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cookiencream

cookiencream

Phantom tripple crown
Jul 26, 2025
100
I don't think anything I could say would truly lessen the blow of all this, but the least I can do is explain myself. For a very, very long time I've struggled with feeling empty and depressed. Even when my life improved or the situation changed, the symptoms never went away they only became less at times. I suspect I may have a chronic mental illness of sorts, but I'll never truly know. Please know that this is a decision I carefully thought out. To those who care about me, there was nothing you could have done. It wasn't a lack of love or support it's just how I've been feeling. And I've been feeling this way for a long time. In fact, the reason I held out so long was due to those I hold dear but recently I realized I can't use another person as my will to live. Human relationships are temporary and end one way or another, often painfully. I can pour my soul into making them last but there's never a guarantee. Again, this is just an expression of my limits as a person. It's not anyone's fault. Only mine. My biggest regret was telling some people about my previous attempt. I just made the suffering worse for you guys. I'm really really sorry. Please live your lives as if I never existed.



This is the rough draft. I really don't know what to put....I plan on posting it through my socials as individual messages may be...challenging.
 
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Saponification

Saponification

A piece of nothing
Jun 27, 2024
123
It's a good suicide note, I think. You are doing your best to lessen the pain of your loved ones by clearly explaining that it wasn't their fault, and your reasons for why you made that choice.
 
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cookiencream

cookiencream

Phantom tripple crown
Jul 26, 2025
100
It's a good suicide note, I think. You are doing your best to lessen the pain of your loved ones by clearly explaining that it wasn't their fault, and your reasons for why you made that choice.
Idk if I explained it well enough. I mean I don't think I can. The people around me would never understand
 
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brokenspirited

brokenspirited

Great Mage
May 20, 2025
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moonlightbeach

moonlightbeach

Member
Jul 14, 2025
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your note is good but people are still gonna feel guilty and wonder why you did it, it's just how it is
you could just post a story with a link to a https://zerobin.net/
 
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bananaolympus

bananaolympus

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Dec 12, 2024
346
Unfortunately it will still hurt your people, the best you can do is to explain your reasons, your note is good but it will take a lot of time for them to accept it but the note at least will bring them closure
 
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