Discussion What are your methods of choice and why?

[windingdown]

My method is poisoning by pong seeds (a plant). I've read everything I can get my hands on about it. The main symptoms are nausea and vomiting, and death should follow within 3-6 hours. I'll have an anti-emetic so hopefully it won't be very painful. Not everyone dies, but toxicology reports don't distinguish whether people did things 'right' (e.g. how many, grind up seeds, probably no one takes an anti-emetic which can also empty your stomach faster).

As far as poisoning goes, the success rate is high - 16-50%, according to toxicology reports.

I'm hoping I can just climb into bed and feel like I have the flu for a few hours till my heart stops. It just slows till it stops beating, nothing manic.

If that doesn't work, I will consider iron poisoning, partial suspension hanging, and may just be stubborn and become despondent & do VSED. Maybe they would just let me if I became disabled from prior attempts. They couldn't keep me on a feeding tube forever.

 

[Duqu]

I am stuck between several options:

SN: I have it, and the anti-emetics (Metroclopramide) though am not sure what to take as an antacid. That's my hiccup there.

OD on various opioids I have stacked up from when I took different ones (mostly methadone and oxycodone - I don't have a tolerance to those since it's been years since I took them but I could also have a month's supply of morphine (Immediate Release not the slow release type) and dilaudid which I DO have tolerances to as I take them daily if I CTB on the day I fill the rx's), plus benzo's I have stacked (a little xanax, a lot of klonopin - which I have a slight tolerance to as I take 2mg daily for my epilepsy but I have a LOT), plus the anti-emetic I have once again (I have Zofran - tons of it - and bought Metoclopramide on ebay and have 20 10mg tablets), and I DO have a PPI (antacid) but I don't know if a PPI is what you want (Omeprazole) and have plenty of that.

I can take a handful of pills with just a sip of water; I take 40+ pills in a day just in an average day so I'm not worried about being able to take all the pills. I'm worried about the SN being too salty; I have a really sensitive gag reflex (yaaay eating disorders!).

ETA I HAVE considered doing the OD rectally so I can't vomit it up but I'm afraid of having a panic attack dealing with stuff around that part of my body having PTSD and such.

So yeah. I want this to be foolproof.

 

[J F]

What is your method of choice? What I'm looking for is one where I can't go back. Say, once I drink X or do X, I am good to go. The number one thing that frightens me is brain damage from a failed attempt. Then, I might not be able to attempt again. So I just want a sure fire way to go. I saw a method where the guy made a helmet with shotgun shells in it, maybe that will have to be what I end up doing.

So I'm wondering, which method have you picked do you believe will NOT fail?

7.2g of Propranolol and 140mg of mtc as an anti emetic and alcohol. The Propranolol will lower my blood pressure to such dangerous levels that I go into cardiac arrest, the mtc is so I don't throw it all up and the alcohol acts as a further cns depressant to make sure I get nice and drowsy.
Tried this once before but before I could swallow the pills I was caught and admitted involuntarily to a psych ward. They told me it would have worked if I went through with it. Hospital also called the docs and pharmacists who supplied me this stuff to never do it again. These two things woke me up to how effective this could be. If a psych hospital was scared of me getting this stuff again then it must work for ctb right? And here I am having it again. From different sources than before of course.

 

[Ashpac]

I am stuck between several options:

SN: I have it, and the anti-emetics (Metroclopramide) though am not sure what to take as an antacid. That's my hiccup there.

OD on various opioids I have stacked up from when I took different ones (mostly methadone and oxycodone - I don't have a tolerance to those since it's been years since I took them but I could also have a month's supply of morphine (Immediate Release not the slow release type) and dilaudid which I DO have tolerances to as I take them daily if I CTB on the day I fill the rx's), plus benzo's I have stacked (a little xanax, a lot of klonopin - which I have a slight tolerance to as I take 2mg daily for my epilepsy but I have a LOT), plus the anti-emetic I have once again (I have Zofran - tons of it - and bought Metoclopramide on ebay and have 20 10mg tablets), and I DO have a PPI (antacid) but I don't know if a PPI is what you want (Omeprazole) and have plenty of that.

I can take a handful of pills with just a sip of water; I take 40+ pills in a day just in an average day so I'm not worried about being able to take all the pills. I'm worried about the SN being too salty; I have a really sensitive gag reflex (yaaay eating disorders!).

ETA I HAVE considered doing the OD rectally so I can't vomit it up but I'm afraid of having a panic attack dealing with stuff around that part of my body having PTSD and such.

So yeah. I want this to be foolproof.

Get taganet from amazon. I will be getting this for when I do my SN method.

 

[Jameson]

N is Nembutal I believe.

Thank you.

 

[Jameson]

I am stuck between several options:

SN: I have it, and the anti-emetics (Metroclopramide) though am not sure what to take as an antacid. That's my hiccup there.

