What are your thoughts telling you?

[darkenmydoorstep]

More and more my thoughts say "but you're just better off dead." Even when I'm I'm having a good day, I always think "but it's not as good as being dead because death is the ultimate rest." Death has become such a goal to me, more so than any meaningful experiences because they never last. I just want peace.

 

[Dayrain]

@darkenmydoorstep I just randomly saw your post. May I ask you if you have been to the workshop? But you don't have to tell. You can pm me if you want to tell.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Same. Even when I'm having "fun", I'm just so uneasy. Like this cloud is looming over me reminding me that I have to go soon.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Same. Even when I'm having "fun", I'm just so uneasy. Like this cloud is looming over me reminding me that I have to go soon.

Yes, it's just that feeling of not being able to maintain a relaxed state of mind.

 

[F@#$]

My thoughts tell me I'm a spineless pussy who should have put a bullet through my skull decades ago.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Yes, it's just that feeling of not being able to maintain a relaxed state of mind.

And knowing that you never will because things will just get worse. "It gets better." What a joke.

 

[derpyderpins]

"It'll never be better. You're really nothing. You can't make it. You're going to burn out while everyone else is able to keep truckin' along. It'll all catch up to you, and you will deserve it. You aren't making any difference."

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Nothing, because my head is is mostly filled with air. They say that when a baby is born their brain about 25% the size of an average adults brain, well my brain is only 2% the size of an average adults brain and I'm 21. No thoughts are going on in this little brain!

 

[Mirrory Me]

They are raping me...

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

@darkenmydoorstep I just randomly saw your post. May I ask you if you have been to the workshop? But you don't have to tell. You can pm me if you want to tell.

You mean the one on 12th May? No, sadly not. They had a system thing where you couldn't register until you'd been a member for a month so I just missed out.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

"stop deluding urself ugly loser"

 

[FuneralCry]

That existence is undesirable and that for me it's always better to not exist. I'm tired of suffering in this existence, I really wish I never existed at all more than anything, only never existing is perfection to me.

I just find it so horrific how there's no limit as to how much one can suffer in an existence so cruel and meaningless, I'd never want to exist, existence truly does serve no purpose but to torment existing beings all while they are just waiting to die anyway. Human existence truly is the most futile and torturous burden, I wish there's the option to just fall asleep eternally but even better than that I wish I had the option to erase my existence so it's like I never existed.

 

[Dayrain]

You mean the one on 12th May? No, sadly not. They had a system thing where you couldn't register until you'd been a member for a month so I just missed out.

Oh, that's awefully strict.