Discussion What are your life aspirations if you were not going to ctb?

[SoulofSteel]

Get married. Buy a house. Have children.

Same

 

[gbi2]

Before I started having problems I wanted to start an anti bullying website that did more to help people than the current ones do, as a lot of their advice is rubbish. I can barely help myself now though so I'd never be able to provide continuing help to others.
I also had an idea that I couldn't go into too much as it is partially done and known but it would have provided a lot of benefit to certain groups of people and possibly gov. and universities
I also would have liked to become a successful sports trader. I did ok with small stakes but lost my job before I could build a bankroll big enough to start earning the equivalent to a daily take home from a job.

 

[XSmas]

I want to leave my shitty country and live in japan. Japan seems like an utopia for introvert like me. But i can't even graduate from university this year, let alone finding job in japan. so it will be a hard, long journey for me to achieve it.

 

[_RustyLeaf321]

Honestly, I had nothing going for me even before I found this website and begun my research into hanging and then SN. I seriously had no aspirations to become anything in life, be it a lawyer or doctor or architect like some want for themselves. So nothing would've changed if I were not going to ctb. I was helping my older brother with his own pursuits which, to no surprise, didn't end up going anywhere remotely in the direction that was wanted due to circumstances but other than that, It felt like my life was already headed downhill with having lost a few friendships I didn't want to lose, constantly being disappointed and frustrated by life, always coming up short and eventually being left behind as per usual, not to mention the health problems I've got as well as the utter disinterest I have in life with a few minor enjoyments but they just don't make up for it as I wanted.

Sorry for the off-topic,but could you tell me where can i find more infos about SN and how to do it pls?

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Sorry for the off-topic,but could you tell me where can i find more infos about SN and how to do it pls?

What kind of info are you looking?
General info of how the method works or how the biology behind Methomoglobinemia works?

 

[Green_leaf]

My dreams changed with my age-

*Becoming Scientist

*Clearing UPSC IAS exam. Becoming district magistrate.

*Join CBI

*Complete annihilation of all life form.

*now-Just kill myself peacefully.

Never came across something so relatable.

Please PM if you are still dreaming of complete annihilation of human race (still love plants and animals).

 

[King Ashoka]

Never came across something so relatable.

Please PM if you are still dreaming of complete annihilation of human race (still love plants and animals).

Sure bro.

 

[greebo6]

For me its too late to have any now anyway.

 

[loopdaloop]

immigrate somewhere peaceful and raise an animal farm by myself, maybe have a dog as a best buddy who will help with chores

 

[Lupgevif]

I am going to CTB exactly because I know I won't be able to fulfill such aspirations. There would be nothing else if I wasn't going to CTB.

 

[SpiritualDeath]

Be a better physicist than Inmendham I guess (lol)

 

[cemetorium]

I really wanted to be a doctor when I was younger, but then my mental illness developed and I became completely dysfunctional for a lot of my teenage and young adult years and that dream went down the drain. Nowadays I don't have much of an aspiration or dream. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life if I decide/manage to recover.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

Start a family. But unfortunately you can't do that when 1) you're completely incapable of doing anything besides a basic wage slave job and 2) physically unattractive

 

[figurehead]

It's not an aspiration, but anyway main thing for me would be seeing my daughter having the all clear for the cancer she had.

When I was younger, all I wanted was to be an academic, write books, teach. But that didn't work out. My pregnancy without meds drove me completely off the rails. I wanted to die, I wanted the baby to die. There goes the romanticism of being married with children. Some 14 years went on and my main wish is that my child gets an all clear of the cancer she had.


I see here that getting married and have a kid etc often becomes a reason to CBT. Don't take me wrong I don't mean that it's not a valid reason. But it's
funny how death was MY death until my child was dealing with it. I lost the permission to flirt with it, although it still hovering around me.

 

[Oguzok]

I honestly don't know... This is one of the reasons why I want to ctb. I never even dreamed of anything as a child because from the age of 12 I didn't plan to live long. So I don't even have dreams...

 

[HopeisjustaPoison]

I want to become a parent. To raise a child - all the good and heartache that comes with. I know I won't be perfect, but I have a lot of experience and knowledge.

However, I could never single parent. When my mental health gets bad, I can't function well. So I would need a partner to trust said child with so I can do self-care to recover.

That requires finding someone who I trust, who also wants a child/family, who is okay with my personal weaknesses and my multiple mental health issues.

So instead I will live my days alone until I find the means and courage to buy a gun and blow my brainstem out.

 

[hopelessoceanic25]

Become a nurse. Travel the world.

 

[hellispink]

I wanted to be a writer, a poet specifically . I wanted to write so many books. Had a big house with a big library inside. And earn money from writing. I would still ctb by 40-50 as i dont see a point on growing older and being a bothersome to others. I dont like children and would never marry. Very unrealistic to live life this way given society and reality we live in.