Discussion What are you suffering from? (Poll)

[JadedBeing]

Most of my life i suffered from depression and ctb thoughts. I had my first panic attack 5 years ago which was so intense it fucked up my whole Organs and since then i feel pain in my stomach/heart area. Sometimes i can ignore it, but sometimes it's so intense it makes we want to look for quick ways to end it all.
I've been to at least 10 different doctors, chiropractors, and massage therapists, and I've also tried acupuncture, muscle relaxers, Yoga and Meditation. Nothing helped me.

it really just takes chronic pain for life to be a total pointless drag. This shit really makes me miserable. Even without it i didn't wanna live, but now it doesn't make sense to be here anymore.

It's either trying opiods or ctb. Or both.

 

[darksouls]

both

 

[Hime]

Suffering from a personality disorder, dissociative disorder, and a recent and severe case of trigger finger in my dominant hand. I've never felt more disabled/incapable in my life because of this. I've had the same thoughts as you, doing opioids to null the pain/ctb, but I don't know...

 

[kuroshimi]

Mainly depression and some kind of anxiety.

 

[whywere]

I have had mental health issues from day one.

In April 2015, was in a VERY nasty car crash, car crash NOT my fault, just wrong place at the wrong time, and it broke my sternum, and it tore all the nerves out of my right ear, I am deaf in it now and the worst part was that part of my spinal cord was torn from the back base of my brain. So now I have 24/7 chronic pain, and it is rough.

I have been on Hydromorphone for 10 years and without it, I highly doubt that I would be here. I detest taking drugs, HOWEVER sitting in the sunshine and enjoying listening to the ocean waves crash onto the shore is wonderous.

Also, with massive depression and the chronic pain, it is either drugs or ctb. I have tired almost every type of physical therapy that there is. Pool, machines, many sessions and it is what it is, I guess.

To everyone here, lots of hugs, the knowledge that each and every soul here is a wonderful part of a large family here, no matter wherever each soul's journey takes them.

Walter

 

[JadedBeing]

I have had mental health issues from day one.

In April 2015, was in a VERY nasty car crash, car crash NOT my fault, just wrong place at the wrong time, and it broke my sternum, and it tore all the nerves out of my right ear, I am deaf in it now and the worst part was that part of my spinal cord was torn from the back base of my brain. So now I have 24/7 chronic pain, and it is rough.

I have been on Hydromorphone for 10 years and without it, I highly doubt that I would be here. I detest taking drugs, HOWEVER sitting in the sunshine and enjoying listening to the ocean waves crash onto the shore is wonderous.

Also, with massive depression and the chronic pain, it is either drugs or ctb. I have tired almost every type of physical therapy that there is. Pool, machines, many sessions and it is what it is, I guess.

To everyone here, lots of hugs, the knowledge that each and every soul here is a wonderful part of a large family here, no matter wherever each soul's journey takes them.

Walter

Dann man, respect that you stood strong for so long. Your story sounds horrible but atleast you found something that makes it more bearable. Maybe i need some meds too, can't do it anymore if i have to live with this pain for the rest of my life.

 

[Hime]

I have had mental health issues from day one.

In April 2015, was in a VERY nasty car crash, car crash NOT my fault, just wrong place at the wrong time, and it broke my sternum, and it tore all the nerves out of my right ear, I am deaf in it now and the worst part was that part of my spinal cord was torn from the back base of my brain. So now I have 24/7 chronic pain, and it is rough.

I have been on Hydromorphone for 10 years and without it, I highly doubt that I would be here. I detest taking drugs, HOWEVER sitting in the sunshine and enjoying listening to the ocean waves crash onto the shore is wonderous.

Also, with massive depression and the chronic pain, it is either drugs or ctb. I have tired almost every type of physical therapy that there is. Pool, machines, many sessions and it is what it is, I guess.

To everyone here, lots of hugs, the knowledge that each and every soul here is a wonderful part of a large family here, no matter wherever each soul's journey takes them.

Walter

Thank you for writing this, made me tear up . I'm sending even more hugs to you, here's hoping that we invent some new kind of physical therapy for you!

 

[underairpressure]

Most of my suffering is mental, but about a year ago I started having health issues that still plague me. So it's kind of both now, and to top it off those health issues have affected my ability to do the things that have kept me alive all this time. I tell myself that maybe someday the health issues will magically vanish, but I know deep down I'm just deluding myself

 

[X-sanguinate86]

Both.

 

[FuneralCry]

My pain is as a result of this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake, all I hope for is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, I always find it so painful to be burdened with this existence of unnecessary suffering so cruelly denied the option to cease existing peacefully with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me only non-existence is positive and desirable, I just want to be permanently unconscious free from all pain and suffering, it's just so unbearable to me how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to face the extreme torture of old age.

 

[FoxSauce]

Mental issues since 12. I think

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Mostly emotional/mental pain. Occasionally physical as well.

 

[Cyrene]

Emotional Pain. I have depression and social anxiety

 

[LigottiIsRight]

My main issue is obsessive thinking. Yup, something like ruminating over a over about the same issues can be torturing enough to make a person want to ctb. Life is truly an amazing gift.

 

[Xiaojiu]

chronic pain is horrible. I deal with it everyday so I get how you feel

I really wish I was a dog who can get euthanized. Tbh, dogs get put down when they have physical issues like mine. Wish I was a loved dog. But, no, I'm a human and I must stay here and suffer

 

[Spite]

Emotional/mental pain for me. Autism, depression, debilitating social anxiety, and suicidal/homicidal ideation.

 

[Gangrel]

Mostly emotional that makes me tired all the time, i also have carpal tunnel syndrome so that hurts a lot sometimes and makes me unable to do my hobbies like reading or playing games

 

[Dark Moon]

Both mental and physical pain.

 

[KenDuh]

Depression and anxiety, also existentialist ideas

 

[inkmage333]

Emotional/mental pain that eventually leads to physical pain