OD on various opioids I have stacked up from when I took different ones (mostly methadone and oxycodone - I don't have a tolerance to those since it's been years since I took them but I could also have a month's supply of morphine (Immediate Release not the slow release type) and dilaudid which I DO have tolerances to as I take them daily if I CTB on the day I fill the rx's), plus benzo's I have stacked (a little xanax, a lot of klonopin - which I have a slight tolerance to as I take 2mg daily for my epilepsy but I have a LOT), plus the anti-emetic I have once again (I have Zofran - tons of it - and bought Metoclopramide on ebay and have 20 10mg tablets), and I DO have a PPI (antacid) but I don't know if a PPI is what you want (Omeprazole) and have plenty of that.

I can take a handful of pills with just a sip of water; I take 40+ pills in a day just in an average day so I'm not worried about being able to take all the pills. I'm worried about the SN being too salty; I have a really sensitive gag reflex (yaaay eating disorders!).

ETA I HAVE considered doing the OD rectally so I can't vomit it up but I'm afraid of having a panic attack dealing with stuff around that part of my body having PTSD and such.

So yeah. I want this to be foolproof.

I have virtually the same meds without the dilly's. Which by the way is a opioid so you do have tolerance. But I was thinking of grinding up at least half my oxys and mixing with water and plugging it also. Which like you say should by pass the vomiting. I have promethezine for nausea but have been told that is not the anti emetic that I need. I have benzos and I was thinking 2 half pints whiskey as I live it and was a alcoholic

 

[MEoDP]

It'll probably be a long while before the opportunity will be available to me(and I'm not yet actively planning to CTB,I'm just seeing how my life goes. if it ends up going well,like I hope,I'll continue living. If not,I want my back-up options),but my main method of choice is going to be overdosing on whatever lethal drug that could give me a peaceful exit. Right now,the main ones I could think of is either N or a powerful Opiate. (Heroin or Fentanyl) If I choose the latter option,I'd snort the stuff. (I know IV is the more guaranteed method,but I have no knowledge of how to inject properly and I'm so clumsy,I'll probably screw shit up if I tried without instruction/help.)

That's not to say that I'm not open to other relatively painless methods(why else would I join this website?),as I'm aware that things/circumstances do not always go to plan(If that were the case,we wouldn't need to CTB)and we will not always have the ideal options available to us.

 

[Jameson]

It'll probably be a long while before the opportunity will be available to me(and I'm not yet actively planning to CTB,I'm just seeing how my life goes. if it ends up going well,like I hope,I'll continue living. If not,I want my back-up options),but my main method of choice is going to be overdosing on whatever lethal drug that could give me a peaceful exit. Right now,the main ones I could think of is either N or a powerful Opiate. (Heroin or Fentanyl) If I choose the latter option,I'd snort the stuff. (I know IV is the more guaranteed method,but I have no knowledge of how to inject properly and I'm so clumsy,I'll probably screw shit up if I tried without instruction/help.)

That's not to say that I'm not open to other relatively painless methods(why else would I join this website?),as I'm aware that things/circumstances do not always go to plan(If that were the case,we wouldn't need to CTB)and we will not always have the ideal options available to us.

I do not think I could have said it better myself. That is my thinking almost exact. I started studying methods several years ago. Even when things were great I would still do some searching, I've just never wanted to leave a mess for someone to clean up, or have a family member find me that way. If they are anything like me , I cannot unsee something I've seen. It just never goes away. Even in my army days I've never wanted to see the shit we saw. I don't see how some people get used to it. I once ran over a guy with 6 yes SIX locomotives. ( when I worked for CSX Railroad). Anyway where we worked out of there were sand piles everywhere on the tracks and myself and another we're taking the engines to the main yard and this dude walked out of the bar and decided to lay down on the tracks and go to sleep. So here we come at 40 mph and I see him at the last moment thinking he was a pile of sand, you can stop engines pretty quickly. We had no cars just engines. But we still ran him over. I can still here him rolling underneath. It's like running over something on the highway in your car and hear that sound of rolling branches or whatever. I stopped called the dispatcher and didnt move but my brakeman the hero said " I gotta go check on him. I'm a part time EMT). I said you do not want to go back there, trust me there are people trained for that. But he says he has a duty to go blah blah blah and So he goes back and really couldn't even render aid because he was so fucked up. He comes back to the engine sits down and won't talk. I had to call in relief for him. And he needed therapy to help with the trauma he had seen. That's my reason for wanting a peaceful method.
By the way the dude survived!!! minus an arm ,leg, hand , huge hole in his head , and the arm wasn't cut off, it was pulled off and somehow inserted in his back. But he lived and sued the railroad company and received a settlement. He received a settlement for being drunk and laying down on the tracks.

