What are you more afraid of: ctb or living to old age without trying?

[Bobert_Beniro]

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[AmIForReal]

Good question. There is the time element. Something further away is always a bit less terrifying. I have no partner, no children and not that much money. Being lonely now is hard and I think being lonely at an old age where one is less mobile and dependant on others seems worse.

It is one of the reasons for ctb.

CTB always scared me because of the possibility of agony or failure. But last few weeks less and less.

So overall, old age scares me more.

 

[daysnumbered]

I work with elderly people, many who can hardly walk, have dementia, and are unable to control their bladders anymore. They always call the twilight part of your life the "golden years", but for many it is less than golden. There was one lady that told me "enjoy being young, because these golden years are not so golden". I never want to reach an age where I need someone to help me wipe my ass, because I noticed that people are not always reliable.

 

[username12345]

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I'd rather die early than deal either decades of abuse. I already have. I don't get the point of sticking around just to be a punching bag.

 

[ramon]

Just another person here telling you that both my infant years and my youth years were not as satisfying as they should have.

Just another person here telling you that decaying health and decaying finances will definetely won't make it any better in the future.

So what if others have had way worse than me?!

Should I just stick around to watch another beautiful sunset while I already know that tomorrow morning my problems in life will slightly yet increasingly become bigger than me?!

Forget it!

(Short answer: Old age without trying)

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

well is wish nothing more than to die, so rationally I fear old age, for the simple fact that reaching an old age necessitates, my continued existence, and continued suffering in this valueless, cancerous existence that was forced upon me.

 

[turbomightbegone]

I'm scared of the concept of growing old, but I'm also scared of dying.

I suppose i would be more scared about reaching old age. By then i cant do shit. I'll just be rotting in a hospital or something. I'd probably have to watch people i care about die before me and having to live with all the guilt. I wouldn't be able to escape all the negative memories that'd pile on me if i became that old. I'd have to rely on other people, and people don't exactly seem to like me too much.

I'm just hoping that if I don't manage to cbt I die peacefully before reaching old age. Or maybe I'll change my mind about this whole ordeal due to a mooodswing. I don't know.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Life is scarier. Unfortunately, that does not seem to motivate me as well as you might think.

 

[leaftomb]

I'm terrified of getting old. The physical aspect of growing old is already bad, but I couldn't handle losing my memories and stuff like that. It's so scary to me, I'd rather CTB but die with all my memories still and a good idea of who I am

 

[BlazingBob]

They both scare me but old age does more. My body is torturing me with an incurable disease that gets worse with age. It's horrible now. I can't imagine what'll be like in 20 years.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Living scares the shit out of me now, I can't handle the thought of being here until old age.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I'm more afraid of old age and of living under so many threats.

I'm scared of a suicide attempt only in that it might fail

I don't fear Death, being dead because that's non-existence forever the ultimate bliss.

We all will die anyway, the problem is getting to non-existence without extreme suffering or extreme pain. The goal is to minimize suffering and to get the relief and safety of non-existence as quickly and without any suffering to get out of this nightmare called life an this evil world

 

[deathtakeme]

I'm already losing sense of who I am, so I don't think living past a certain age is an option for me, it will be terrifyingly lonely.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Ehhh. Good question. I wouldn't call it fear. More like, what is the better one of the two evils.
What I am afraid of is failing to get the things I need for ctb. Or someone "saving" me and I end up in a mental institution.

 

[FuneralCry]

In general I just fear suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, it terrifies me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist here, I'd fear trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony as a result but also being trapped here for so long just deteriorating and decaying just to die in agony tortured by old age. I fear how a human can exist for so long just to suffer way more unbearably as time goes on, to me personally the torment of old age is something so horrific that I'd rather avoid no matter what, I just hope and wish for nothingness, I only wish to never exist again as I find existing deeply undesirable and painful, existing has only ever causes me to suffer.

 

[Marine]

I'm afraid of rotting and wasting away the most. If I can find a way to live (aka with a partner) and stay physically young (like many people do) I'll take that option.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm more afraid of CTB - not death itself but failing and becoming a veggie. Life isn't scary to me.

 

[Unknown21]

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I'm afraid of CTB and failure. Suicide will still be there if I live, but I'm afraid of what I'll go through in life too.

 

[N33dT0D13]

Honestly right now I couldn't care less, I'll die miserable either way whether I tough it out or take the "easy" way out, whatever happens happens lol

 

[possessed]

Of course Old Age. Not even close.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Old age really frightens me. I don't feel like there's all that much to live for now. I don't want illness, pain, boredom, loneliness stacked up on top of that. There are multiple things to worry about for me with old age. I won't be in a good financial situation because I chose such a stupid career path. I won't have family or friends around. It's unlikely I'll be able to do my job when I'm older. Nah, I really need to motivate myself to get out before all that starts to happen.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Old age. Old age is absolutely horrible. It's full of suffering and pain. I have no idea why normies desire to be old. It's best to ctb when your body is young and healthy in my opinion

 

[glossble]

I'm scared of old age. I'm young but already tired and bored, I don't know how people live for 70-80 years? Getting old isn't a privilege, it's a slow torture till your body finally gives up. If you're lucky enough, you might not even get dementia. No, thanks. I'd rather take matters into my own hands (｡•́︿•̀｡)

It's better to burn out than to fade away​

 

[divinemistress36]

I went through a bad stroke at 29 theres no way in Hell i would go through old age