What are your reasons for leaving?

[leavingsoon99]

I'm leaving because my life has not been anything but torture, rejection, and pain. I'm tired of enduring and persevering. This has brought me nothing but an empty existence. Love is a myth. Morals are a joke. And anything good is mocked in this world. My family abused and abandoned me. I had absolutely NO guidance in this life. I was just put here. Literally, JUST PUT HERE. I was bullied to no end in high school and even some in my adult life. I made very few human connections, but none lasted long enough to matter. The fondest memory of my mother is her beating me mercilessly for wearing a cartoon shirt to church. I had teachers who only insulted me. I don't know how I had so much optimism for life, even after all that. However, now, I can't wait to put myself to sleep.

What are your reasons?

 

[MrDarkness]

Love of my life tossed me away like trash due to my actions, I also can't forgive myself for what I've done in my past.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Born the wrong sex (Male), cant get over envy towards cis women and can't stop ruminating on growing up, developing as and being the correct sex (female). Can't cope by getting into relationships because of multiple problems I have outside of my dysphoria. The quality of life if I was to stick around would be poor.

 

[blacksand]

severe depression plain and simple.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Severe childhood abuse.
Mentally ill since age 6 .
Bullied at school.
The inability to socially connect with people due to mental illness.
The love of my life stole my life savings and ran away with the guy nextdoor.
I'm old now at 59, and homeless.
Existential crisis .

 

[egionesco]

I am sorry you guys are in so much pain.

You largely have better have reasons than I do. I just don't enjoy being a member of this species any longer. I probably should have realized this sooner, but the way people have treated me throughout the pandemic as I remain a caring and considerate person has been deplorable. I am absolutely fed up with everyone and nobody has my back. My life is fine, genuinely-- it's easy, I'm objectively well, I have lots of opportunities and...I just don't want it. I'm done. I think that's ok.

 

[90starve]

I am sorry you guys are in so much pain.

You largely have better have reasons than I do. I just don't enjoy being a member of this species any longer. I probably should have realized this sooner, but the way people have treated me throughout the pandemic as I remain a caring and considerate person has been deplorable. I am absolutely fed up with everyone and nobody has my back. My life is fine, genuinely-- it's easy, I'm objectively well, I have lots of opportunities and...I just don't want it. I'm done. I think that's ok.

no such thing as a better reason!! every reason for wanting to end your life is valid - it's your life after all <3

 

[whitherrvbound]

Shitload of mental problems caused by parents' negligence (left alone as a child a lot)
Fucked up my brains chemical structure even more with abusing antipsychotics for highs during my first highschool year
Cant sleep never rested
My ex who saved me from my suicidal pit that year ironically fucked me up even more during the following 4.5 years and to top it off shes now with my old friend whom i saved from his suicide attempt
Always lacked the will to live cause of philosophical mental breakdowns so im not that sad about ctb just its so fucking hard to commit cause of my family friends etc. other than that i have no intention for myself to live and one cant live for others solely.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I am sorry you guys are in so much pain.

You largely have better have reasons than I do. I just don't enjoy being a member of this species any longer. I probably should have realized this sooner, but the way people have treated me throughout the pandemic as I remain a caring and considerate person has been deplorable. I am absolutely fed up with everyone and nobody has my back. My life is fine, genuinely-- it's easy, I'm objectively well, I have lots of opportunities and...I just don't want it. I'm done. I think that's ok.

I can relate to a lot of what you are going through. I find the vast majority of people to be cold and callous. You simply can't connect with them, and it has definitely gotten worse during the past 3 years.
I'm done too: even a huge amount of cash and a beautiful girlfriend wouldn't change my mind about putting myself out of my misery.
When you are truly done, you really know it.
My

Shitload of mental problems caused by parents' negligence (left alone as a child a lot)
Fucked up my brains chemical structure even more with abusing antipsychotics for highs during my first highschool year
Cant sleep never rested
My ex who saved me from my suicidal pit that year ironically fucked me up even more during the following 4.5 years and to top it off shes now with my old friend whom i saved from his suicide attempt
Always lacked the will to live cause of philosophical mental breakdowns so im not that sad about ctb just its so fucking hard to commit cause of my family friends etc. other than that i have no intention for myself to live and one cant live for others solely.

My ex ran away with my so-called best friend, and stole my life savings.
Effexor withdrawal fucked my brain up, and I'm in a state of constant severe depression and existential crisis.
Sorry you are going through this shit too.

