I think, planning your self-elimination based on the formal biological age just makes no sense. I felt myself fully young until I became 36-37 years old when my skin changed so my look noticeably differs from what people under 30 have. Even though I'm nearly 40 now, I still feel myself young mentally.
Rational conditions for ctb should be rather based on the estimated ratio between pleasure and suffering that you expect to have in the future, and the biological age has a very small impact on this ratio, until you get like 45+ when you may face with your first age-related health issues.
It's more of the fact that I don't want to participate in society, and after 25 people expect you to be fully integrated and have a job and everything. I don't want to have to have a job, career or be a wage slave to our capitalistic society. I don't want to properly enter adulthood or be an adult, if that makes sense. That's why I chose 25, it's one of the last few years of "freedom" where you're allowed failure/ to fail and a bit of leeway before you actually have to become an adult and enter the (working) world. After 25 people basically expect you to have your life figured out.
I like the idea of dying young to escape the matrix we live in, this exploitative system that relies on the exploitation of other people's (the workers') labor. By dying before 25, I will never have to be a part of this system
Being a piece of shit, using people to fulfill desires, lying compulsively to get what I want out of them, switching up and treating like an complete asshole before not talking to them anymore or just leaving without any given reason. I was doing this shit without any active self consciousness, no feeling that what I was doing was wrong. I fucked up, I was fucked up. I miss my girlfriend, im a mess. I don't think I want to be here any longer, especially after being a fucking sociopath.
Doesn't everyone do this though? People are naturally and inherently selfish so I understand…this may have been based on my past experience of being betrayed, used and bullied by others, but I think people just exploit and use others for their own desires, means and purposes. It's human nature. People only care about what they can get out of other people…
Being likely neurodivergent (diagnosed with other things though) and not having support rn+ Life falling apart around me. I feel like I'm predestined to fail honestly, all of my past predictions have come true so far and before you say anything, I don't necessarily think it's a "law of attraction" deal considering I tried my hardest to stay on top of academics, leadership and extracurricular activities only for my dreams to be destroyed by fate. To summarise, I don't foresee a bright future for myself and I think it would be best to CTB before things get more out of control
Same, I feel like I was predestined to fail as well. Life throws obstacles in my way and I don't know why. By the way, what do you mean by your predictions? Did you get premonitions in your dreams? It's cool that you're able to predict your future and it actually ends up happening. I wish I was given this gift of precognition/clairvoyance.
My plans never go according to plan, fate just has to mess with them in some way. Every time I try to succeed I just fail again. I don't know why life is like this, and why it's just so hard. I don't see a (bright) future for myself either so I'd like to ctb before things get worse…honestly I never even saw a future for myself anyways. I never wanted to live past 18, I never saw myself even living this long tbh.
My reasons are similar to yours. I have no life skills, no friends, no job and no real life outside of my family. I am autistic and have intense social anxiety so getting a job, making friends and creating a worthwhile life for myself all feel like impossible dreams. When I think about all the therapy, work and change I would have to do to make even the smallest improvement to my life I get overwhelmed and want to give up before I become even more of a failure. I also have csa trauma that I can't get past and everyday I feel like tearing my skin off. I think in summary I am just too tired of trying. When I think of the future all I see is things getting worse; climate change, poverty, human rights issues. I don't want to be around for that. I also don't want to watch the people I love grow older and I especially don't want to lose anyone else. I think I have had enough of life, and I don't think I belong in this world. I'm sick of being trapped in this situation of feeling useless and having to play a game that I don't know the rules for and I never wanted to play in the first place. I just want to not be here anymore and I've felt that way for a long time.
Same, I get you, especially about having to play a game with rules you didn't even know about in the first place. This describes my experience entirely! Story of my life. I feel like everyone else was given a guide to life and its unspoken rules, and I wasn't. It's hard living when you never had the rulebook to the game. I also never even wanted to play the game of life in the first place. I think it's cruel that we were forced to be here without our consent. Life is really difficult for people like us, it's basically a game on hard mode. Sometimes I wonder if I would want to keep living if I were a neurotypical person, but honestly I would rather be a cat