 

[MEoDP]

I do not think I could have said it better myself. That is my thinking almost exact. I started studying methods several years ago. Even when things were great I would still do some searching, I've just never wanted to leave a mess for someone to clean up, or have a family member find me that way. If they are anything like me , I cannot unsee something I've seen. It just never goes away. Even in my army days I've never wanted to see the shit we saw. I don't see how some people get used to it. I once ran over a guy with 6 yes SIX locomotives. ( when I worked for CSX Railroad). Anyway where we worked out of there were sand piles everywhere on the tracks and myself and another we're taking the engines to the main yard and this dude walked out of the bar and decided to lay down on the tracks and go to sleep. So here we come at 40 mph and I see him at the last moment thinking he was a pile of sand, you can stop engines pretty quickly. We had no cars just engines. But we still ran him over. I can still here him rolling underneath. It's like running over something on the highway in your car and hear that sound of rolling branches or whatever. I stopped called the dispatcher and didnt move but my brakeman the hero said " I gotta go check on him. I'm a part time EMT). I said you do not want to go back there, trust me there are people trained for that. But he says he has a duty to go blah blah blah and So he goes back and really couldn't even render aid because he was so fucked up. He comes back to the engine sits down and won't talk. I had to call in relief for him. And he needed therapy to help with the trauma he had seen. That's my reason for wanting a peaceful method.
By the way the dude survived!!! minus an arm ,leg, hand , huge hole in his head , and the arm wasn't cut off, it was pulled off and somehow inserted in his back. But he lived and sued the railroad company and received a settlement. He received a settlement for being drunk and laying down on the tracks.

Sorry you went through all of that. I know that Violence Professionals(or people who have lifestyles prone to violence)experience horrifying stuff that,thankfully,the vast majority of the world will never experience themselves. (Although this leads to a lot of ignorant opinion from the masses. i.e People who think you can stop a dedicated knife attacker by "shooting them in the leg.")

Ever heard of Rory Miller? He's a former violence professional(Corrections officer,SWAT,and variety kind of LEO work that I can't recall right now. Needless to say,he's had hundreds of encounters with the most depraved evil humanity has to offer)who is now one of the most insightful/legit self-defense instructors out there. I've read a few of his books myself,very insightful indeed.

My own experience with violence is,thankfully,limited(I didn't see fucked up shit like you described)but I'm definitely no stranger to it.

If I ever had to CTB however,I'm not sure how I'd do it while being as considerate to my family as possible. I'm an introvert who spends almost all his time indoors. I'd look suspicious if I tried going somewhere else to do the deed.

Then again,I do plan to become a little more extroverted in the future,explore a variety of different hobbies and maybe make friends in the process,so my options should widen by then. the only real problem is if I fail college and had to find a way to do myself in without letting my family get traumatized by the sight of my corpse.

 

[Duqu]

Get taganet from amazon. I will be getting this for when I do my SN method.

Thank you, that is very helpful.

 

[livingisloathing]

Hanging, I find it near painless

 

[Emilie]

Jumping from a height - the specific location is a headland above a beach near where I grew up. I don't think I would be able to do something like cutting myself.

 

[Duqu]

I have virtually the same meds without the dilly's. Which by the way is a opioid so you do have tolerance. But I was thinking of grinding up at least half my oxys and mixing with water and plugging it also. Which like you say should by pass the vomiting. I have promethezine for nausea but have been told that is not the anti emetic that I need. I have benzos and I was thinking 2 half pints whiskey as I live it and was a alcoholic

What's a "dilly?" And someone recommended an antacid in this thread that I just bought on amazon and need to ask dosage (if I decide to try orally which I'm unsure about still, but want to have it as backup). I bought one box Tagamet 200mg/pill 30 pills for $14.55.

 

[Duqu]

Get taganet from amazon. I will be getting this for when I do my SN method.

Thanks! How much of it should I take and when? I know the handbook says to take your antiemetics 2 days prior then one hour prior to taking the SN, but what about the antacid? I ordered a box of 30 200mg tablets that should be plenty no? Only $14.55!

 

[ningaman151]

What is your method of choice? What I'm looking for is one where I can't go back. Say, once I drink X or do X, I am good to go. The number one thing that frightens me is brain damage from a failed attempt. Then, I might not be able to attempt again. So I just want a sure fire way to go. I saw a method where the guy made a helmet with shotgun shells in it, maybe that will have to be what I end up doing.

So I'm wondering, which method have you picked do you believe will NOT fail?

Helmet with shotgun shells sounds like the stupidest idea. You need a gun barrel to achieve a half decent muzzle velocity.