 

[S u i c i d e]

I just want to be loved, but I'm just getting hurt, so I'm leaving so I can't be hurt anymore.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Just because I want to ctb for me. And nobody can tell me not to. I only love non-existence forever

It's similar to when the NPCs tell me I have to have children and get a wife job etc. I say "why I don't want to " and they have no answer

To me it's like asking someone that is in a torture dungeon waiting to be tortured why do you want to escape this dungeon?

 

[hellispink]

borderline poison, no way around this. I have a condition called bpd which makes my life a punishment. The world is sad and empty. People are greedy and selfish. The weak the poor the animals the forests, crime, abuse… everything here is just wrong.

 

[FuneralCry]

We all have to leave someday, death will happen no matter what whether there is a reason behind it or not.

But I personally view existence as being the ultimate problem, existing is just dreadful, futile, pointless and unappealing, I could never wish to exist in this harmful world that is filled with endless suffering where we are destined for nothing and nowhere but to be tormented by old age. Death is the only relief, I think it's always preferable to not exist, existence was just a horrific mistake in the first place.

 

[The anhedonic one]

borderline poison, no way around this. I have a condition called bpd which makes my life a punishment. The world is sad and empty. People are greedy and selfish. The weak the poor the animals the forests, crime, abuse… everything here is just wrong.

I'm borderline too. I recently pushed away an online friend I care deeply about. I'm fucked in the head.

 

[vitbar]

My life is intolerable and the knowledge it will go on like this is too much. I'm isolated and don't want to be alone anymore, but my issues put socialising out of reach.

 

[day]

From day 1 I was born in the wrong body, was abused as a child to the greed of my guardians, I've been betrayed by the ones I put my heart into, I literally live everyday suffering wishing to end my existence.

What's the point in living anyways when one day regardless of how I feel I'll just be another corpse?

 

[delusionalgirl]

Childhood abuse of various degrees while in a cult (cults even out 20 years later still fuck up your mind), mental illness from all previous crap gone on unchecked, not diagnosed or anything all, which leads (direct or indirectly) to early onset dementia at 42. There's a good chance that I'm not just at early onset, that's it's been going on at least a year. I will cognitively decline to the point of needing to be in a facility and no cure. Fuck that.

 

[sunsetboat234]

Extreme loss, dread, needing of peace after a long time of suffering

 

[N0FWayIneedtogo]

Psy meds ruined my life, cant work propertly anymore, lost my personality, blunt emotions, severe anhedonia and on top of that i have full pssd, i cant feel my genitals and dont feel orgasm any more, almost home less by now and it keeps getting worse.

 

[Eternal Sleep!]

For about 2 years now my life is absolute hell, suffering from major depression, anxiety disorder, different traumatic events, OCD and panic attacks.

Everything that makes life worthwhile like feeling love, affection, happiness, laughing, true emotional connections with people, inner peace I miss them!

I feel dead inside, full of mental pain, I feel like a empty shell without a soul, it's killing me from inside out.

I'm also having autism and I always had the feeling like I don't fit in, feeling very different but in a negative way. On school I was bullied because I was so different and insecure. Unfortunately it has impacted my adult life negatively somehow.

Everybody was far beyond me in life, with relationships, jobs, social interaction. It truly felt like I missed the boat. I can only blame my autism for that!

Whole my life I've suffered from episodes of depression and anxiety since childhood, yes I got periods that I was sort of happy but this is totally overshadowed by all the negative events in my life.

The years before 2010 were pretty good years, but from on 2010 it went downhill, I developed slowly anxiety and depression. Due my anxiety I avoided more and more places where I was not in control. I could drive a car, but in trains for example I feeled social anxiety. This went so bad that I withdrew from more and more places.

Fast forward to 2015 (developed lots of fears and anxiety by that time) I smoked some weed and all my fears where magnified tenfold! It was a horrible experience and my most traumatic event. I also smoked weed when I was 18 and that was a pretty high and felt good. Just saying how many disorders I developed thru the years.

I know life can be really good, that's why I did not commit suicide until now.

I have a girlfriend I truly love and keeps me alive and just a little of hope which keeps me going for now, but I don't know how long I can keep on going think of suicide every day!

Apart from the psychological symptoms I also suffer with tinnitus, eye floaters and chronic RSI pain. It's just to much, I'm olnly human and I really can't take it much longer.

I have my method ready (SN) so I can escape this hellhole if it's get really unbearable!

 

[The anhedonic one]

Psy meds ruined my life, cant work propertly anymore, lost my personality, blunt emotions, severe anhedonia and on top of that i have full pssd, i cant feel my genitals and dont feel orgasm any more, almost home less by now and it keeps getting worse.

So sorry you are going through this. Life is so cruel to some of us.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Depression because I just can't get my life back on track how I want it to be.

