comes naturally to me so won't feel like that much of a big deal & won't be scary

 

[pphinquiry]

Rule # 1: stay out of prison/ jail/ mental health facilities at all costs. This rules out anything that involves buying anything illegally. In the US I thought prop 47 in california was a potential loophole here but it isn't (you can still get jail time for possession and the DA in SF is prosecuting again). I think people underestimate how much worse things can get and being incarcerated sounds like the definition of way worse. Also, if you get caught buying dark web drugs, you could get federal drug charges because things have crossed state lines. These have 10 year minimum sentences although there are pleas for less that can be given if you have no history but still just not worth the potential consequences.


Rule # 2: don't fail: minimize risk of damaging my body with a failed attempt. this also leads to more suffering


Goal #3 : go out as peacefully as possible

basically this can all be summarized as: minimize potential suffering

 

[ctb-soon]

SN. I just prefer that my body to be in the best way possible. Sn will make my body blueish but thats fine its in one piece. Jumping breaks me in different halfs thats disgusting for the people seeing and cleaning. I don't want my tongue out with a weird face how usually they found hanged people. I will be dead obviously but i just don't wanna go looking that way.

It's true I have seen a few people with their tongues out, but a lot feel to me to be just peaceful. I also see myself hanging there to. It sometimes freaks me out a bit

I've thought about that as well, honestly the biggest downside to hanging. But depending on the time it takes someone to find you, we'll all look yucky either way, and eventually we won't have a body at all, so that brings me some peace.

I am not sure if your body will look good unless you are found a minute after you have died.

You do start to decompose pretty quickly. But maybe I should look at what 24 hours of hanging looks like. It might convince me to reduce the delay I have set for emails that go out after Catching the bus

Partial hanging is my method but honestly I'm not so sure why. 2 family members of mine tried to overdose on some pills but obviously they both failed so I have some ptsd involving these "swallowing something" methods. I don't want it to be too painful.
Thinking about it I feel like I deserve to suffocate. Like my body deserves to be tortured in some way because it failed me so many times. I want my body to hang... I don't know how to explain.
I just want it to be over quickly and to never feel a damn thing ever again.

Partial is my second choice. I have never considered any type of overdose or poisoning. I am not sure what the attraction is. Don't you feel sick?

Rule # 1: stay out of prison/ jail/ mental health facilities at all costs. This rules out anything that involves buying anything illegally. In the US I thought prop 47 in california was a potential loophole here but it isn't (you can still get jail time for possession and the DA in SF is prosecuting again). I think people underestimate how much worse things can get and being incarcerated sounds like the definition of way worse. Also, if you get caught buying dark web drugs, you could get federal drug charges because things have crossed state lines. These have 10 year minimum sentences although there are pleas for less that can be given if you have no history but still just not worth the potential consequences.


Rule # 2: don't fail: minimize risk of damaging my body with a failed attempt. this also leads to more suffering


Goal #3 : go out as peacefully as possible

basically this can all be summarized as: minimize potential suffering

What is your choice then?

 

[bea_bivng]

Provavelmente para um corte no pulso embora a taxa de sucesso seja baixa e tenha que saber exatamente onde cortar, além da questão da dor, mas é o único método que estou com muita vontade, gosto um pouco de bagunça e parece ser bom o suficiente para aliviar qualquer coisa que estou sentindo, se não for bem sucedido terei consequências óbvias já me avisaram sobre isso mas não me importo.

 

[verybabybunny]

This is so delusional, but my method is the Empire State Building.

For many reasons it will be near impossible. I wanted to live and work successfully in New York City my whole life. I have done so for almost 7 years.

My life was torment. My adulthood here in New York was and is torment. It's all just torment. I don't wanna get old. I don't wanna lose bodily function. I don't wanna keep experiencing loss. I can't take it.

I'm hoping to crash on an SUV or something similar and end up plastered all over the news. You know what I'm referencing. Victims don't get named or shown anymore out of fear of inspiring. I'd want to CTB regardless of if I'd seen the famous photo of you all know who.

But I need everyone to see what they did to me. They're scattered all over the world. I don't want it to be in vain. I don't want them to not know. Know they must. They must know what they did to me. It feels like murder.

It isn't about attention. My biggest abuser is in a third world country. I have no idea how else they'd see that what they physically and mentally did to me when we were together here was the end of me. It was the end. Their family doesn't care about me, we're mutually blocked on everything, my mother hates them for what they've done, she wouldn't reach out.

That person would never know. But they have to. They have to know.