 

[Iscrewupeverything]

1. Pentobarbital, 2. Metoclopramide, 3. Zofran, 4. etizolam, 5. prazosin, 6. flubromazolam

2 and 3 would be taken beforehand to prevent vomiting, 4 and 5 as well, but at a later time, to prevent anxiety/fear/apprehension/avoidance, 1 and 6 would be taken together. I'm also going to use miracle fruit/berry to counteract the unearthly bitter taste, as well as lidocaine spray. I've heard people remark that it has a distinct taste of being "dangerous", and I'm hypersensitive to bitter tastes as well as my fear response being elevated.

2 and 3 are powerful anti-emetics, they simply prevent you from vomiting the substances you take orally to end your life. Prozasin is a medication PoC mentioned a while back. It's used for PTSD and counteracts the effects of norepinephrine. I'm hoping that when combined with a strong benzo it will eliminate the fear response, the fear of death being the strongest innate biological instinct. Can't spread your genes if you're dead.

 

[Ashpac]

Thanks! How much of it should I take and when? I know the handbook says to take your antiemetics 2 days prior then one hour prior to taking the SN, but what about the antacid? I ordered a box of 30 200mg tablets that should be plenty no? Only $14.55!

800 mg. thats what the word on the street is :)

 

[Deadinside24]

What is your method of choice? What I'm looking for is one where I can't go back. Say, once I drink X or do X, I am good to go. The number one thing that frightens me is brain damage from a failed attempt. Then, I might not be able to attempt again. So I just want a sure fire way to go. I saw a method where the guy made a helmet with shotgun shells in it, maybe that will have to be what I end up doing.

So I'm wondering, which method have you picked do you believe will NOT fail?

Sodium azide. Reliable, rather quick and no known antidote.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Yew poisoning, of course. Not only is it supposed to be peaceful, but should you fail, you make full recovery. This tree also has some mythical qualities to it.

 

[Chris]

Gram of heroin, but do a little first so I'm comfortable first

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Sodium azide. Reliable, rather quick and no known antidote.

Looks like somebody's got a little bit of homework..

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I have N and also enough Amitriptyline as a backup...

Your profile sort of pisses me off

 

[IRIYAMA]

Your profile sort of pisses me off

Are you triggered ?? Do you need a safe space and a puppy to pat ??

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Gunshot through the mouth, hanging, or jumping are the only three I would consider. Other methods are risky and leave too much to chance if you ask me. I'm not about to fuck with some mumbo jumbo plant, poison or substance when it comes down to it.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Are you triggered ?? Do you need a safe space and a puppy to pat ??

hugs please

 

[Swisher]

1. Pentobarbital, 2. Metoclopramide, 3. Zofran, 4. etizolam, 5. prazosin, 6. flubromazolam

2 and 3 would be taken beforehand to prevent vomiting, 4 and 5 as well, but at a later time, to prevent anxiety/fear/apprehension/avoidance, 1 and 6 would be taken together. I'm also going to use miracle fruit/berry to counteract the unearthly bitter taste, as well as lidocaine spray. I've heard people remark that it has a distinct taste of being "dangerous", and I'm hypersensitive to bitter tastes as well as my fear response being elevated.

2 and 3 are powerful anti-emetics, they simply prevent you from vomiting the substances you take orally to end your life. Prozasin is a medication PoC mentioned a while back. It's used for PTSD and counteracts the effects of norepinephrine. I'm hoping that when combined with a strong benzo it will eliminate the fear response, the fear of death being the strongest innate biological instinct. Can't spread your genes if you're dead.

800 mg. thats what the word on the street is :)

800mg of What? I just got *?butalbital but I suppose that's completely different or won't work as well? Valium, Zofran ther kind under your tongue...if it doesn't touch the back part If your tongue, methadone, amitriptyline, and clonidine....all New thanks to my hospital visit two days ago. My heart was pounding...I was manic....couldn't tell...all those must work now???

 

[Ashpac]

800mg of What? I just got *?butalbital but I suppose that's completely different or won't work as well? Valium, Zofran ther kind under your tongue...if it doesn't touch the back part If your tongue, methadone, amitriptyline, and clonidine....all New thanks to my hospital visit two days ago. My heart was pounding...I was manic....couldn't tell...all those must work now???

I was talking to Doqu. 800mg of Taganet for the SN method.

 

[ESPOIR]

Hello, I just ordered SN, can we replace TAGAMET with esomeprazole?

 

[Swisher]

Hello, I just ordered SN, can we replace TAGAMET with esomeprazole?

I don't know why...someone mentioned another?? Or maybe that was nausea, but I read only Tagament - cimetidine & ordered it OTC thru my pharmacy for $8

 

[Swisher]

I was talking to Doqu. 800mg of Taganet for the SN method.

Sorry. just that " the amitriptyline cocktail" kept saying "cimetidine"... Tagament only. I ordered it OCT and don't really know the receptor reasoning blah blah