What are your reasons for being alive right now?

[Bigpink]

I currently am just waiting until the anniversary of my friends death. What keeps all of you around? Hoping to hear some inspiring stories and some thoughts. Thank you all for being here and being good people.

I have no idea why I'm still here, my life is nothing. It's my birthday next week and as always I'll be alone.

 

[flowersinbed_]

im waiting for my date, all of my relatives birthdays are very close to each other and i feel like it it would be extremely selfish to take my life before their birthdays. the date i picked is far enough from any events or plans that would hurt my close ones.

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

Alive while doing paperwork and figuring out the method.

 

[JUST PAIN]

I still have a lot of things to do and I don't want to disappoint them. Also, I don't have the courage to do CTB anymore. I'm afraid of failing like before.I am a coward.

 

[TheSeeker]

Nothing. But death is painful and scary. I can't find a method that seems good enough. Everything seems painful.

 

[Killmeonce]

Have two sisters who both have birthdays in March. They're both going away, and honestly I think they deserve it. Don't wanna ruin that in anyway. So April it is

 

[Thomas Rekowicz]

I want hug my lil step brother during Easter and publish all my poems than i can go with SN.

 

[Jisatsu]

Drug , alcohol and sh addiction... that and a partner

 

[Thomas Rekowicz]

And my friends will be marrying soon so i want party at his wedding reception and you have to know that wedding reception in Poland goes hard like a lot of alcohol dancing music and good food.

 

[LostLily]

1. Don't want to hurt people
2. It is not the right time
3. My SN package has been stuck in customs for over 2 months now

 

[thebelljarrr]

Nothing I just can't find my proper method yet. So damn depressed I'm trying to distract myself till I get the energy to find a way.

 

[Afterglow]

I'm scared

youre human, it's okay.

 

[Darkover]

government restrictions on effective suicide methods

 

[BlockHammer]

It's a combination of
1. Not sure if i already try everything to the fullest
2.there's a game/dlc that i still want to played
3. Finding a place to CTB
4. Haven't read a guide about CTB methode yet due to my procasination

 

[never.more]

my cat !! he is the sweetest thing, but he's old + has a bunch of medical issues, i'm worried he might get put down if i wasn't here

 

[Rabbit-]

I could list a number of things to try to justify myself, but in my case the true reason is simply selfish cowardice. Nothing more, nothing less.

 

[plan c]

Depression and anxiety. I'm too low on functions to carry out my ctb plan at the moment, and a voice is constantly telling me how I'm gonna fail that ctb attempt if I don't prepare for it properly. I'm gonna restore my mental health a little bit, just enough to kill myself.

i only have reasons to kill myself but no reasons to stay alive

I hope u feel better soon.

 

[brittlemoth]

2 main reasons:

Not wanting to inconvenience people in my personal life.

Staying alive as an act of resistance.

 

[LostInSilentHill]

Basically being dragged along by a partner.

and i guess cause of my cute cats.

 

[Loser1989]

What happened next? I arrive at the place I wanted to CTB and then it's nearly as if my brain had reset; I start thinking about all the stuff like what are my friends and family going to think? It's gonna cost them a lot to bury me, Who's gonna keep entertaining the friend group?

This is so beautiful, you're obviously aware of your presence in your friend group and that is a wonderful thing. But you're also aware of the cost of burial, which to me shows you're not quite ready to take that last step.

I hope you're doing well, you really seem like such a thoughtful person.

 

[DoomedLotus]

This is going to sound really stupid but I'm only staying alive to attend an anime convention one last time and then just waiting until I get what I need to get to finally CTB.

 

[HopingOnaMiracle]

My parents and friends.
But things have gotten so bad I stop caring even for them

 

[NeoN0va]

This is so beautiful, you're obviously aware of your presence in your friend group and that is a wonderful thing. But you're also aware of the cost of burial, which to me shows you're not quite ready to take that last step.

I hope you're doing well, you really seem like such a thoughtful person.

Thank you so much, it's nice to hear a few good words every now and then <333

Also, I'm doing better than I used to, but it's still not the place I want to be in right now, there's still stuff to change or upgrade.

 

[DarknessWave]

Food and family

 

[livingonlytodie]

1. My boyfriend
2. Ariana grande's music
3. Perfume & lotion that smell like cake

 

[sadidiot0328]

someone needs to take care of my cats and dog.

 

[hereornot]

I don't have one

 

[honestmind]

Procrastination, honestly. I've never been around guns and always think about how out of place I'll feel in a gun store. Not too sure how or if I'll be able to test shooting the gun before CTB'ing which stretches the timeline to a lot longer than I'd like. Tomorrow I'm going to go take a look at the shop hopefully.

 

[marcel-the-mime]

Not having something easy available to die. I have been researching for a while and I don't find s secure method that wouldn't give me problems with authorities while sourcing. I just want to find a way to do it but I always find it nearly impossible. I just wish to someday get something in my hands that would me allow to go without pain and collateral damages.

 

[MrBrownUpsideD]

Just waiting for my life insurance policy to reach 2 years, which will be in May. After that it's just waiting for an uneventful month, so probably July. I have no other reasons.

I've read that if suspicion of premeditated insurance claims is too strong (like CTB after 2 years on the dot if this happens to be some kind of cut-off date), they might be able to deny the insurance. But you've probably considered this already