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Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,136
Everyone has different and multiple reasons to ctb but some reasons are unique or specific.

I have many reasons. For example, I think time is the problem and its impossible to freeze time so its better to ctb. I keep losing everything and eventually losing myself with time.
 
ScorchedLifePolicy

ScorchedLifePolicy

Member
Nov 21, 2020
18
Unknown illness can't keep going to the doctor with Covid floating around, I risk passing it to family. SN is running late in the mail just my luck.
 
peacechoice

peacechoice

Experienced
Oct 11, 2020
205
I have many many reasons to CTB, many weird reasons

1. I do not conform to societies standards of living. I am supposed to get married and have kids, but I do not want that. Or work for the rest of my miserable life, but I also do not want that.
2. Working just leads me to other terrible reasons. Why contribute to this capitalistic society my whole life and keep on screwing my self until I die. I suck. Work yourself to your bone and then kill yourself , really?
3. If I can't work because I get sick then how am I supposed to contribute to society with not paycheck and no one to support me? I'll have no husband or money, might as well just kill my self.
4. Leads me to another thing, if I can't have independence, as in financially for myself, then I don't want anyone to pull me out. I want to be able to get myself ahead and if I can't then I'll just kill myself.
5. I will be damned if I let a man control me because I am financially dependent on him. No. I will kill myself.
 
elfgyoza

elfgyoza

Cursed
Aug 5, 2019
326
If you don't mind me asking what is misophonia
Sorry probably should've summarised. Something most people experience to some degree, normally likened to hearing nails on a chalkboard. Certain repetitive 'trigger' sounds cause intense emotional distress, disgust, and anger, leading to a fight of flight response
As a teen I couldn't leave my room without blasting music through earphones to avoid any noise associated with eating and breathing. I can't spend too much time with anyone and I know they can't control the sound as well, they're normal sounds, which only makes me feel guilty for being angry (even though I can't control it)
 
Throwmyselfaway

Throwmyselfaway

Not gone yet but soon
Jan 14, 2020
798
Sorry probably should've summarised. Something most people experience to some degree, normally likened to hearing nails on a chalkboard. Certain repetitive 'trigger' sounds cause intense emotional distress, disgust, and anger, leading to a fight of flight response
As a teen I couldn't leave my room without blasting music through earphones to avoid any noise associated with eating and breathing. I can't spend too much time with anyone and I know they can't control the sound as well, they're normal sounds, which only makes me feel guilty for being angry (even though I can't control it)
Wow that must be horrible
 
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Deformationalplagio

Born deformed
Dec 28, 2019
376
Everyone has different and multiple reasons to ctb but some reasons are unique or specific.

I have many reasons. For example, I think time is the problem and its impossible to freeze time so its better to ctb. I keep losing everything and eventually losing myself with time.
A deformity of the face and skull. Im a guy who is kind of metrosexual in mind so it clashes with how i look. There are some people who can live with severe deformitys but not me. Its just not how i was build on the inside. If there is a next life ( not that i believe) i want to be a pretty girl instead. I think i would deserve that after this one
 
esann7

esann7

Antinatalist
Oct 3, 2020
17
If you don't mind me asking what is misophonia
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A strong reaction to specific sounds.
Misophonia may cause a reaction to sounds such as dripping water, chewing, snapping gum, or repetitive noises, such as pencil tapping." ......People with misophonia can become irritated, enraged, or even panicked when they hear their trigger sounds.
to end it before it gets worseYED
 
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StringPuppet

StringPuppet

Lost
Oct 5, 2020
579
Well it's one of a few reasons, but my teeth are really bad and I'm an idiot so I'll never earn enough money to get them fixed.
 
Midgardsorm

Midgardsorm

Paragon
Apr 28, 2020
922
I've never seen it mentioned on SS, but misophonia is one of my main reasons so I guess that'd be kinda 'unique'

My misophonia led to OCD, which is the main reason that causes my life to be miserable.
Ocd evolved from sounds, to "contamination" ocd ( it's mainly a strong discomfort towards grease or anything related to it)

I hate to blame others for my problems, but I cannot deny that my family, hoping that I would 'habituate' to the sounds, made it much worse, purposely making those sounds whenever I was around. It didn't helped, only made more anxious.

Watch out for people that believes they have a psychology degree and try to 'help you' by doing that.
The so-called Exposure Therapy is much more complex, and even then it's not guaranteed that it will help.
 
GarageKarate07

GarageKarate07

Wizard
Aug 18, 2020
665
Everyone has different and multiple reasons to ctb but some reasons are unique or specific.

I have many reasons. For example, I think time is the problem and its impossible to freeze time so its better to ctb. I keep losing everything and eventually losing myself with time.
I had a bad childhood with abuse and being bullied and therefore "unprotected" by my parents. This was at school and then at home for many years. It killed me before I had a chance. Drove me to drugs and smoking. I still smoke today as it's my only true friend. Over the years several injuries and illnesses have been developed. Bad dental hygiene from being so anxious has left me with early dentures and constant infections. I havs 2 head injuries. Between those things I have a brain fog that has been debilitating. That plus unsettling emotions and constant negative thoughts. Plus the sadness in this world gives me pain so very very deep every time I see anyone or anything suffer. This is just a cocktail for destruction. I feel strong that I have lasted this long but my illnesses are killing me on several levels. It's time to go home I fear.
 

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