Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[N Seeker]

I feel stressed or overwhelmed. So much to do, and the more I think about the things I have to do, the more I procrastinate. It's really urgent, although not too serious. But I just have to do it...

 

[violetforever]

i cant bear to live anymore. why are people so busy with other stuff like work and families and stupid things that dont matter. im like a needy dumb child who always needs attention and doesnt understand that people have priorities and lives beyond me. i just have nothing in my life so i am so open to making a person my entire life and normal people arent like that. i dont think i can live in this world if i cant behave normally like that. i just dont even have the right personality and mental stability to be alive. when youre really ready to do it, there are no reasons that can keep you here. i give up on trying to find one. i never come up with any. it feels like reality is slipping away and being replaced with doom. tonight im afraid of how dark and empty life feels. nothing and no one makes me feel better. i feel even worse talking to people than being lonely.

 

[SilentVelvet]

I feel absorbed by life. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up again.

 

[CTB Dream]

this lif all pain sffr no knw wat do

 

[Unlucky777]

I just keep withdrawing from my family and friends.

The more I withdraw, the worse I feel. The worse I feel, the more I want to withdraw.

Repeat

Repeat

I genuinely hate life. I can't wait to make my next attempt. This cycle has to come to an end soon

 

[amor.dor]

I'm pushing myself way harder than I can handle. Soon, I'll start a psychiatric treatment. I'm betting my life on it—it's all or nothing now. I'm forcing a good mood with so much effort that I feel like I'm going to snap.
The die is cast. Now I am crossing my Rubicon.

 

[BlendedHeart]

I just sent that person I mentioned before to hell. She just wanted validation. That's the only thing I'm good for, in the eyes of other people. But no more. Fuck all of them.

I feel miserable right now, but I'm sure it will be better on the long term. Or, at least, I hope so.

 

[SkyFlower]

Tired, tired of being alone, tired of putting up a smile all day, tired of working hard just to save it all to barely afford university payments and get by, tired of carrying trauma I never asked for, tired of dealing with it all.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

so sad and scared and lonely and uselsess i just want to disapear

 

[emptymiku]

yearning for someone who will never feel the same way

 

[Trilly]

I feel empty and fed up, frustrated with life. I know I've been dug into a corner with nowhere to go and all I can do is delay at this point

 

[scordatura]

Busy making the only person in my mind hate me... fuck... give him some fucking space... but he takes up so much space in my head...

I wish I was never such a hassle... way too much, I get that man, I really do. Fuck.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

I keep on relapsing when I know I shouldn't. I am so afraid to start the journey for recovery and not lie to myself through these distractions and illusions. I am a mess right now and I don't like it

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

...I don't get the idea that anyone would find me attractive. Sometimes, that's what I might want. However, I've internalized so much self-hatred that that notion seems foreign to me. I feel like a complete mess without any kind of physical modifications. I've always depended on my ability to imagine being loved. I've only ever had relationships that went beyond platonic through being groomed or, in the most recent case, gaslighting; the one time I was with someone who societally would be considered physically attractive.

I believe I'd prefer to love myself rather than cling to someone else's approval.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

I don't think I've ever sincerely engaged with life or know how to. It's why I'm so underdeveloped. The more time passes the more out of sync I feel. I don't get what the point of all of it is when it ends anyway. I see life as a temporary condition to get through and not something to actively do.

 

[corpse]

Nobody cares about me, nobody will miss me, nobody will think of me, I am worthless.

 

[Dome42315]

I wish I could go to sleep instead of thinking about things.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

I wanna die so fucking bad. My existence is meaningless.

 

[BlendedHeart]

Another birthday.

No one cares. No one remembers.

Another wasted year. I should've been gone long time ago. Woke up crying. Had to stay in bed to not alarm anyone. Hate that.

I hope I die tonight. That would be a good gift. Or, at least, to get the courage to do it myself.

 

[Unlucky777]

I fucking HATE my brain/mind. I just want to escape from the torture that my brain/mind puts me through every second of each fucking day. FUCK YOU God or whoever the fuck you are who created life. I hope you have to endure eternal suffering of your own for creating life. I hope you suffer 1000 times worse than the beings who suffer on this earth.

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

 

[Manaaja]

All other species are pro-all females and pro-children, humans are the only anti-girl, anti-children, pro-mother, pro-father, pro-elderly species.

Everytime you are depressed or suicidal, it proves I should be the leader, not your mommy and daddy.

 

[corpse]

Nobody would read or comment on my goodbye thread, I'm such a fucking loser.

 

[BlendedHeart]

I am a fucking idiot. I keep torturing myself. Looking for things that will never happen.

Why don't I use that energy for killing myself instead? Why don't I use it to overcome this stupid survival instinct and finally take that step?

I hate life. I hate everything on it. I hate feeling things. Let me end it.

 

[violetforever]

i finally finished breaking bad <|3 the last 3 episodes were so intense

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

rage

 

[AndrewWood'sDeath]

It'll come, it's coming, something is wrong, it's coming, I need to get to Louisiana, I need to fix it, what's coming? Something is wrong what do I do. Man I wish I had someone to love. Then I could fix it whatever is wrong for them, it's coming, I need to fix it.

I know how to separate noodle from reality and how I actually act but I mean that's what's in the noodle.

*Oh and my hands are fucking cold. Just bought a new van to live in for super cheap and it's full of holes I'm really cold.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i think i have a crush and that feels weird to want to ask someone out at the same time as wanting to ctb

this is the scariest crush ever. because usually i know for sure they dont like me back. but with her, things she has said in the past makes me wonder if she might like me too. i really dont know. how weird to feel this way. i dont even know if i do have a crush or not for sure. maybe it doesnt matter anyway.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

As much as I hate myself, I have the best family I could have ever asked for. I could've ended up with one of those loser autism moms who'd try to justify attempting to kill me.

 

[jimmyinnout]

Wishing to go back to whatever I was before birth

 

[Self Medicated]

Can't do this anymore, don't want to be alive, but I don't want to die. Someone please invent cryostasis so I can sleep until they have magic pills.

Ditto. You've found the perfect solution, sign me up because I need to shit or get off the pot this limbo is torture.
53 going on 5. Keep saying I can't take any more but still here. Failed in every way a man can fail but still too scared and fucking angry to die.
Maybe next year?