 

[Minsu]

R2D ReBreather lll for inert gas asphyxiation
https://r2d.respiro.global/

+ no violence
+ no trauma for me ("pretty" corpse), first responders (who often end up with PTSD) or unintended witnesses. No mess for someone to clean up.
+ no pain
+ quick
+ sure death vs surviving but in even worse condition
+ affordable
+ no travel required
+ no assistance required
+ no shelf life (expiration date) Buy it, store it, use it when you want.
+ no justification for more gun control laws

I second this. I'm about to order it soon

 

[ctb-soon]

Provavelmente para um corte no pulso embora a taxa de sucesso seja baixa e tenha que saber exatamente onde cortar, além da questão da dor, mas é o único método que estou com muita vontade, gosto um pouco de bagunça e parece ser bom o suficiente para aliviar qualquer coisa que estou sentindo, se não for bem sucedido terei consequências óbvias já me avisaram sobre isso mas não me importo.

por que você quer cortar seus pulsos?

 

[CrazyDiamond04]

Everything painless and paceful or maybe guns

Hanging is my method too but really hurts

Yeah, hanging sucks. The movies make it look a lot easier haha.

 

[alonely]

N2 - all components legal to get with minimal questions and simple-enough backstories. doesn't restrict breathing.

 

[ctb-soon]

This is so delusional, but my method is the Empire State Building.

It doesn't sound delusional at all - it sounds like a fantasy

For many reasons it will be near impossible. I wanted to live and work successfully in New York City my whole life. I have done so for almost 7 years.

My life was torment. My adulthood here in New York was and is torment. It's all just torment. I don't wanna get old. I don't wanna lose bodily function. I don't wanna keep experiencing loss. I can't take it.

I'm hoping to crash on an SUV or something similar and end up plastered all over the news. You know what I'm referencing. Victims don't get named or shown anymore out of fear of inspiring. I'd want to CTB regardless of if I'd seen the famous photo of you all know who.

That is quite visual for me - I can see that

But I need everyone to see what they did to me. They're scattered all over the world. I don't want it to be in vain. I don't want them to not know. Know they must. They must know what they did to me. It feels like murder.

It isn't about attention. My biggest abuser is in a third world country. I have no idea how else they'd see that what they physically and mentally did to me when we were together here was the end of me. It was the end. Their family doesn't care about me, we're mutually blocked on everything, my mother hates them for what they've done, she wouldn't reach out.

That person would never know. But they have to. They have to know.

I hope you find a solution that works for you - and you can have peace

N2 - all components legal to get with minimal questions and simple-enough backstories. doesn't restrict breathing.

Do you have to be precise with the mix? I have no knowledge of this kind of stuff?

 

[bea_bivng]

por que você quer cortar seus pulsos?

Acho que gosto das cicatrizes, do sangue e de como a vida desaparece lentamente (mesmo que o sucesso para tal morte seja baixo) Acho que não gosto de outro método assim, também pode ser por causa de um evento traumático Passei quando minha mãe se cortou na perna não vi nada mas estava em casa na hora.

 

[Shaylla1998]

I primarily consider night night and bleeding due to their accessibility. While I also consider SN, it is quite challenging for me to acquire it in my country. Another method I think about is jumping, which I can not do from the comfort of my home and requires traveling to the nearest major city, however, I have concerns about accessing rooftops or opening windows without drawing attention and facing unwanted questions.

 

[ctb-soon]

Acho que gosto das cicatrizes, do sangue e de como a vida desaparece lentamente (mesmo que o sucesso para tal morte seja baixo) Acho que não gosto de outro método assim, também pode ser por causa de um evento traumático Passei quando minha mãe se cortou na perna não vi nada mas estava em casa na hora.

Acho que você se cortou. Você os esconde?

 

[loopdaloop]

Hanging full suspenion too, because it's simple and cheap. I would have liked the gas stuff much more but I don't have the mental capacity to research extensively a method I'm not familiar with.

 

[ctb-soon]

Hanging full suspenion too, because it's simple and cheap. I would have liked the gas stuff much more but I don't have the mental capacity to research extensively a method I'm not familiar with.

Did it take a while to come to full suspension? I played with the idea of partial but my mind kept on coming back to full suspension. When I see myself at the end of my CTB journey, its always an image in my head of a full suspension

 

[loopdaloop]

Did it take a while to come to full suspension? I played with the idea of partial but my mind kept on coming back to full suspension. When I see myself at the end of my CTB journey, its always an image in my head of a full suspension

Not a while, I think I had an initial inclination towards full too. Full seemed more apealling because there's less room for error and no turning back after you kick the stool, even if you don't pass out immediately at least there's an end to that pain