 

[thot88]

My reason is Asperger's and neurological problems and chronic anxiety and stress.

 

[The anhedonic one]

For about 2 years now my life is absolute hell, suffering from major depression, anxiety disorder, different traumatic events, OCD and panic attacks.

Everything that makes life worthwhile like feeling love, affection, happiness, laughing, true emotional connections with people, inner peace I miss them!

I feel dead inside, full of mental pain, I feel like a empty shell without a soul, it's killing me from inside out.

I'm also having autism and I always had the feeling like I don't fit in, feeling very different but in a negative way. On school I was bullied because I was so different and insecure. Unfortunately it has impacted my adult life negatively somehow.

Everybody was far beyond me in life, with relationships, jobs, social interaction. It truly felt like I missed the boat. I can only blame my autism for that!

Whole my life I've suffered from episodes of depression and anxiety since childhood, yes I got periods that I was sort of happy but this is totally overshadowed by all the negative events in my life.

The years before 2010 were pretty good years, but from on 2010 it went downhill, I developed slowly anxiety and depression. Due my anxiety I avoided more and more places where I was not in control. I could drive a car, but in trains for example I feeled social anxiety. This went so bad that I withdrew from more and more places.

Fast forward to 2015 (developed lots of fears and anxiety by that time) I smoked some weed and all my fears where magnified tenfold! It was a horrible experience and my most traumatic event. I also smoked weed when I was 18 and that was a pretty high and felt good. Just saying how many disorders I developed thru the years.

I know life can be really good, that's why I did not commit suicide until now.

I have a girlfriend I truly love and keeps me alive and just a little of hope which keeps me going for now, but I don't know how long I can keep on going think of suicide every day!

Apart from the psychological symptoms I also suffer with tinnitus, eye floaters and chronic RSI pain. It's just to much, I'm olnly human and I really can't take it much longer.

I have my method ready (SN) so I can escape this hellhole if it's get really unbearable!

I'm so sorry you are going through this. Do you suffer from anhedonia like me ? I don't feel any pleasure in anything at all. The only things I feel are emotional pain.

 

[Eternal Sleep!]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. Do you suffer from anhedonia like me ? I don't feel any pleasure in anything at all. The only things I feel are emotional pain.

Yes I'm pretty sure I have anhedonia

 

[N0FWayIneedtogo]

So sorry you are going through this. Life is so cruel to some of us.

idk why us have to suffer like this, its not fair, i use to fight to live happy despite the every day bullie and problems but this is a living hell now, im 32, i manage to acomplish some but after this every dam minute its a torture, not felling of anything, total blunt of pleasure and feelings also my digestive system is fucked, cant sleep, and knowing im chemical castrated every step i make is a living torture, i cant live like this.

 

[Techef]

Incurable illness and finances. I'd list mental health too, but at this point the physical pain seems to override the mental anguish, although the stress of trying to rush to CTB before I'm unable to physically carry it out, or finally run out of finances and become homeless while terminally ill torments me as the days go by.

 

[Brokensoulwalking]

Sexual abuse as a child, physical abuse as a child. Emotional abuse my entire life.

I spent my whole life thinking I was stronger than these things, turns out I have every fucking aspect of PTSD and every trait of someone who was abused. Now I don't feel like I am my own person anymore, more like I was crafted by the person who hurt me.

Now I walk around feeling worthless and empty. I got a good job I hate, I bought a house, you know the stuff you're told to do to be successful, it made me feel empty.

I fell for one person who understood my pain and made it feel better, but she was as damaged as I am and mentally abused me, but I was also self destructive.

I push away everything that comes into myself till they can't stand me. Death just seems a way to end this cycle I'm trapped in.

 

[outrider567]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. Do you suffer from anhedonia like me ? I don't feel any pleasure in anything at all. The only things I feel are emotional pain.

Pain, loneliness, interminable all encompassing loss, sadness, just too many damn memories...

 

[𖣂𖣂𖣂.]

Im

I'm leaving because my life has not been anything but torture, rejection, and pain. I'm tired of enduring and persevering. This has brought me nothing but an empty existence. Love is a myth. Morals are a joke. And anything good is mocked in this world. My family abused and abandoned me. I had absolutely NO guidance in this life. I was just put here. Literally, JUST PUT HERE. I was bullied to no end in high school and even some in my adult life. I made very few human connections, but none lasted long enough to matter. The fondest memory of my mother is her beating me mercilessly for wearing a cartoon shirt to church. I had teachers who only insulted me. I don't know how I had so much optimism for life, even after all that. However, now, I can't wait to put myself to sleep.

What are your reasons?

I'm a failure and I'm going to make everyone proud that I'm gone. I never nattered