Discussion What are you waiting for?

[TheBlackSwordsman]

Nothing is stopping me, except to continue to morally support my brother who has only a few months left, as he just told me his lung tumor is back to its original size, and his lymph nodes are enlarged again

Your brother could try rso(Rick Simpson oil) try Mike wise group on Facebook or UK rso group if in Europe. Also the natural health library group has plenty of suggestions for various illnesses.

 

[MatthewV3]

For D's new email adress.

 

[TheBlackSwordsman]

I don't want to hurt my family and I'm a coward. I've been a coward my entire life.

 

[that_guy2611]

For D's new email adress.

based also same.

 

[y'ffre]

There is a solution for me to end my all pain. I am just waiting to see its full effects.
If that won't work, I will end my life with "peace".

 

[gimzero]

Where i live all ctb are with hanging method and i try it years ago and it was imposibile for me.

 

[outrider567]

Your brother could try rso(Rick Simpson oil) try Mike wise group on Facebook or UK rso group if in Europe. Also the natural health library group has plenty of suggestions for various illnesses.

Appreciate the suggestion but only preliminary studies in animals show any benefit regarding RSO

 

[NumbItAll]

I'm waiting for a handy "opt out" button in the next Universe update. I want it to instantly and completely erase my existence from ever having happened.

 

[TheBlackSwordsman]

Appreciate the suggestion but only preliminary studies in animals show any benefit regarding RSO

I'd say check out the groups and read the posts/articles for yourself. Rso isn't the only option being suggested by people there and some do conventional treatments alongside the other options. Best wishes to your brother.

 

[outrider567]

I'd say check out the groups and read the posts/articles for yourself. Rso isn't the only option being suggested by people there and some do conventional treatments alongside the other options. Best wishes to your brother.

ok thx

 

[rhysion]

waiting for my mother to pass, mainly. her health is poor and ive already lost my grandmother (her mother) and my father this year, and even though we had rough times she doesn't deserve to grieve for all of us in a year, especially as i'm an only child. everything else keeping me here is variable depending on how much pain i'm in, how much ptsd is kicking my butt at the moment, and if there's any scraps of hope the future will get better, even slightly to outweigh everything else.

 

[neonzebra]

- My mother just passed away and I want my brother to be able to grieve and get over that before I do anything that will disturb him more.
- I want to get rid of some of my belongings so no one has to go through it.
- I want to try DMT before I die.
- I'm worried about what will happen to my cat.

 

[JayLa16]

Failed with CO, ordered N but it was seized by customs, have SN but am scared of that method. Hoping to find a new N source soon.

 

[Sick of it all]

I'm waiting for my SI to say, "fuck this"

 

[literallydonee]

Failed with CO, ordered N but it was seized by customs, have SN but am scared of that method. Hoping to find a new N source soon.

why scared of SN?? It has high scores in reliability and peacefulness.

 

[JayLa16]

why scared of SN?? It has high scores in reliability and peacefulness.

I don't know really...I've read some accounts on here that sounded less than peaceful. I know it's a poison, and that no death is a walk in the park...but something about it scares me and I'm afraid I'd end up calling for help while waiting to pass out...I feel there's much less of a chance of that with N.

 

[SadPsych]

My failed attempts are stopping me. I tried to hang myself so many times yesterday. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong.

Yeah same here. I've been trying partial, but the pressure that builds up in my head makes me feel like my brain is going to explode. It's very painful. I must be doing something wrong

 

[StolenLife]

I'm waiting for my family to loosen up their grip a little so I can go to the bridge without suspicion.

 

[On Replay]

Whats stopping you from ctb? Or getting whatever it is that you want?
I'm trying to figure out myself why I haven't ctb yet, since its all I think about and all I want. I don't see a future, and I don't think I have any hope or am selfless enough to stay alive just for the sake of others. And I don't think I'm scared of surviving either, my plan is pretty solid.
I'm hoping you guys can offer some insight from your own personal experiences, or just general advice to help me figure whats stopping me from finally getting some peace from all the suffering.

Only two factors for me

1. Pain
2. Uncertainty

I've grown up in the church and I guess you can say I'm struggling in my faith. I still believe… so the uncertainty of not knowing where I'd go. Not being confident of being accepted for being a complete failure in life & giving up.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

Only two factors for me

1. Pain
2. Uncertainty

I've grown up in the church and I guess you can say I'm struggling in my faith. I still believe… so the uncertainty of not knowing where I'd go. Not being confident of being accepted for being a complete failure in life & giving up.

If you're struggling with your faith, this is the worse place to be.

 

[ManicPanic2018]

My flat to myself. I've got the SN, Benzos, Antiemetics and enough weed to keep me content. Would have gone tonight had I not been interrupted. Hoping ill have my flat back within the next week or two. Until the meantime, im enjoying my remaining time with my family and will be taking more time off work until I ctb.

Nerves aren't a thing keeping be back. If I can leave in the comfort of my own flat, in my room, on my own terms, ill be glad to be finally going home.

 

[Hope:-)]

Bravery, although I don't think that's coming, so mostly just finding somewhere to do it.

 

[akirat9]

sure sn not discomfort

 

[Meineendscheidung]

Bin aus Deutschland Ich habe 3x SN bestellt 2x in europa(Polen und Ukraine) 1x in Kanada.
Warte auf die Lieferung die ankommt.

 

[Roberto]

Parents passing will be my big turning point. They don't deserve a grieving process over me.

My condition is :
- my parents don't deserve any pain
- my cats should have passed away, so they don't have any trouble in meeting other parents/place. They are already 15 & 12 years old.

I wish all of them live more than me with all my heart, but it is to give them trouble. I can't ...

 

[SparkleWater]

mostly parents. Also maybe some dumb tiny hope that life will maybe get better and i wont be stuck in this loop of revocovering and relapsing for the rest of my life

 

[Final-push123]

All my close relatives are already dead so family not a issue with me. I guess for me mainly because my life is alright. I have a good job, friends. It mainly climate change that make me wanna crb, knowing that there is nothing I can do once things really hit the fan. there will be wars rumors of wars, famines, deadly heat waves, etc

Life will not be worth living once things really kick off so while things are some what stable I want to live out one more year. Do everything that I can do next year then in early 2024, ctb

 

[spectraltease]

Whats stopping you from ctb? Or getting whatever it is that you want?
I'm trying to figure out myself why I haven't ctb yet, since its all I think about and all I want. I don't see a future, and I don't think I have any hope or am selfless enough to stay alive just for the sake of others. And I don't think I'm scared of surviving either, my plan is pretty solid.
I'm hoping you guys can offer some insight from your own personal experiences, or just general advice to help me figure whats stopping me from finally getting some peace from all the suffering.

I plan to go in January or February. The only thing that holds me that its too early for me. I need time to plan it and leave clean. I always dreamed about a good life, and than I saw that the only freedom i can get is outta suicide. So I just need a lil time and ill be gone.

 

[Timeless]

Studying if phenobarbital is also an good option , or if I should go with either fentanyl (pure powder) or Isotonitazene, or good old oxycodon with alot of benzo's. I aqaired enough benzo's for 10 months daily use(about 330+ doses at once). So just the opiod(s) now. I'm now waiting on some confirmation of succes about Isotonitazene LD100/LD50. But I'll choose to for a much higher dose cause of tolerance to oxycodon / opiates I need them daily for my chronic pain.

Then I'll wait for the right date

 

[KQuotientW]

I've been waiting for the rainy weather to have a break so I can light charcoal outside then bring it inside.

I was sent, involuntarily, to a psych ward for the first time in my life, fairly recently, which delayed my plans, and I managed to convince them that I was in no danger of suicide. They released me. However, no one noticed all the bags of charcoal I have, before I was taken to the hospital for a psych evaluation.

Hoping to CTB tonight or tomorrow night. I assume no one will notice me missing for some time and the weather is starting to warm up. I'm in Victoria, Australia.